[fic] ONIICHAN, AISHITERU?
Title: Oniichan, Aishiteru? - Chapter 16: What She Felt
Pairing: Akame (and some more to come), JinXOC
Rating: PG-13-NC-17
Genre: friendship, love, romance
Disclaimer: i don't own the characters here...
Author’s Notes: It's been a while since I wrote a yaoi fic. I hope you'll still read my fics... onegaishimasu *bows*
Summary: Jin and Kazuya knew that they are brothers. But what will they do if unconsciously the love they're feeling for each other was not just mere brotherly thing? What will they do if the love they feel were in a romantic way? Will they continue this or not? If they will, how?
You came to my house and you were soaking wet. You looked at your worst, I felt that something bad happened so I tried to let you in my house but you refused to. I asked what happened and you showed me the pictures. The pictures showed Koyama-kun leaning on me and I was hugging him. I wanted to explain everything to you but you didn`t give me a chance, you didn't even listened to me. You broke up with me, then you left me all alone. I watched you as you disappear in the rain. That was the last time that I will see you as my fiance.
Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by
I don't want to go back inside my house. I just sat there and leaned my back on the gate. I curled myself like a ball and cried. I wanted the rain to soak me so my tears won't be visible to anyone even to myself. I thought this day will be one of the happiest days of my life cause I'm sure that you're up to something that would surprise and make me happy. Yes, you did surprised me but it didn't make me happy at all. This day, the 15th day of July, will be the day that my world was destroyed. Will I cry? I'm so hurt... but I don't want to cry.
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last two years were just pretend and I say
I finally decided to go back inside my house when the rain stopped. The silence made me hear your words over and over again, "let's break up", you said it straight and didn't hesitate at all. It kept on repeating and I got sick of it. I tried to remember the moments you were saying that you love me so much but I can't remember them.... I can't hear your voice when I was trying to, all I can hear are those break up words, the very last words you told me. How can I start my tomorrow without you in my life? I felt so empty, I felt I have nothing in me, I don't have anything now... I lost you. I had you for the past two years, the two years I only felt happiness in my life... cause I have you... but still, I lost you.
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right
Everything about me was you. Every time you look in my eyes I felt that the two of us have our own world that no one else can disturb us. In that world there's only you and and me, in that world, you're only mine. I tried to imagine the next days that will come in my life knowing that you're not in that world anymore, that I'm there all alone without you being mine. It seems like that I can't go to that world anymore, cause I cant live in a world without you. I tried to think that everything will be alright again and you will be back to me by closing my eyes. I'm trying to fool myself that I still can have you, the one that gave light in my lonely life, but seems like that I was blinded by that light, and now, I can't see you anymore.
Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time
You're the only one I need in my life and everything will be alright. I want nothing else but you. You're my everything and I'm nothing without you. I gave you my everything and left nothing for me. Now you were taking everything away from me, except one thing, my sadness. You took my love, my heart and my happiness away along with you as you walked away. I want you back, I want you. No, I need you in my life I just don't know if I will fight for you, you don't even trust me anymore... you already lost your faith in me...
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Sayonara, sayonara, sayonara. I kept repeating those words so I will be able to accept that you're gone. But when every time I say it, I feel like a knife was stabbing me from my back. I love you so much, you're the only one that I loved since we're just toddlers, I never looked to any other guys, only to you. How can you not believe me after all those years I loved you so much. I'll exchange everything in my life just to have you. I don't need anything, just come back to me and I will hold on to you forever.
We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star
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Jin went back home, he was still soaking wet. Kazuya saw him and gave him towel right away.
KAZUYA: Oniichan?! What happened?
JIN: Kazu... are you gonna be mad if I make you wet cause I embraced you?
KAZUYA: Not at all...
JIN: Thanks... *cried more and embraced Kazuya really tight* Kazu... I broke up with her...
KAZUYA: Eh?! Naze?!
Jin just shook his head and cried n Kazuya's shoulder.
KAZUYA: If you want, why don't you skip school today?
JIN: I definitely will.
That day, Itsuko didn't went to school as well. Kazuya noticed that so after school he decided to go to Itsuko's house to check her out. He rang the door bell but no one was answering. He rang it twice, thrice, no one opened the door. When he was about to leave, the door finally opened. He saw Itsuko looking so haggard and in such a mess.
KAZUYA: Konnichiwa *bowed*
ITSUKO: *let out a faint smile* Come in.
Kazuya went inside Itsuko's house. Everything was not at its usual, everything was in a mess and not in order. There were shattered glasses on the ground, he almost stepped on Itsuko's broken phone. Itsuko invited him to sit on the couch.
ITSUKO: What brings you here Kazu?
KAZUYA: Eeto... I was just wondering why you didn't come to school today...
ITSUKO: I just don't feel like going to school today.
KAZUYA: *looked down* Oniichan... didn`t go to school today either.
ITSUKO: *short pause* Sou ka...
KAZUYA: He told me that... you already broke up but didn`t say a thing why... I came here to know the reason. I just want to know if I can help... please... tell me...
ITSUKO: Kazu....
[to be continued]
A/N: first of all, I want to say, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!!! well, there's a bit of Akame here now ne? LOLS! Don't worry, there will be more on the following chapters...:D just please be patient...:)
please do leave comments... arigatou gozaimasuta!
Pairing: Akame (and some more to come), JinXOC
Rating: PG-13-NC-17
Genre: friendship, love, romance
Disclaimer: i don't own the characters here...
Author’s Notes: It's been a while since I wrote a yaoi fic. I hope you'll still read my fics... onegaishimasu *bows*
Summary: Jin and Kazuya knew that they are brothers. But what will they do if unconsciously the love they're feeling for each other was not just mere brotherly thing? What will they do if the love they feel were in a romantic way? Will they continue this or not? If they will, how?
You came to my house and you were soaking wet. You looked at your worst, I felt that something bad happened so I tried to let you in my house but you refused to. I asked what happened and you showed me the pictures. The pictures showed Koyama-kun leaning on me and I was hugging him. I wanted to explain everything to you but you didn`t give me a chance, you didn't even listened to me. You broke up with me, then you left me all alone. I watched you as you disappear in the rain. That was the last time that I will see you as my fiance.
Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by
I don't want to go back inside my house. I just sat there and leaned my back on the gate. I curled myself like a ball and cried. I wanted the rain to soak me so my tears won't be visible to anyone even to myself. I thought this day will be one of the happiest days of my life cause I'm sure that you're up to something that would surprise and make me happy. Yes, you did surprised me but it didn't make me happy at all. This day, the 15th day of July, will be the day that my world was destroyed. Will I cry? I'm so hurt... but I don't want to cry.
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last two years were just pretend and I say
I finally decided to go back inside my house when the rain stopped. The silence made me hear your words over and over again, "let's break up", you said it straight and didn't hesitate at all. It kept on repeating and I got sick of it. I tried to remember the moments you were saying that you love me so much but I can't remember them.... I can't hear your voice when I was trying to, all I can hear are those break up words, the very last words you told me. How can I start my tomorrow without you in my life? I felt so empty, I felt I have nothing in me, I don't have anything now... I lost you. I had you for the past two years, the two years I only felt happiness in my life... cause I have you... but still, I lost you.
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right
Everything about me was you. Every time you look in my eyes I felt that the two of us have our own world that no one else can disturb us. In that world there's only you and and me, in that world, you're only mine. I tried to imagine the next days that will come in my life knowing that you're not in that world anymore, that I'm there all alone without you being mine. It seems like that I can't go to that world anymore, cause I cant live in a world without you. I tried to think that everything will be alright again and you will be back to me by closing my eyes. I'm trying to fool myself that I still can have you, the one that gave light in my lonely life, but seems like that I was blinded by that light, and now, I can't see you anymore.
Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time
You're the only one I need in my life and everything will be alright. I want nothing else but you. You're my everything and I'm nothing without you. I gave you my everything and left nothing for me. Now you were taking everything away from me, except one thing, my sadness. You took my love, my heart and my happiness away along with you as you walked away. I want you back, I want you. No, I need you in my life I just don't know if I will fight for you, you don't even trust me anymore... you already lost your faith in me...
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Sayonara, sayonara, sayonara. I kept repeating those words so I will be able to accept that you're gone. But when every time I say it, I feel like a knife was stabbing me from my back. I love you so much, you're the only one that I loved since we're just toddlers, I never looked to any other guys, only to you. How can you not believe me after all those years I loved you so much. I'll exchange everything in my life just to have you. I don't need anything, just come back to me and I will hold on to you forever.
We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star
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Jin went back home, he was still soaking wet. Kazuya saw him and gave him towel right away.
KAZUYA: Oniichan?! What happened?
JIN: Kazu... are you gonna be mad if I make you wet cause I embraced you?
KAZUYA: Not at all...
JIN: Thanks... *cried more and embraced Kazuya really tight* Kazu... I broke up with her...
KAZUYA: Eh?! Naze?!
Jin just shook his head and cried n Kazuya's shoulder.
KAZUYA: If you want, why don't you skip school today?
JIN: I definitely will.
That day, Itsuko didn't went to school as well. Kazuya noticed that so after school he decided to go to Itsuko's house to check her out. He rang the door bell but no one was answering. He rang it twice, thrice, no one opened the door. When he was about to leave, the door finally opened. He saw Itsuko looking so haggard and in such a mess.
KAZUYA: Konnichiwa *bowed*
ITSUKO: *let out a faint smile* Come in.
Kazuya went inside Itsuko's house. Everything was not at its usual, everything was in a mess and not in order. There were shattered glasses on the ground, he almost stepped on Itsuko's broken phone. Itsuko invited him to sit on the couch.
ITSUKO: What brings you here Kazu?
KAZUYA: Eeto... I was just wondering why you didn't come to school today...
ITSUKO: I just don't feel like going to school today.
KAZUYA: *looked down* Oniichan... didn`t go to school today either.
ITSUKO: *short pause* Sou ka...
KAZUYA: He told me that... you already broke up but didn`t say a thing why... I came here to know the reason. I just want to know if I can help... please... tell me...
ITSUKO: Kazu....
[to be continued]
A/N: first of all, I want to say, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!!! well, there's a bit of Akame here now ne? LOLS! Don't worry, there will be more on the following chapters...:D just please be patient...:)
please do leave comments... arigatou gozaimasuta!