Avengers (2012): "Eyes Open" (Clint/Natasha)

[cybermathwitch]

Title: Eyes Open
Author/Artist: Koren M. (cybermathwitch)
Disclaimer: Not mine. If they were, there'd already be a Black Widow/Hawkeye movie.
Pairing: Clint/Natasha
Rating: Adult 17+
Warnings: language, sexual content, mild D/s content
Spoilers: None
Type: Stand-Alone
Word Count: 853
Summary: Any mission should be approached with eyes wide open. Clint wants to

Comments

[sugar_fey]

RAWR.

he hadn't wanted to rush her, or to imply that sex was something she owed him along with her life,

Headcanon accepted!

I love how much they care about each other. *feels*

I want to know what the mission in France involves!

[cybermathwitch]

Heehee! yay! I'm glad you liked it!

Well... like I told helikedmyshoes (I'm c&p-ing because I have work in a minute): It was *supposed* to be a mission where they go undercover at a bdsm club, because the guy they want to get information from is incredibly paranoid about his security and all - but he (at least purports to be) a Dom who likes redheads (and because he's a bad guy, and the asshole-ish kind of Dom, it wouldn't occur to him that a sub might be able to play him on the level needed to be a threat. So, they were supposed to go in, get him interested in Tasha, and so on, with the hopes that he might invite her back to his place so they could get inside.

So. But somewhere along the way I realized that these two like the power exchange, that's fine, but don't care about/for impact or pain play or more formal scenes. And if they're bored with it, writing it (by which I mean all the later bits when they're undercover) is going to be dead boring, too. :-/

That said? I keep getting bits of your headcanon from our discussion here and

[sugar_fey]

Clint is the first person she's ever trusted (in any way) enough to really believe that he's got a situation handled and could (and *would*) protect her if she let go for a little while, whether that means getting some sleep or getting lost in a book, or subspace.

HEADCANON ACCEPTED. Seriously, if you ever want to write more about this I would love to read it. She trusts him not to take advantage of her because of the connection and relationship they've built together and because at heart he is a good man (not a nice man, but a good one), and she trusts him to handle a situation if it should arise because she trusts and respects his abilities. THERE'S SO MUCH TRUST GAAAAAH I CANNOT HANDLE THESE FEELINGS.

And I still absolutely see them switching, but I don't know that I see Clint (if he's the one tied up) ever getting into a sub headspace. With him, it's more about the resistance/strugglingOh, YES. Tell me more. ;) It's all about the resistance/struggling, and the fact that he could break out if he really wanted to but chooses not

[cybermathwitch]

HEADCANON ACCEPTED. Seriously, if you ever want to write more about this I would love to read it. She trusts him not to take advantage of her because of the connection and relationship they've built together and because at heart he is a good man (not a nice man, but a good one), and she trusts him to handle a situation if it should arise because she trusts and respects his abilities. THERE'S SO MUCH TRUST GAAAAAH I CANNOT HANDLE THESE FEELINGS.

So - this is a thing that's relevant to, oh, ALL THE STORIES THAT I'M WRITING WRITE NOW ahem. Except in all of them, I'm trying to figure out *why*. Why does she trust him so much? I mean, yes, absolutely she's right too, and he's amazing (and I <3 and absolutely agree with good vs. nice as you put it) but how does she get to that realization? It's not just sparing her life. I'm trying to figure out how to get her from this horribly manipulated, damaged woman to someone that can trust someone so completely she can literally turn off everything and just trust him. From two (or three)

[helikedmyshoes]

But...

But.

Where's the rest?

I need moreeeee this is so hot oh my god. This mission and the eye contact and how super hot the sex is going to be. I need to know how this turns out! And good lord that ending...*fans self* so. effing. hot. Wow..

[cybermathwitch]

::looks at the floor. scuffs toe across the rug:: Weeeeeelllllll... the thing is... I don't *know*. And not like "they haven't told me the story yet" I don't know, but like "so that plot bunny was defective" I don't know

[helikedmyshoes]

I totally understand all you're saying and how it became boring for you. I would have even just liked to see the rest of that one sex scene, and how they had to work through it the entire time. Plus is was scorching hot and I wanted more of Cint telling her what to do. I'm shallow like that. ;)

[cybermathwitch]

It's not so much that this part became boring, as I realized writing the mission as a whole would be too... clinical, maybe? I think bob5fic and sugar-fey have talked me into writing more in this particular universe, though! ;)

(I am also entirely shallow, so you're in good company.)

[cybermathwitch]

Thank you! :D

[crazy4orcas]

I would really like to see you continue this, but can see what you mean in your comments about it being boring to write.

In particular I loved this line -- In reality they shifted power easily between them and played to their strengths, deferring to whoever had more skill or better intel on any given occasion. -- it not only shows just how professional they are, but also how much trust they have in each other.

"No. I want you to look at me. I want to see your eyes, the whole time, got it?" -- HOT!!

[cybermathwitch]

Thank you so much! YAY awesome comments! :-) I'm glad you liked it.

[cybermathwitch]

I would love to find a way to "salvage" this particular story sequence... I just need to figure out the best way to do it. I don't think doing a narrative actiony adventure of the mission (like I'd originally planned) is the way to go, though. ::makes the thinky face::

[cybermathwitch]

Well, I do love a puzzle. ;) I suppose that means I need to figure out what bits want to be written next.