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[avenue]

Ahh, I haven't had one of these posts in a while. But maybe the reason for my being mondo-cynical today is because I'm running on one hour of sleep (tried for school, but I missed it anyway because I felt hella horrible when I woke up...) and haven't eaten in 18 hours

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[windblownglass]

I realized I'm not, and never will be, as smart/great/capable/pretty/loving as I think I am, or as I show to others--I'm probably trying to make up for a major lack in my personality.

Think positively, Ria. You are as good as you think you are, and bringing yourself down will change the way you act to other people, whether you think they deserve you or not, whether you think you deserve them or not.

We give things when we receive, too, most of the time without realizing it, so we are never lacking in anything. Even being negative to someone, being impolite or uncaring, makes them notice things in themselves, in others, and in you. Don't worry about giving too much or too little; it's always enough. There's always room to give more, of course, but the main thing is that it's equivalent exchange.

*hug* ♥♥

Don't say 'Sorry', just say 'Thank you'. It feels better on both ends. ♥ That's easy to forget.

Love ya, Ria. ♥ Feel better. You're a great friend, and I'm not just saying that. :) Thank you.

[avenue]

It always feels as if they're giving more. Or quality products. I mean, if I was the one being cheated, I'd be angry. Giving all that effort for practically nothing in return...while it isn't the end of the world, it's entirely disheartening. Makes you not want to give anything anymore. So it's like #3 and #4... I'm being hypocritical, but some people's kindness is really inhumane. Unreasonable. The only kind family can give.

So I sometimes wonder... why aren't they angry? I appreciate it all, but why are they doing this when they should know I can't pay them back just as well (or at least react appropriately)--in turn, I'm not worth it? I don't want to be presumptuous anymore either.

The people that continue to care. I'm both sorry and grateful to.

I love you too, Kat. :)

[windblownglass]

I know what you mean, with some people. I used to think so much about that too - how I seemed to be giving and giving but not getting anything back. I think I learned to be more mature from that. It helped me anyway..

I think it's because their feelings are as close to selfless as they can get. They know you can give back, but they just don't try to expect anything in return, and that makes them feel better. Just be thankful for it. :)

Always remember that you are worth it. Otherwise, frankly, m'dear, we wouldn't give a damn. ;)

♥♥

[angiechild]

If you cry, I'll cry too.

I'm not good at expressing emotions, really. But, well, nothing really hurts me if it's related to me, but if there's something wrong with you or you feel bad, I worry. A lot.

Sleep more. I need it, too, or my left eye won't hold out this weekend either.

[avenue]

You're a sweetheart. Really, you're a good person inside.

Thank you for caring. Actually, it kind of makes me feel good, hearing that from you. Don't let me add on to the stress, though. I'm... I think I'm an easily distracted person, so I'll bounce back real quick!

Let's both try balancing duties and rest.

[h311ybean]

I think I speak for everyone in our family when I say that we love you no matter what. Things are not perfect so we don't say "I love you" and sometimes we may lose patience or disagree with each other, but when the going gets tough we will always take care of each other, no strings attached. So don't worry about pleasing anyone or deserving to be loved or whatever - in our family you get the benefits just by being part of it.

(To be continued - I have to get ready for class!)