a place meant to hide..

[autumnfire]

"i've been out haunting the neighborhood..
and everybody can see i'm no good
when i'm walking out between parked cars,
with my head full of stars.."

swallowed.

drowned.

sinking.

fast.

faster..

gone.

Comments

[regretfulsinner]

Okay, I am worried... poem?

[autumnfire]

first off, no need to worry..

secondly, i like your icon :) i always like your icons, they are intriguing..

and the top part in quotes are lyrics from an elliott smith song..ive been drowning myself in his music lately, namely just his self titled cd..its quite poignant at the time in my life, and it is also one of my favorite albums to listen to..especially at this time of year.

i added the rest in lieu of the song and its meaning, how i was feeling, and to make it my own poetic version of the song..

dont worry, i appreciate your concern, but i am aok. just got a lot on my mind and felt the lyrics were perfect at the time..

[regretfulsinner]

Oh, phew. For a moment there, I thought I had to jump in and say, “HOLD YOUR HEAD HELD HIGH!” And all the positive stuff I usually say to friends when they are feeling down. And thanks for the compliment! I try to get icons that are ‘out there’. I am glad you like and they intrigue you. That’s my mission! And it is accomplished. Oh such a sweet thing you are.

[autumnfire]

haha...aww..well i appreciate the sentement all the same. it is always niceto hear someone give you a little positive boost when things are rough..so thank you :)

your icons are certainly intriguing and i hae always been fond of them ..the one you posted here is ..well, powerful to say the least. i am actually coming up with a concept of three oil paintings i hope to complete over the next couple of years(and show as my final project in school), and this icon reminds me somewhat of the them i am going for..i likes i likes..

thank you for the compliment and the positive outlook, i think you are the one who is sweet..

Do you...

[ex_mikelind]

...ever have anything positive to say?

ummm, do you...

[autumnfire]

really want me to answer that?..

this isnt the time to try and make me feel bad about my state of mind..i could say the same for about 99% of your entries, however, i think you are saying it for a reason..i respect that is how you are feeling and what you are going through. id rather not be patronized or looked down upon for having a lot of shit i have no need to explain to anybody, weighing down on me and that when the mood strikes i write and/or post something. i dont care if anyone looks at my journal, that isnt why i write in it..its more for my records and to look back on. i dont think there is anything at all wrong with feeling a certain way about anything really. you dont have to read my journal, and it is nice that you do, but negative commentary such as this is not necessary at all.

Re: ummm, do you...

[ex_mikelind]

I just don't think I have ever heard you NOT bitch.

just like honey.

[autumnfire]

then you obviously dont read all of my entries or know me at all.

my livejournal isnt some kind of direct relation to every single emotion and every single day that i am going through.

you have no idea from what i post what is really going on with me so i think that is a pretty naive statement.

id also like to point out that youre the one who is being negative here..

[next2meusuck]

have you heard elliott's cover of jealous guy? I was listening to it today. great stuff. Hope you're doing well. Have a good christmas and don't let fuckers who don't know what they're talking about get you down.

Fuckers!?

[ex_mikelind]

I'd like to see you call me that to my face, smartass.

[next2meusuck]

hey i said fuckers, which is pural. I include myself in that catagory. I wasn't attacking you. I think we're too old for LJ drama. actually, probably just too old for LJ in general. anywho....

Nice save...

[ex_mikelind]

...I like you now.