Coming Out

[autumnatmidnite]

I suppose it's safe to write this here since LJ seems to be so thoroughly dead. I've only ever spoken the words to one other living soul, but I recently came to terms with the fact that I'm transgender a handful of years ago, and now that pandora's box has been opened, it gets harder and harder to shove the contents back in, lock it the fuck up,

Comments

[ellieet]

*massive hugs* And you are beautiful and you are brave. I am so sorry for your pain especially as I myself suffer suicidal thoughts due to various reasons. But you are you and you are wonderful. ❤️❤️❤️

[autumnatmidnite]

Thank you :) *hugs back* You are wonderful for such a kind comment <3

It's actually weird to hear a word of support because the only person who knows IRL is my enby friend. They're fricken' awesome and a one person support system, although everyone else, at the best of times just looks at you like, okaaaay, you're screws are a bit loose. Think I'll always have suicidal ideation but I've managed to get frustrated enough to tell them to STFU. Wish it were that easy, tho. Sending you out good vibes and hope it gets better (it can, and it does).

[methylviolet10b]

<3

You are you, and you are wonderful and amazing and perfect. I'm so glad you're here, and still here.

I'm sorry people suck and have such trouble accepting reality in general and your truth in particular. All the hugs in the world to you.

[autumnatmidnite]

Holy cripes. It's beyond lovely to "see" you again. *hugs* It's been a long time, hasn't it? There were such good memories here I seriously need to pop by more often.

I actually didn't think anyone would see this but so glad I got that out of my system. I normally don't have any spare fucks to give about other people's opinions; only I live next door to Trump supporters, with another one a few houses down, and I've had to hear some nasty shit literally in my own back yard :( People have become so vitriolic, it's literally insane.

[calzephyr77]

Thank you for sharing your truth!

[autumnatmidnite]

Thank you! It felt damn good to get that off my chest.

[amedia]

Oh, sweetie. This is SO BRAVE. I really admire your courage and honesty in writing and especially in sharing. Please, know that this is a space where you can receive love and acceptance.

[autumnatmidnite]

You have no idea how heartwarming that is to hear <3 Especially on those days when you just get in a bad place and it feels like you are just so isolated from everybody and everything remotely "normal". Thank you so, so much :) *hugs* <3

[adena_kaiba]

Oh my god. I'm so glad you're still among us. You are so brave and you have every right to be proud of yourself and everything you achieved.
*massive hugs*

[autumnatmidnite]

Ohhh, its wonderful to see you again! I haven't been around this old joint in so long, but I still find myself coming back to check around every once in a while. A shame LJ isn't what it used to be anymore.

And thank you in bunches for the support. It means soooo much. *hugs you back*