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[aurora_lost]

Oh, I dunno.

Seems like whenever I feel like doing something creative, particularly something that has the potential for making money, the day after being excited about it I suddenly find the idea revolting to continue putting effort into. I guess it applies also to ideas I have which have no money-making potential. I just can't carry my interests

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[deanmoriarty77]

Dawn, we are not of this world.

That's why i hang out at the bar.

Maybe you should start drinking?

[aurora_lost]

I do drink. I was just at the bar yesterday, which is admittedly rare. Mainly because I have no money of my own and I mooch off my sister.

I hope, for you and for me, and anyone like us, that it's all for a reason. That SOMETHING good comes out of...nothing. lol.

[aurora_lost]

which isn't to imply that YOU'VE done nothing, o' course.

[deanmoriarty77]

Oh, to the contrary.

You and i have done so much. We've lived our lives, no?

NOw go to my LJ and post five questions.

ThAt's what my problem has been..

[mrs_crystal]

for years!!!

Its soooooo irritating.

but I think its due to putting too much weight onto others giving leaping support & helping me make it happen.
& since that like never happens, fear boltz all to freeze frame, & says "What are you thinking? crazy, silly person. @_@"

I think this must be the common for a lot of people. Other wise we'd all be wealthy in funds, & busy in craft.

on top of that, there's that ever prevalent poking thought, that makes us want to do/make something of everlasting, world changing, (for the better,) components to it.

ugh! its so annoying!
*eye roll.

<3
-c-

Re: ThAt's what my problem has been..

[aurora_lost]

Yeah. I guess it's common.

And that IS a problem--I should let go of the idea that I have to 'change the world' in some big way. That's so egotistical and is probably borne of a inner sense of mediocrity.

Re: ThAt's what my problem has been..

[mrs_crystal]

rather than "borne of a inner sense of mediocrity."
I think its closer to a "survival of the species" type deal. inner need to make things better & better for the now & future of the world.

that's why there are so many cool things to tinker around with. Oh & clean water & funny clothes. blah blah.

still, its annoying. & quite a hindrance. @_@

Re: ThAt's what my problem has been..

[aurora_lost]

You know, I used to think I cared about the welfare of the world. And I suppose I still do, to a point. But I carry around the notion--accurate or not--that it wouldn't MATTER if the world dissolved in a nuclear blast, for instance, because Life isn't restricted to the earth-plane. We'd carry on, perhaps just as stupidly, on another plane. Until/unless a person 'finds the way' out of the cycle.

I often think that's all I was born, this time, to do. Find the way out, and maybe share my learning with others if appropriate. But while sometimes that seems like a relief, also sometimes it seems egotistical too. Not to mention the fact that it could be complete fantasy I've woven in order to compensate for my lack of accomplishment.

And anyway, sometimes I just want to be famous. I just don't want to have to put forth any effort to get there.

oh yeah

[mrs_crystal]

R U coming too?

man, baby just peed & it leaked out the side of the diapy. 0_o iss ok

Re: oh yeah

[aurora_lost]

Pretty!

No, I told Ang that I didn't feel like it, so she's probably going straight to your house from work after she gets herself some cigs.

Re: oh yeah

[mrs_crystal]

yup. I found out. they're here. lol. :P

Re: I to am guilty of this..

[aurora_lost]

I know exactly what you mean. I have that problem too.

LAME!!