Comments | aubrilee: every day is a new day

aubrilee

every day is a new day

Dec 05, 2008 02:40

i wake up each morning and i go to bed each night.
i miss my hair sometimes - when i'm trying to make a dramatic head gesture, or when i see someone with a cool hairstyle on the train. i think to myself "oh, i'll do that tomorrow" and then realize i won't do that for a long, long time.
( mopey stuff )

breakup, jenna, work, computer, spain, money, schmitty, depression, daddy

Comments 6

about the breakup soymaster December 5 2008, 08:34:08 UTC

hey i know how hard breakups can be, and i know i dont know what you have been through besides what you wrote on this. but i can say is that looking in the mirror and jugeing your self is not going to help the healing. just be yourself, and people will like you just for that. dont feel as though you have to change ur hole life for somebody. things will work out. i know lossing weight is hard and takes time but if someone cant like you for who you are on the inside then its not ment to be. dont get me wrong if you want to lose weight thats fine just dont think you have to lose weight for somebody to like you or be with you. be happy of who you are on the inside and just me someone will find that more atractive then what you look on the outside. personality is what really should matter. well i hope this helps and i am sorry if i came off mean or unsenceitive. thats not my intent.

Re: about the breakup aubrilee December 26 2008, 06:39:05 UTC

that's not what i was saying at all.

i know people like me. that's not in question. there is only one person who doesn't, but it's the most important person, so it hurts.

also, i am not losing weight for him. i'm not really even trying to lose weight. i was saying it would be EASIER if it could be that simple. it would be nice if i could control something, like my appearance or my profession, and that would change things. but that's not how it goes. i can't just lose weight or change my job and fix our relationship, in fact i don't think it's fixable. at least not anything i could fix.

also, how and why are you reading my journal? i don't think i know you....

Spain greenity December 5 2008, 15:27:20 UTC

Getting a work visa in Europe is wicked hard, but Spain does have language teaching assistantships which pay pretty decently, so it may be worth it to look into them (the applications will be due sometime soon, I believe, so my advice would be to apply now, and you could always decide later to do something else). I'm full of sometimes-useless tips-for-working-in-Europe trivia, some even applicable to Spain, so if you want to talk, let me know.

Re: Spain aubrilee December 5 2008, 16:26:19 UTC

yeah, our plan was to start out teaching, and see what jobs we could find after that. we haven't really thought this out, to be honest.

i feel like a jerk ddmelby December 6 2008, 17:36:45 UTC

I didn't catch up with you Friday. I didn't get much of the things I wanted to done either. I miss you. I worry about you. I want to say and do the things to make you feel better and I'm not even making a reasonable attempt and that makes me a bad friend. I wish I could just like veg on the couch with you and just hug you. I think that would make me feel better too. I'm glad you were able to see your family and get a little break for the holidays.

Re: i feel like a jerk aubrilee December 8 2008, 05:59:36 UTC

you're not a jerk. you are living your life, and you've got your own stuff. lord knows i didn't call either.
besides, i spend most of my time lying around watching family guy, so if you spend a part of your day laying around watching trash tv, it's almost like we're doing it together :)