gah

[aubrilee]

aubri, meet insecurity. insecurity, meet au-
what's that? you say you already know her? intimately? death grip?

huh.

stupidity, meet au-
already me? again?! really?
hmmm.

frustration? let me guess. aubri? yeah, she's right there.

goodnight frickin' world.

Comments

[peterlake]

what'd I do?

...oh wait, you mean schmitty's ex, don't you?

we should talk. I am so in solidarity with this post. why is it so hard? le sigh.

*loves you*

[aubrilee]

yes. it has been a difficult coincidence for me. it's a bit easier because it's pronounced hel-ee-na.

he got home around 2am last night. i went to bed before him, woke up around 5am and flipped out on him. really it was just the whole "you meet up with her after work, i call at 10:30 saying i'd like to come out, you say don't bother, then you don't come home for another 2 hours, and then you're too tired to talk, let alone have sex. and WHY is it we haven't had sex since she's been here, and why has she spent more time with you in one evening than i have in a week, and why does it feel like i am being intentionally excluded?"
and he apologized and didn't know he was doing it, and didn't know how to make things better, and i didn't know how to make things better, so i just kind of willed myself to stop being a paranoid bitch because it's the EXACT opposite of what i wanted to be in this little experiment, and i still have a long long way to go on the road to being a real girl
*sigh*
so, yah. i feel ya.

[ddmelby]

How are you NOT being a real girl? Look, no one could expect you to not be jealous considering what you said just happened. If Roy pulled that I'd be furious. You don't spend time with your ex. She's your ex for a reason. If you were kind enough to let her stay there, he should be kind enough to either include you or come home. I don't think you should be insecure. You and I both know you rock his world. Jealous and angry though - definetly you should be. So don't you get down on yourself for one minute. I'll be home tonight at 9:30 and off for the rest of the weekend. call if you want to talk.