if i could scratch and claw my way out of this cave
i'd show you exactly what you've saved.
but i am far to weak and all that i feel is dead
another curse, another demon inside my fucking head.

CARRY YOUR OWN CROSS,
MINE IS HEAVY ENOUGH.

indiana to missouri to colorado to neveda to california to arizona to texas to florida to georgia to south carolina to virginia to new jersey to pennsylvania ( Read more... )

i blame myself.
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i ( Read more... )

i must've been a lost cause.
can't sleep.
don't want to.
no sense.
hope i drop dead.

i owe you big time don't i ( Read more... )

i torture myself ( Read more... )

Will I lose my dignity?
Will someone care?
Will i wake tomorrow
from this nightmare?

i was always told to swallow my pride. i was always told to try things different because if my usual demeanor didn't work in the past, why should i use it in the future? there's no contact. there's nothing to speak of. i can't say i didn't do this, because it's most likely my fault. i cut the ties without ever holding a pair of scissors. my ( Read more... )

yo before i leave for 6 weeks, i'm gonna come out and say this ( Read more... )

often irritable, mostly pathetic.
i'm just glad i have my own identity.
even if it means i have 14 of them.
talk about being headstrong.
you speak as if everyone's impressed.
behind your back you're a second place prize.
you don't feel what you write.
and you don't write what you feel.
you judge people on what they can give you
not what the have.
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