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[ataraxian_dream]

I'm feeling darker... colder... more free. I'm caring less. My path is becoming more clear. I feel more whole this way. My mortality is mattering less and less. Very little concerns me now. My perspective is become more complete. None of this is new. I'm just better at it all, now

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[entropicflux]

this is exactly how i almost died one time. not like it matters right now, but this won't last as long as you'd like. i can't stress this enough: this is exactly how i got where i am today. seriously, the cold bath thing was creepily similar. the only difference was that you have a window in your bathroom. the only way that this could work out for you, that i know of, is if you can kill your brain too. otherwise you'll probably be in for a very "fun" ride in about two years or so. as far as i know, you won't recover.

[ataraxian_dream]

Ever since my clinically depressed teen years, I've had these stages of clarity. It's not depression, but it was spurred on by it. Now, it comes directly from my consciousness instead of a chemical imbalance. I'm beginning to not recognize a difference between living and non living matter. Yes, I did almost kill myself, as well. I've done that several times, actually. All this is certainly not new to me. It's just far, far more common in the past few months. I'm learning new things, though, and growing in interesting ways.

[entropicflux]

hahaha i wasn't talking about cutting my wrists, or pulling a trigger, comrade.

[spazmire]

but a bullet never tells a lie...

[pragmatica]

I think I've read this before...All except for the bath part.

I fear you are going in circles, my friend. I could be wrong, for I seem to know little on this matter, but that is how it appears.

[ataraxian_dream]

You are wrong

[i_am_pellucid]

Fight.

[ataraxian_dream]

Thanks, Chris

[i_am_pellucid]

You're welcome.