depressed...

[asianbutterfly]

well, it's been 3 days since we last spoke, and i'm feeling like crap! i've been so empty and lost lately, like my mind is somewhere else... it's tough trying to be stoic when you care for someone so damn much!!! uuuugggghhhhh (frustrated) he's so ignorant, insensitive, stubborn, obsessive and shallow, and yet I find myself yearning for him??? what

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[flyhawtie]

Hey!!!! Welcome to LJ!!! :)

***hugs*** You know what, I'm not talking to him at all anymore. He texts me every day, but I haven't returned the messages or anything. I've come to realize that I can't change him. It's not his fault that he's the way he is. We just had different upbringings. And in his culture, they are WAY more strict. I can't compromise myself TOO much, and I don't want him to have to change. As much as I love him, I'm too old to be doing this. I love the way he treated me. But once I started kickin' it w/ other people, I realize that other guys treat me great too. And I was really really attracted to the way he looked. But looks will fade over the years. And I think I thought he was fione cuz I was so sprung on him. He had a good thing, and he chased it away. You should call me, come out and play. :) Summer's here. It's no time to settle down! :)

I'm having a get 2gether at my house on Friday. We're just gonna chill, eat dinner, smoke, and watch tv. Really low-key if you wanna roll by. :)

;-) thanks, Babe!

[asianbutterfly]

you're so sweet! I'm glad to know that you're being strong and so focused, it makes me feel better inside knowing that you're not letting him bother you anymore. you're very smart on your comment, you are right, we can't change them and we shouldn't, if they want to change for the better, they'll do it on their own, and that's that. I don't know if it's the fact that it's summer and relationships just fall apart or what... but seems like every time that summer comes around... there's so much drama in my relationships! uuuggghhhh! don't know what's up w/ that! anyways... things happen for a reason (so cliche, but true), so be it! *there better be reason for all this shit!*
;-) i'll call u about friday!