Fic: Fallen (16/?)
Fallen
by Erin Griffin
Fandom: Murder In Suburbia/Imagine Me And You crossover
Pairing: Ash/Scribbs, Rachel/Lucy
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: ITV owns these characters.
Summary: When Ash falls and hits her head one rainy afternoon, she wakes up without her recent memory. What she does remember leads her to believe she is married to Scribbs, so to help her get better, Scribbs has to care for Ash as her wife, which leads to many new revelations about her partner... and herself.
Warning: This story has heavy angst, mentions of murder (duh), rape, and other unpleasant things, which is why it will only be mentioned. There is also hurt/comfort, something I don't do that much if ever in fic, so we'll see how it all works out.
Chapter 16
*I’m sorry for the mushy assed chapter. Song is She's The One by Robbie Williams. No infringement meant.
As soon as the two women entered the flat, Ash went over to the fish tank and checked the water to make sure the filter was doing its job. Then she took some of the fish food, dashed a little bit in her palm before tipping it into the tank, and watched as it floated on the water’s surface before Upy discovered what was going on. Scribbs watched as Ash smiled at Upy, and the blonde wondered again how she could feel so changed in the course of a couple of days. If she were to think about any of it for very long- and at times she preferred not to- she’d have to admit to herself that Ash had always changed her world for the better, that Ash was the reason why she was so happy at her job. As she put the cheesecake and leftover food in the refrigerator, she wondered how her life could feel so complete, fulfilled. How could this life that wasn’t even real be the only thing that mattered to her?
With that thought, she wondered if Ash’s memories would ever come back. Scribbs knew that she loved the brunette more and more each time their eyes locked or hands touched, and that scared her. She tried to hold back some of this because to her it all seemed too soon for some of this, but to Ash, they were supposed to be this way with each other because they were married.
As Scribbs was at the refrigerator, she heard the beginning music to the song 'She’s the One', Ash’s favorite song by Robbie Williams.
I was her
She was me
We were young
We were free
And if there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
We were young
We were wrong
We were fine all along
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
Scribbs thought about the words that were coming from the speakers, and she knew that the words were true for them. Ash had always been the one who’d made her feel anything, from annoyance then to love now. Ash was the reason why she liked getting up in the morning, especially now that she got the privilege of seeing her completely unguarded when the brunette slept. She loved that Ash was her partner, helping her stop crime, and on occasion, being her partner IN crime. Why wouldn’t they be partners in all other aspects of the word as well?
Scribbs slowly turned and walked into the living room. She saw that her wife was sitting on the couch and was struck momentarily by her beauty. She wasn’t sure if it was in part the doing of the song. She loved how Ash’s eyes seemed to shine in a way that was meant only for her. Scribbs gave her wife a small smile and was rewarded with one in return. There was a pat on the couch as Ash beckoned her, and like a magnet, Scribbs was pulled forward.
As her wife came to sit by her, Ash began to think about how different the two of them were. She had always been known as the dark broody one (or that was how people saw her when she was a DS) while Scribbs was the light, perky one. In the back of her mind, she got the feeling that someone had summed them up that way a little more recently than seven years ago, but she couldn’t remember when or who had said it. Still, looking at her partner and seeing the look in her eyes, the almost hesitant yet shy way that she looked at her made Ash realize how much she loved her and how much of a perfect match they were. Ash had never felt for anyone the way she felt for this woman. Sure, there was the crush a long time ago, which led her to the discovery of her sexuality, but that other woman had been a lot older, straight and married. Even then, there was never the connection she felt with Scribbs. Never. Scribbs was the only woman that Ash had been intimate with, and she couldn’t help but think about how happy she was.
And yet, with the way that her life was at the moment, she couldn’t help but feel that something still wasn’t right. There was just that nagging feeling that just would not go away. She'd tried to force it out of her mind earlier that night when she was with Rachel, Lucy, and H, and she had for a while, but still, now, she wondered on it.
When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You’re smiling
When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna play it
You’ll be so high you’ll be flying
Though the sea
Will be strong
I know we’ll
Carry on
Cause if there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
Both women sat listening to the song lyrics, knowing that the song was meant for them. They knew that they would always push and pull each other in any given direction whether or not they wanted to go there. Even with the nagging feeling in the back of her head telling her that there was still something that was going to make things difficult for the pair, Ash felt confident that they could get through it. ‘And even if,’ Ash thought to herself as the song went into an instrumental portion, ‘the road from here on is long and bumpy, I’d rather go down this road with Emma than to not be with her at all.’
Scribbs on the other hand, knew that the next bit would be rough, but she knew that if Ash was aware of just how much she loved her, they would be able to get through it. If they could get through that, then they could definitely go through worse. As long as they were together.
When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You’re smiling
When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna play it
You’ll be so high you’ll be flying
The two detectives looked at each other at the same time, and just then, both of them knew exactly where they were meant to be. Without words, they made further contact, Scribbs almost crawling into Ash’s lap as they cuddled together on the couch. Their lips met quickly, and Scribbs hovered over Ash for a second so that they shared the same air. Her first instinct was to say “I love you Ash,” but like the night before, she forced herself to change the name, saying “I love you Kate,” instead. For some reason, it felt as if saying those three words to ‘Ash’ instead of ‘Kate’ was more meaningful, even though they were one and the same. Scribbs couldn’t explain this feeling she had then as well as the night before.
Supporting her upper body on one arm, she used the other to touch Ash’s cheek and neck. She kissed the brunette again. There was so much she just couldn’t say. She wished for the day she’d be able to say them all and have Ash understand.
I was her
She was me
We were young
We were free
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
Scribbs felt Ash’s hands on her sides. They moved from the sides of her breasts down her waist and hip, and then went to unzip the leather jacket, trying to push it off of her wife’s shoulders. Scribbs backed out of the kiss for a second to help her out. Not wanting to leave contact for very long, Ash sat up a little to follow. Their lips connected again as Ash’s hands moved to the front of Scribbs’ shirt and stayed on her breasts.
At the feel of Ash’s hands upon her, Scribbs leaned in. She whispered the only thing she could think of that could even come close to saying how she felt. “You’re my bliss,” she whispered to her, feeling the heat of embarrassment and desire on her face. She then suckled the earlobe into her mouth and left a small nip on it. She felt rather than heard the moan come from her wife, and she began to leave a trail of kisses down her neck. As Scribbs felt Ash move beneath her, only one thought became apparent as she looked into her partner’s eyes. When all of this blew up in her face as she knew it would, she would rather spend the rest of her life fighting with Ash than to make love with anyone else. She remembered the movie that little quote had come from, and how one of the characters looked suspiciously like Sullivan. Then she mentally slapped herself for thinking about Sullivan at all while she was making love with Ash. But she knew the quote was true. Scribbs felt that even if Ash didn’t forgive her for this whole situation, she’d prefer to spend her life fighting her over it than to have Ash leave her for good. At least when fighting they would be in the same room together. Plus, Ash was pretty damn sexy when she was angry, just not so much when she was angry at her.
If there’s somebody calling me on
Yeah she’s the one
Yeah she’s the one
Scribbs forced herself to stop thinking those thoughts as she ran her hands over Ash’s stomach.
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
She’s the one
Ash felt her shirt join Scribbs’ jacket on the floor next to the couch.
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
She’s the one
Ash gasped when Scribbs’ hips moved, forcing her to feel the heat from between her legs on the lower part of her stomach.
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
Looking up at her wife, the brunette saw all she needed to see, and with her help, Scribbs’ shirt joined the other articles of clothing on the floor.
She’s the one.
by Erin Griffin
Fandom: Murder In Suburbia/Imagine Me And You crossover
Pairing: Ash/Scribbs, Rachel/Lucy
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: ITV owns these characters.
Summary: When Ash falls and hits her head one rainy afternoon, she wakes up without her recent memory. What she does remember leads her to believe she is married to Scribbs, so to help her get better, Scribbs has to care for Ash as her wife, which leads to many new revelations about her partner... and herself.
Warning: This story has heavy angst, mentions of murder (duh), rape, and other unpleasant things, which is why it will only be mentioned. There is also hurt/comfort, something I don't do that much if ever in fic, so we'll see how it all works out.
Chapter 16
*I’m sorry for the mushy assed chapter. Song is She's The One by Robbie Williams. No infringement meant.
Click to viewAs soon as the two women entered the flat, Ash went over to the fish tank and checked the water to make sure the filter was doing its job. Then she took some of the fish food, dashed a little bit in her palm before tipping it into the tank, and watched as it floated on the water’s surface before Upy discovered what was going on. Scribbs watched as Ash smiled at Upy, and the blonde wondered again how she could feel so changed in the course of a couple of days. If she were to think about any of it for very long- and at times she preferred not to- she’d have to admit to herself that Ash had always changed her world for the better, that Ash was the reason why she was so happy at her job. As she put the cheesecake and leftover food in the refrigerator, she wondered how her life could feel so complete, fulfilled. How could this life that wasn’t even real be the only thing that mattered to her?
With that thought, she wondered if Ash’s memories would ever come back. Scribbs knew that she loved the brunette more and more each time their eyes locked or hands touched, and that scared her. She tried to hold back some of this because to her it all seemed too soon for some of this, but to Ash, they were supposed to be this way with each other because they were married.
As Scribbs was at the refrigerator, she heard the beginning music to the song 'She’s the One', Ash’s favorite song by Robbie Williams.
I was her
She was me
We were young
We were free
And if there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
We were young
We were wrong
We were fine all along
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
Scribbs thought about the words that were coming from the speakers, and she knew that the words were true for them. Ash had always been the one who’d made her feel anything, from annoyance then to love now. Ash was the reason why she liked getting up in the morning, especially now that she got the privilege of seeing her completely unguarded when the brunette slept. She loved that Ash was her partner, helping her stop crime, and on occasion, being her partner IN crime. Why wouldn’t they be partners in all other aspects of the word as well?
Scribbs slowly turned and walked into the living room. She saw that her wife was sitting on the couch and was struck momentarily by her beauty. She wasn’t sure if it was in part the doing of the song. She loved how Ash’s eyes seemed to shine in a way that was meant only for her. Scribbs gave her wife a small smile and was rewarded with one in return. There was a pat on the couch as Ash beckoned her, and like a magnet, Scribbs was pulled forward.
As her wife came to sit by her, Ash began to think about how different the two of them were. She had always been known as the dark broody one (or that was how people saw her when she was a DS) while Scribbs was the light, perky one. In the back of her mind, she got the feeling that someone had summed them up that way a little more recently than seven years ago, but she couldn’t remember when or who had said it. Still, looking at her partner and seeing the look in her eyes, the almost hesitant yet shy way that she looked at her made Ash realize how much she loved her and how much of a perfect match they were. Ash had never felt for anyone the way she felt for this woman. Sure, there was the crush a long time ago, which led her to the discovery of her sexuality, but that other woman had been a lot older, straight and married. Even then, there was never the connection she felt with Scribbs. Never. Scribbs was the only woman that Ash had been intimate with, and she couldn’t help but think about how happy she was.
And yet, with the way that her life was at the moment, she couldn’t help but feel that something still wasn’t right. There was just that nagging feeling that just would not go away. She'd tried to force it out of her mind earlier that night when she was with Rachel, Lucy, and H, and she had for a while, but still, now, she wondered on it.
When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You’re smiling
When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna play it
You’ll be so high you’ll be flying
Though the sea
Will be strong
I know we’ll
Carry on
Cause if there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
Both women sat listening to the song lyrics, knowing that the song was meant for them. They knew that they would always push and pull each other in any given direction whether or not they wanted to go there. Even with the nagging feeling in the back of her head telling her that there was still something that was going to make things difficult for the pair, Ash felt confident that they could get through it. ‘And even if,’ Ash thought to herself as the song went into an instrumental portion, ‘the road from here on is long and bumpy, I’d rather go down this road with Emma than to not be with her at all.’
Scribbs on the other hand, knew that the next bit would be rough, but she knew that if Ash was aware of just how much she loved her, they would be able to get through it. If they could get through that, then they could definitely go through worse. As long as they were together.
When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You’re smiling
When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna play it
You’ll be so high you’ll be flying
The two detectives looked at each other at the same time, and just then, both of them knew exactly where they were meant to be. Without words, they made further contact, Scribbs almost crawling into Ash’s lap as they cuddled together on the couch. Their lips met quickly, and Scribbs hovered over Ash for a second so that they shared the same air. Her first instinct was to say “I love you Ash,” but like the night before, she forced herself to change the name, saying “I love you Kate,” instead. For some reason, it felt as if saying those three words to ‘Ash’ instead of ‘Kate’ was more meaningful, even though they were one and the same. Scribbs couldn’t explain this feeling she had then as well as the night before.
Supporting her upper body on one arm, she used the other to touch Ash’s cheek and neck. She kissed the brunette again. There was so much she just couldn’t say. She wished for the day she’d be able to say them all and have Ash understand.
I was her
She was me
We were young
We were free
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
Scribbs felt Ash’s hands on her sides. They moved from the sides of her breasts down her waist and hip, and then went to unzip the leather jacket, trying to push it off of her wife’s shoulders. Scribbs backed out of the kiss for a second to help her out. Not wanting to leave contact for very long, Ash sat up a little to follow. Their lips connected again as Ash’s hands moved to the front of Scribbs’ shirt and stayed on her breasts.
At the feel of Ash’s hands upon her, Scribbs leaned in. She whispered the only thing she could think of that could even come close to saying how she felt. “You’re my bliss,” she whispered to her, feeling the heat of embarrassment and desire on her face. She then suckled the earlobe into her mouth and left a small nip on it. She felt rather than heard the moan come from her wife, and she began to leave a trail of kisses down her neck. As Scribbs felt Ash move beneath her, only one thought became apparent as she looked into her partner’s eyes. When all of this blew up in her face as she knew it would, she would rather spend the rest of her life fighting with Ash than to make love with anyone else. She remembered the movie that little quote had come from, and how one of the characters looked suspiciously like Sullivan. Then she mentally slapped herself for thinking about Sullivan at all while she was making love with Ash. But she knew the quote was true. Scribbs felt that even if Ash didn’t forgive her for this whole situation, she’d prefer to spend her life fighting her over it than to have Ash leave her for good. At least when fighting they would be in the same room together. Plus, Ash was pretty damn sexy when she was angry, just not so much when she was angry at her.
If there’s somebody calling me on
Yeah she’s the one
Yeah she’s the one
Scribbs forced herself to stop thinking those thoughts as she ran her hands over Ash’s stomach.
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
She’s the one
Ash felt her shirt join Scribbs’ jacket on the floor next to the couch.
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
She’s the one
Ash gasped when Scribbs’ hips moved, forcing her to feel the heat from between her legs on the lower part of her stomach.
If there’s somebody calling me on
She’s the one
Looking up at her wife, the brunette saw all she needed to see, and with her help, Scribbs’ shirt joined the other articles of clothing on the floor.
She’s the one.