New Vid! Where My Demons Hide

[ash48]

This is for d0llface_h00ker who bought me for fandomaid ages ago. Thanks so much for your patience and for the terrific song suggestion. <3

Title: Where My Demons Hide
Vidder: Ash48
Music by: Demons by Imagine Dragons
Beta: el1ie
Length: 3.06min
Category: Character/theme study
Summary: It's woven in my soul, I need to let you go....

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Comments

[fanspired]

I can't believe I never noticed until I watched this that Dean was wearing the same shirt at the end that he was wearing in Soul Survivor. I need whipping.

So powerful, and such a well chosen song. A friend dedicated it to one of the episodes of my serial so it's had SPN associations for me for a while now.

Love your work.

[ash48]

ha! I can't say I noticed that either. Though I remember it being remarked on when the season aired. Strangely I tend to notice what the background looks like before I notice what clothes they are wearing…

It seems like the song could have been written for this show. I was amazed how well the lyrics matched much of what went on over the last season.

Thanks so much for your feedback. <3

[galwithglasses]

What a great character study. As usual, this vid made me think and it helped me out a lot. I've really struggled with S9-S10 and Dean and where everything has gone since then. This vid puts good perspective on it and helped me look at Dean in terms of his whole life, not just the last 2 seasons. Great song choice and I like that you included when he made his original deal. I know Jensen said S9 and I like how you used that as a starting point to focus on. I think Dean's been on this path for a long time. Your vid has helped me have some empathy and maybe even some sympathy for Dean and in good way is helping me make peace with him and the show. Thank you, thank you so much for that.

The other thing that was good was a reminder that Charlie would have been dead in S9 and it was only because Gadreel brought her back that she was around to find the book and lose her life in S10. She got a shot at going to Oz and having a lot of adventure because she lived that extra bit.

[ash48]

Thank you so much!

As usual, this vid made me think and it helped me out a lot.

I am SO glad to hear that. It helped me too. I have struggle so much to understand Dean and feel empathy for him. This helped me understand that, in some ways, he's fated. Like Sam was with the demon blood. I was keen to explore a little of Dean's inability to let Sam go - which I think has been conditioned in him.

I never really appreciated Dean's guilt fully until Jensen mentioned how S9 and 10 were driven by that guilt. I think we saw that with Kevin and Charlie, but not really with Sam. But I think it's always present with Sam, it's just that he doesn't show it (and seems to always keep that from Sam. Or, when he does try to approach Sam about it, Sam stops him).

The other thing that was good was a reminder that Charlie would have been dead in S9

I have to give a shout out to el1ie for that one. In my first version she felt what I had was weak (and it was!) and she mentioned that the "greed" that I had shown in the first verse with Dean

[big_heart_june]

Absolutely beautifully done, honey, this song is SUCH a favourite (as is d!Dean) and it fits PERFECTLY ♥ THANK YOU ♥

[ash48]

Thank you honey! d0llface_h00ker chose a great song for me to use. I knew when I heard it that it would be perfect for d!Dean story. It took so long to make (I think it's been over a year) because I wanted to see how they concluded Dean's story. I'm glad I did because "I can't escape this now, unless you show me how" fits so perfectly for the ending. :)

[fufaraw]

Gutting, in a good way. From your notes, I'd guess making Where My Demons Hide was cathartic for you, I know watching it certainly was for me. Not only that, the vid provides a lens through which to better focus elements of the past two seasons. You not only shine a light on the subject, you give us a clearer view. Needed, in these muddier times.

As always, excellent technical work--couldn't have had better advisors than el1ie and secretlytodream. Triumvirate of vids, there, yeah? Good work. I'm going to be replaying it for days.

[ash48]

I'd guess making Where My Demons Hide was cathartic for you

It was indeed! I needed to make this, I think, to better understand Dean and his actions over the past 2 seasons. It's been difficult, but it has helped me gain some clarity. I'm so happy to hear it worked in that way for you too.

Thank you!! <3

[ash48]

*mops up tears*

Show it so damn gutting! I wonder sometimes how we survive it!!

*hugs* Thanks hun!
xx