Just woke up from a weird dream. My parents and I were staying in a hotel somewhere in Japan - I could tell because the cast from Tenchi Muyo was there-, and our room was right next to a TV station that was hosting a parent  child cooking show - apparently my dad wanted to enter with me. I asked my mom if she could help straighten my hair since it' ( Read more... )

i think i need to get back to the things that i love to do. it's been months since i've made any art, gone out singing, danced, played piano, ect. i am who i am, and that is nothing to be ashamed of :)

inhibition: why you gotta hold me back? :P
insomnia: why wont you let me go to sleep? :P
homework: why can't you just do yourself? :P
acne: why do you get under my skin? :P
left brain: why does nothing i do make sense? :P
extravert: why don't you speak up? :P
depression: why you make me so sad? :P

gotta step it up in school, which means no more absences ( Read more... )

revisiting my past journal entries and blogs is so much fun :P i definitely went all out and didn't hold anything back no matter how potentially embarrassing the subject was XD god, i was such a drama queen too ( Read more... )

yesterday didn't go as i would've liked for nick and me yesterday. i was in no mood to go out at all, and i feel as though i ruined our valentines day by being such downer ( Read more... )

antidepressants are so weird. i can't cry even if i wanted to, and right now, i really want to.

I've had enough! I'm finally treating my depression and anxiety ( Read more... )

i feel so empty inside.... what do?
i must be the most boring person in the world to talk to :/ so predictable, so self centered. so blaaaaaahh... i need to get out of this house and stimulate my brain :/ need social interaction. need to not fear what others will think or say about me. i wish there was an instant cure for anxiety.

been very bored, very tired, very inadequate, very sad, very unmotivated, very numb, and i hate it. considering antidepressants and therapy, because this is absolutely ridiculous. i just want to be happy and healthy again, and i want to stop feeling like i'm useless and unwanted. my brain is telling me lies. i want to be able to accept the fact ( Read more... )