I am so sorry sweetie. I have been away so long that I didn't know that your dad died. I truly apologize for that. I hope you know that you and your family are in my thoughts. I know there isn't anything I can say here to make the pain go away but I hope that you know I am here for you whenever you need me.
*hugs* I hate the way that family can try to force you to grieve in the way that they want you to grieve. My aunt is still giving me grief because I didn't go to my grandfather's funeral. I can't go to funerals. I deal with loss by going into denial and just not thinking about it so that I eventually begin to heal subconsiously. Funerals don't let me do that and I find it sad that my extended family isn't willing to try to understand this. If you don't want to make the cookies (and for entirely understandable reasons) then I see no reason why you should. And hopefully you won't have to go to the wake either >.<
I want you to know that I am thinking about you at this point in your life, hun. I'm just very bad at knowing the right things to say, so I tend to just shut up and not say anything at all.
I probably can't avoid the wake, since its being held at our house, but my mother didn't push on the baking front, so that's something.
Thank you for your thoughts, I totally understand not knowing what to say. I don't even know what to say, mostly. Just people being there in their hearts means a lot more than they probably think it does.
Also, um, Sparkle High? I'm probably not doing too great, but its really nice having a place to go and be someone else for awhile, right now. So, thank you.
Sweetie, now I'm back home again and will be able to make phone posts again, there was this thing that I kinda wanted to sing for you, and your Dad. Only, I'd like to check with you first in case you wouldn't like it, or it'd be totally inappropriate for you. It's the Pie Jesu from John Rutter's Requiem. So, um. let me know.
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*hugs* May your new year be better.
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I hate the way that family can try to force you to grieve in the way that they want you to grieve. My aunt is still giving me grief because I didn't go to my grandfather's funeral. I can't go to funerals. I deal with loss by going into denial and just not thinking about it so that I eventually begin to heal subconsiously. Funerals don't let me do that and I find it sad that my extended family isn't willing to try to understand this.
If you don't want to make the cookies (and for entirely understandable reasons) then I see no reason why you should. And hopefully you won't have to go to the wake either >.<
I want you to know that I am thinking about you at this point in your life, hun. I'm just very bad at knowing the right things to say, so I tend to just shut up and not say anything at all.
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Thank you for your thoughts, I totally understand not knowing what to say. I don't even know what to say, mostly. Just people being there in their hearts means a lot more than they probably think it does.
Also, um, Sparkle High? I'm probably not doing too great, but its really nice having a place to go and be someone else for awhile, right now. So, thank you.
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I'm glad you're enjoying the escape as much as I'm enjoying your Chris!
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Sweetie, now I'm back home again and will be able to make phone posts again, there was this thing that I kinda wanted to sing for you, and your Dad. Only, I'd like to check with you first in case you wouldn't like it, or it'd be totally inappropriate for you. It's the Pie Jesu from John Rutter's Requiem. So, um. let me know.
*HUGS*
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*hugs back lots*
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*mwah*
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