Last year's New Years resolution was a huge hit: I successfully only consumed macaroni and cheese 12 times this year! I resolved only to have it once a month and I stuck with it. At first it was agonizing, but by September, I'd forgotten about mac and cheese entirely. Insane ( Read more... )

Momentous step: going to the doctor this morning for the first time in 2 years. Two years ago today my doctor told me "I'm not sure if I can help you any more" and I quit taking medication because I was so devastated. I'm not sure what I'm open to at this point, but I NEED some anxiety stuff. I know they're going to be upset with me for letting ~ ( Read more... )

Confession: I'm not the same person any more ( Read more... )

I guess the first step in going anywhere I even remotely want to go in life will involve writing again. I never write anything any more. Aside from Twitter, which is just me complaining. Starting today, I'm going to try REALLY hard to set aside at least 20-30 minutes where I just write whatever the hell I want. I need to jog my creative brain a bit ( Read more... )

I decided on two things tonight:

1) I'm going to wait at LEAST 3 more years to procreate so I can travel.
2) I'm going to start taking creative writing classes.

So that maybe I can get out of this rut.

Well my wedding is next month and not many of my friends are coming. But I kind of don't give a fuck because I'm going to look gorgeous for once in my life.

I keep getting these little glimpses of myself. Flash in the pan fool's gold?

I realized today that the corporate world is not my thing. And I mean that in the least angsty-teenager-discovers-communism way possible. I'm so unfulfilled.

Last night I had a dream that it was a holiday that combined Halloween and Christmas. There were kids everywhere dressed up in costumes in my old neighborhood. It was like it was 1995 all over again, except I was an adult. From what I can recall, I was in costume too, but it was sort of pathetic. The kids all ran from house to house - mobs of kids ( Read more... )

the universe has a uniquely special way of fucking me over every single way it can think of.