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[ardhana]

You know, I still think about how fucked up everything that transpired (heterosexism/sexism wise) with the now defunct revolutionary POC formation SACAR (Small Axe Community for Autonomy & Resistance) here in Chicago was.  ridiculously fucked up.  i cant beleive i had so much internalized oppression to stay with that shit as long as i did.

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[unscrambled]

It's really hard that this keeps recurring for you. I support you in doing whatever you need to do to let go of this, and them.

[ardhana]

hmm... i dont think its that i've had trouble of letting go of this, its that i feel like very little reflection (forget reconciliation) has occurred on part of my (former) comrades from this group...

i was reminded when i was reading through that document that was attached... also when i randomly see people from the group, who took an overtly anti-trans position, and i dont know what to do or say to them. somehow just avoiding them makes me very anxious, and feel lesser about myself.

[unscrambled]

Do you still want to tell them off?

Maybe part of that healing process with some of them can be them taking accountability with the other ones. Though, if things splintered like they usually splinter, there's probably a bunch of other drama too.

It sucks that seeing those people reminds you of all that hateful shit. This is what I meant when I talked about letting go of it. Sometimes there's not quite the right words to say what I mean.