Transparency - Alone Within Our Relationship

[archers_elegant]

During a chat this morning someone told me: "when i see you in person i get a sense of loneliness (or maybe aloneness?) and a wanting/hunger from you"

I've been thinking about that statement most of the day.

While I am somewhat of a social butterfly that butterfly costume hides my 'wanting'. Or perhaps it signifies my 'wanting'. I am slave to

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[kairi_kiss]

HUGGLES

[efire360]

I empathize, but the details should probably be discussed offline.

[efire360]

Egads. I was in a rush when I typed that and having a time trying to get the wording right. Since rereading it, I noticed how that could be read differently than I intended it. I meant to say that the details of how I empathize should probably be discussed offline - not in response to your posting about how you feel. I'm really not comfortable discussing how I feel except with you and him. It's an offline topic for me, not necessarily you.

[annie63]

Thanks for your transparency. Things change. People change. What used to be new and bright and shiny becomes commonplace. I truly doubt you are not the only one in a long term committed M/s relationship who has struggled with missing the sense of excitedment and newness and specialness.

I, for one, struggle with these issues from time to time. It's not easy to admit these feelings, but I know Sir always acknowledges those feelings for what they are. Feelings.

Thanks for sharing your experience and I hope it helps to know you are not alone in feeling those things. I hope you are able to lessen your feelings of aloneness...

[archers_elegant]

Thank you so much for understanding.

[archers_elegant]

Um....monogamy was not one of the stipulations of our relationship from day one.

I'm not even looking for another heartfelt type relationship..just a sex/play/fun relationship....that common connection.

[archers_elegant]

I actually think about you often also. One day we'll actually find common time to get together for drinks and talk.

[danaewhispering]

I have had this post open since you posted it....trying to find words. And still nothing has come to but I just related to this post so much. I have people say similar things to me. I feel right now - that I desire something more. I am Master's slave and get feeling of fulfillment from it. But I also feelings of wanting something more. Not instead of or in-place-of but more or in addition. And when I see others going after that I am not jealous either. And not really envious either but feel the feelings you describe - sadness, want and aloneness.

I wanted to thank you for being so honest with your feelings and sharing in your journal. It made me feel not so alone. Thank you.