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Ichi's finally back! ..and I'm at work. In my quiet place of solitude where I'm not allowed to talk because Sheila disapproves. *Sigh*
I should do homework right now. I should be doing many things right now, but I'm updating my live journal, and hey, that's important.
I do not think I am in a great mood today. I spent too much time by myself and now I'm going a little on the cynical side. I don't know what's wrong with me. One part of me wants to be angry at the world, the other part wants to hug it?
Who am I???? Sometimes I begin having conversations with myself, but then I get mixed up because I can't figure out which person is me... but wait... aren't they both me?
Am I such a paradoxal person that I have to be many people just to sort it all out? Do they take turns being dominant? How does one personality win out over the others?
Ah, well. We all have our problems and we all deal with them accordingly. -thus speaks my logical, and my stop pitying yourself sides -thus speaks the cynical side.
Imaginative, philosophical side: Maybe headaches are caused by people's personalities duking it out for control. Maybe the reason I never have headaches is because all of my personalities are passive. I do not think I have an aggressive side. Cynic: Maybe the reason people think I'm random, easily distracted, and simple is because my personalities are so passive that they let the Imaginative philosophical side (IPS) out and speak whenever it feels like making itself known. Perhaps the IPS needs to learn timing.
IPS: Was that an insult? Did I just insult myself?
Uncategorized side... possibly satirical: You are very strange and mixed up.
What I identify as completely me: ... I think you all are mixed up, I'm just the end result. Leave me out of this.
Logic: We are you.
Me: You- ... I have a point.
... depressed side gaining control: - this message was erased by the, "stop pitying yourself" side, which is almost always in league with the logical side, which believes that time spent on self-pity is detrimental. However the logical side assures me it does not know everything, and there is a chance it could be wrong.
Logic: I did not say that.
Me: You didn't have to, I knew ahead of time that you were about to say it.
Logic: But I wasn-
Amused side (a mix of logic and cynic): Logic Side doesn't get it.
The Side that Notices Everything Unrelated to Current Topic, (TSTNEUCT a.k.a. Random): We all have the same last name, "Side". *giggle*
IPS: It's amazing how many thoughts go through your/our head at any given moment. I can't even catch all of them.
Me: Don't feel bad, neither can I- ... we.
*Waves of anger/confusion/stress pass through without words*
Me: That's a familiar side.
IPS: That side doesn't really say anything, it just makes the rest of us feel sick and nauseated all at once.
Innocent Bliss: Even I'm affected, but in the way a child is. I'm back to normal in a few seconds.
Me: I guess I get the long end of it, since I'm the product of all sides.
Logic: Of course, if we are you and you get the long end of it, then don't we get the long end as well?
Me: But you (plural) are more than me, so you can divide it so that the ACS side takes up most of that.
Logic:... Do we exist?
Me: I don't know. Do I?
Logic: Most likely. Socrates said
Me: Stop quoting at me, I know what you know. I do not question that I exist, really. I question the nature of my existence. How do I know life isn't one big dream and that when I die in this world I will awake in the real one? That when my true existence sleeps again, I shall not in a sense, be reborn?
IPS: You are becoming very deep. I have taught you well.
Me: ... How can you teach me what you/I already know?
IPS: Well, I have always heard that people can teach themselves a lot. You certainly learn a lot from your subconscious.
Me: No, that's not true, either. My subconscious may have a lot to teach me, but it pretty much keeps those secrets to itself. *Thinks on recent dreams* I can't learn a thing from my subconscious, it's too cryptic.
Logic: Your work/study time is almost up... maybe you should actually study or something. Goodness knows you haven't done any work.
IPS: Darkness knows it, too.
Other sides: That wasn't funny.
*Anger/Stress/Confusion/Pain* passes through
Random: Oh! Another emotion added in there to ACS Side.
Cynic: ... Way to go, awesome skills of observation.
*More Pain*
Logic and anti-pity: Everyone gets those feelings, just ignore them and they'll go away.
Me: *Sigh* I'll try. I know it's pointless. I'll just try to concentrate on the happy feelings.
Random: We should watch Mulan2 when it comes out. The first one was so cool!
Me: We should, Mulan is my favorite movie.
Sides: We know.
Logical: If we know everything each other is thinking, then why do we bother to talk?
IPS: Maybe so that we can understand ourselves better? Alicia still doesn't know who she is. Is she really all of us? What about teacher side? That side might come from the subconscious.
Logic: I don't know, that side is a lot like me.
IPS: Yes, but that side is also very patronizing. And we don't call Alicia endearing names like "child".
Me: That was a long time ago!
IPS: Teacher side is still with you, though?
Me: Yes, but she doesn't call me by name anymore, and she's almost finished merging. I do not think she'll continue to be a separate side much longer.
IPS: Well, there is still your conscience.
Me: Yes, I have always wondered how that tied in with the rest of you/me.
IPS: Yes, is it God? Is it a part of your mind? Or is it your spirit? Do you have a spirit? If not, then what is Astral projection? People getting high?
Me: I'm tired, I'm going to go back to my dorm and do my homework. And keep away from anything remotely religious. I'm too worn out to go into that topic, tonight.
IPS: Okay, I'm tired too.
Logic: This is extremely illogical and confusing.
Cynic: You're just not intelligent enough to appreciate the theology.
Logic: I'm every bit as intelligent as you are.
Me: No wonder I always hear so many voices in my dreams. I'm going to bed, keep it down, would you?
I should do homework right now. I should be doing many things right now, but I'm updating my live journal, and hey, that's important.
I do not think I am in a great mood today. I spent too much time by myself and now I'm going a little on the cynical side. I don't know what's wrong with me. One part of me wants to be angry at the world, the other part wants to hug it?
Who am I???? Sometimes I begin having conversations with myself, but then I get mixed up because I can't figure out which person is me... but wait... aren't they both me?
Am I such a paradoxal person that I have to be many people just to sort it all out? Do they take turns being dominant? How does one personality win out over the others?
Ah, well. We all have our problems and we all deal with them accordingly. -thus speaks my logical, and my stop pitying yourself sides -thus speaks the cynical side.
Imaginative, philosophical side: Maybe headaches are caused by people's personalities duking it out for control. Maybe the reason I never have headaches is because all of my personalities are passive. I do not think I have an aggressive side. Cynic: Maybe the reason people think I'm random, easily distracted, and simple is because my personalities are so passive that they let the Imaginative philosophical side (IPS) out and speak whenever it feels like making itself known. Perhaps the IPS needs to learn timing.
IPS: Was that an insult? Did I just insult myself?
Uncategorized side... possibly satirical: You are very strange and mixed up.
What I identify as completely me: ... I think you all are mixed up, I'm just the end result. Leave me out of this.
Logic: We are you.
Me: You- ... I have a point.
... depressed side gaining control: - this message was erased by the, "stop pitying yourself" side, which is almost always in league with the logical side, which believes that time spent on self-pity is detrimental. However the logical side assures me it does not know everything, and there is a chance it could be wrong.
Logic: I did not say that.
Me: You didn't have to, I knew ahead of time that you were about to say it.
Logic: But I wasn-
Amused side (a mix of logic and cynic): Logic Side doesn't get it.
The Side that Notices Everything Unrelated to Current Topic, (TSTNEUCT a.k.a. Random): We all have the same last name, "Side". *giggle*
IPS: It's amazing how many thoughts go through your/our head at any given moment. I can't even catch all of them.
Me: Don't feel bad, neither can I- ... we.
*Waves of anger/confusion/stress pass through without words*
Me: That's a familiar side.
IPS: That side doesn't really say anything, it just makes the rest of us feel sick and nauseated all at once.
Innocent Bliss: Even I'm affected, but in the way a child is. I'm back to normal in a few seconds.
Me: I guess I get the long end of it, since I'm the product of all sides.
Logic: Of course, if we are you and you get the long end of it, then don't we get the long end as well?
Me: But you (plural) are more than me, so you can divide it so that the ACS side takes up most of that.
Logic:... Do we exist?
Me: I don't know. Do I?
Logic: Most likely. Socrates said
Me: Stop quoting at me, I know what you know. I do not question that I exist, really. I question the nature of my existence. How do I know life isn't one big dream and that when I die in this world I will awake in the real one? That when my true existence sleeps again, I shall not in a sense, be reborn?
IPS: You are becoming very deep. I have taught you well.
Me: ... How can you teach me what you/I already know?
IPS: Well, I have always heard that people can teach themselves a lot. You certainly learn a lot from your subconscious.
Me: No, that's not true, either. My subconscious may have a lot to teach me, but it pretty much keeps those secrets to itself. *Thinks on recent dreams* I can't learn a thing from my subconscious, it's too cryptic.
Logic: Your work/study time is almost up... maybe you should actually study or something. Goodness knows you haven't done any work.
IPS: Darkness knows it, too.
Other sides: That wasn't funny.
*Anger/Stress/Confusion/Pain* passes through
Random: Oh! Another emotion added in there to ACS Side.
Cynic: ... Way to go, awesome skills of observation.
*More Pain*
Logic and anti-pity: Everyone gets those feelings, just ignore them and they'll go away.
Me: *Sigh* I'll try. I know it's pointless. I'll just try to concentrate on the happy feelings.
Random: We should watch Mulan2 when it comes out. The first one was so cool!
Me: We should, Mulan is my favorite movie.
Sides: We know.
Logical: If we know everything each other is thinking, then why do we bother to talk?
IPS: Maybe so that we can understand ourselves better? Alicia still doesn't know who she is. Is she really all of us? What about teacher side? That side might come from the subconscious.
Logic: I don't know, that side is a lot like me.
IPS: Yes, but that side is also very patronizing. And we don't call Alicia endearing names like "child".
Me: That was a long time ago!
IPS: Teacher side is still with you, though?
Me: Yes, but she doesn't call me by name anymore, and she's almost finished merging. I do not think she'll continue to be a separate side much longer.
IPS: Well, there is still your conscience.
Me: Yes, I have always wondered how that tied in with the rest of you/me.
IPS: Yes, is it God? Is it a part of your mind? Or is it your spirit? Do you have a spirit? If not, then what is Astral projection? People getting high?
Me: I'm tired, I'm going to go back to my dorm and do my homework. And keep away from anything remotely religious. I'm too worn out to go into that topic, tonight.
IPS: Okay, I'm tired too.
Logic: This is extremely illogical and confusing.
Cynic: You're just not intelligent enough to appreciate the theology.
Logic: I'm every bit as intelligent as you are.
Me: No wonder I always hear so many voices in my dreams. I'm going to bed, keep it down, would you?