no more

Mar 26, 2008 09:12

such is the pattern of my life. a mother confuses a son's face with that of an old lover, laying animosity over the frail frame of innocence. a girl leaves a boy, however unconditional his love, for pudgy, smoke-filled lips and liquor bottles that circle the room. and now a father, in his infinite wisdom and judging right hand, pushes a son to ( Read more... )

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___starslight March 27 2008, 00:20:23 UTC
Listen, I am sorry that you are having a hard time with your father. I know probably better than anyone else who reads this that 99% of the things he says are cruel and hurtful and untrue. But you are going to move out soon, and honestly, you are an adult now-- you shouldn't let him have this much control over your emotional state. You know he is a bad person; you know you are a good person. Period ( ... )

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from Mom anonymous March 27 2008, 13:04:59 UTC
I want to plead "not guilty," too. In my heart, I never blamed you for someone else's offenses, never confused you with him, never saw you as anything but the precious gift you are. Still, you felt it, and I'm so sorry my own hurt spilled out onto you.

I can't say it enough times. I love you. You are anything but a burden or a mistake; you are beautiful, you are a joy. Ultimately, you have to find your own way out of this pain. I know you will.

On the up-side, you've developed a very impressive vocabulary for expressing pain!

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slowginfizzz March 31 2008, 02:04:42 UTC
you are a wonderful person, and I am sorry that you let anyone make you feel that you weren't.

it could be worse. you could be trapped in a gorilla's body, but even then our agreement is still on.

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