investing

[aqhart]

i'm too tired for this. it's no secret that i'm not made for short term, for light and easy, for something so, so casual. i need something that i can't help but need. you can be distant and i can't stand distance, because it makes me feel left behind, forgotten, and nonessential. i can't feel replaceable the way i always feel replaceable. you don't

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[massromantic___]

you shouldn't have to do it again.
you deserve way better than this.

but i think YOU should be the decision maker,
and not wait around for an answer that may not ever reveal itself.

[aqhart]

i know i should sit her down and have this conversation, but it's just so early in the relationship. it worries me because with speeches like this it's so easy to scare someone away, and honeslty, i hate the idea of being alone again. then again, that being said, there's a fine line between being distant and being by yourself.

[___starslight]

Listen, I know it's probably hard for you to believe me when I tell you this, but it really does bother me to see someone hurting you. And I know I'm probably not the one you want to talk to about any of this stuff, but if you need to vent, I'm in town for the week.

Call me if you want to get coffee or something.