part 113 white persian monkeys

[aphanon_meme]

Good morning/afternoon! Hopefully this isn't posted too late, I'm not sure when we maxed. Though it had to be during early morning, yet you guys still broke LJ... ;3; I'll never not be amazed at that in general. I'm easily amazed, aren't I?

Enjoy part 113! :)

(PS - There is a holiday anon meme gift event going on here!) (requesting is over but

Comments

Re: Estonia being pregnant

[lumberjack_me]

That makes no sense!

H-he's a guy...! And besides we use protection. ...most of the time.

[lumberjack_me]

...

[shakes his head]

And then what? What did I... what did he do to you? Did you fight?

[nerd_attack]

I tried to verbally tell him no and he went and cut me off. I think after a while I just gave up and took it... I was afraid of what would happen if I tried to fight back or escape. I didn't know what he'd do.

[lumberjack_me]

And you never... never enjoyed it, right? You just took it because there was n-no way out, right?

It was rape, then, not sex... nothing like sex, right?

[stares at his hands]

[nerd_attack]

I-I don't know. At the beginning, I tried to fight back, and during, I looked absolutely downright disgusted with myself. But then near the end... it changed. It looked like I was losing my mind, and it looked... sounded like I was enjoying it, too... and he pulled me down and whispered in my ear and all of a sudden, it was... it was like I was a whole different person.

[lumberjack_me]

[shies away from minutely]

[looks fairly ill]

O-oh.

I... I see.

[nerd_attack]

[tries to blink back his tears, but a few fall down his face nonetheless]

I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry...!

[lumberjack_me]

[moves in to hug, but settles for an awkward shoulder-pat and quick retraction of his arms]

It... it wasn't your fault.

[is not sure if believes, but Ed looks so fragile right now...]

Umm. Y-you can stay here tonight, if you want. B-but I hope you understand if I sleep on the couch... I love you, I'm not leaving you... but this is a lot to take.

[nerd_attack]

[starts crying even harder once he realizes that Canada will barely touch him]

I can leave if you want me to. I don't blame you not wanting me around... I don't even want to look at myself right now, I'm so disgusted... the things I've done...

[lumberjack_me]

[closes his eyes again with a very pained expression]

I want you around. I'll always want you around. I just... it's a lot, okay?

Don't cry, Ed... please...

[wrings hands]

[nerd_attack]

[puts his face in his hands in an attempt to soften the sounds of his sobs]

I-I'm sorry! I just can't stop it... I've been holding this in for so long...

I-I know you don't want to touch me, but... c-can you just hold me? Just for a minute? Please, just hold me, please...

[lumberjack_me]

[does so, looking positively anguished]

[hates maple_sickles like he's never hated anything before]

It's alright... It'll be alright...

[feels sick]

[nerd_attack]

[buries his face in Canada's shoulder, his sobs finally starting to slow]

D-Do you... do you really think that?

Can you ever forgive me for what I've done?

[lumberjack_me]

There's nothing to forgive...

[In his mind, there is... but now's not the time...]

We'll manage...

[begins to loosen hug]

[nerd_attack]

[is reluctant to let go, but eventually does, missing Canada's warmth already]

[shakily nods]

O-Of course we will. We've... we've gone through worse.

[hesistates, but grabs Canada's hand one last time, giving it a thorough squeeze before releasing]

[lumberjack_me]

[nods back, giving Ed's hand a halfhearted squeeze back]

... let's get you to bed, eh?

[looking at the floor]