... I can't decide if that's supposed to sound creepy or not. Oh well. Sorry for the delay in updating, by the way - I've been busy today!
Enjoy part 81! :)
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I guess.
I don't know if you want to hear it, really. You don't deserve to. It's my stupid problem.
[grimaces]
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[sits down beside him]
Tell me. What happened?
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I've, uh... I've had feelings for Ukraine for years now... over a century... and please don't think I'm not happy being with you--you're the best surprise I could have asked for, and I mean that...
But today I heard about her and Turkey and I just couldn't feel happy for her, you know? I actually felt jealous, and I know what an ass that makes me.
That's why I was so upset when you and her got tangled up together a while back...
Ugh, I'm an ass. [buries head in hands]
I'm sorry.
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You were... jealous? Of them?
Do you still have feelings for her now, then, or...?
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I'm really sorry--I shouldn't have said anything. Besides, nothing can or will ever come of it--none of it matters...
I've made you mad--I'm so sorry, Ed. I don't love you any less, you've got to believe me. I just wanted to be honest...
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[puts his face in his hands before standing up]
I'm... I'm fine! There's no need to apologize...
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That's not all there-- that's not all I meant!
I was...
[hangs his head, getting seriously upset, and mostly at himself]
I was jealous of you both... It hurt more than I expected, seeing you with her, but it was even worse seeing her with you!
I... can't explain it better than that.
[Reaches desperately for Ed's wrist]
I'm so sorry... I shouldn't have said anything. Ed, please believe me. It's not how you think it is--it's really complicated... Ed...
[On the verge of tears]
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You know, I should probably go. I think I left my computer on, and it doesn't have a cooling system installed yet... and I don't want it to overheat.
I'll... I'll see you later, alright?
[straightens out and brushes off his clothes before turning, ready to leave the shore]
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You're lying.
Ed, you'd never build a computer without the fans and stuff and leave it running.
Don't go like this. Please.
Please?
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I just need time to think, alright? I can't do that with you around. All of this... was kind of a big blow.
Let me go for a bit. Please?
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Ed...
I'm so sorry... I just wanted to be honest--I owe you that at the absolute least.
[lets him go though it looks painful for him to do so]
Please promise you'll come back?
[a tear creeps down his cheek, then another, then another]
What have I done?
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I'll give you a call later.
[finally turns and walks away, holding his head down]
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[watches him go morosely]
[Stands in the same place for a long time, staring at the bend in the path where Eduard disappeared]
[makes an awful noise and kicks and punches at a nearby tree until his knuckles are raw and he's probably broken at least one toe]
[when the noise dies down and his breathing slows, there's no other sound--no insects, no birds, dead wind... he's completely alone.]
OOC: BAAAAAWWWWWW o lawd
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