13.

Thanksgiving is tough - it always is, with the family coming. Sometimes Blaine thinks they only come every year to give him a hard time. But he survives somehow, even if he has to bite the inside of his lip half the time to stop himself from shouting at them. At some point the skin breaks under his teeth and he feels the salty, coppery taste of ( Read more... )

12.

Kurt’s phone going off with its ridiculously cheery tune shakes him out of his miserable thoughts. Swallowing the tears quickly to try and sound normal, he reaches for the device - and frowns; it’s Mrs. Anderson. She speaks fast when he answers, sounds of people and vehicles muffled in the background.

“Kurt, hi, my battery is dying and I need to ( Read more... )

11.

Kurt can barely sit still the whole way to Columbus, impatient to see Blaine. Yes, he has to go straight home, it’s Thanksgiving after all, but honestly, he’d really rather just spend the two and a half days he has free with his boyfriend. He misses his family, he does, and being able to spend this day with them is a true blessing, it’s just…

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10.

Blaine stares at the pushpin in a daze; what the hell has just happened? What did he do? It feels surreal, this piece of plastic sticking out of his hand like that, just below his thumb - even more so when he knows there’s almost half an inch of sharp metal embedded in the flesh. Pushed in by his own hand. What was that, anyway? An accident? An ( Read more... )

9.

Days go by slowly, measured by meals, showers, and Kurt’s calls and texts that never fail to push Blaine deeper into the dark, numb place inside, because Kurt shouldn’t waste his time on him, shouldn’t have to pull his focus from the important things - studying, work, friends - to check if his joke of a boyfriend isn’t slashing his wrists again.

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A/N: I know you’re all waiting for Blaine to get better, because it’s heartbreaking to see our boys hurting like this. But as I wrote before, this is a dark, painful story - a story about depression, about being lost and broken and shattered, in a place of no more hope; and about surviving in spite of it. There’s no quick comfort here, I’m sorry. ( Read more... )

7.

Kurt boards the plane with a heavy heart that evening, everything pulling at him to stop, to stay instead. Knowing that he can’t really do anything for Blaine now doesn’t change this, and neither does the deeply ingrained sense of responsibility that tells him he needs to be back at school tomorrow. Being a responsible almost-adult sucks ( Read more... )

6.

This morning, Kurt has no problem getting to Blaine’s room; he already knows where it is and he’s on the list of people allowed in - a very exclusive list, consisting only of three names. When he opens the door, hesitant, he’s relieved to see the straps have been removed. The heart monitor is also off and there’s only a single IV stand by the bed ( Read more... )

A/N: Do you have your stuffies/hug givers at hand? They may be useful today. There are still penguin stuffies for everyone at punkkitten2113's LJ, too, don't hesitate to go grab some :) Ready? Here we go.
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5.

Blaine keeps his eyes shut, his mouth ( Read more... )

4.

Mrs. Anderson’s never really had a problem with Kurt. She may be a workaholic and often absent from Blaine’s life, but unlike her husband, she’s fine with him being gay and having a boyfriend. Whenever they spoke in the past, she’s always been nothing but nice towards Kurt. That’s what he doesn’t understand now, what he’s been wondering since his ( Read more... )