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[antiqrule1]

I want to make it through life confidently, getting things done, being productive, being helpful, being dependable, being loving, as the best friend someone could have, as someone who "knows her shit," as someone who doesn't give up, as someone who acts firmly according to her principles, as someone important, knowing who I am, as someone who can

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[antiqrule1]

So underwhelming...we've done nothing but closed-mouth kiss and hold hands. We slept next to each other, but he stayed on his side of the bed. I saw him undress when he thought I was asleep...his body is smaller and thinner than mine-he has kind of 0 muscle...his arms are half the size of mine. The cracking voice and laughter is kind of overwhelming. He's just kind of...geeky? I guess. He doesn't read signs for things, so we ended up seeing a Sesame Street Planetarium show because he just read "Big Bird" and thought it was about birds. Also, he walks so far ahead of me in stores that it's like he's not even with me (and it's not intentional). And I think he pretended to like a lot of things I like so that he could be like me. It's really such a shame...and depressing. I'm bummed about it.