Comments | anothernotebook: Be quiet, Dory.

anothernotebook

Be quiet, Dory.

Dec 30, 2009 14:59

I couldn't help noticing at our high school reunion the other day that nearly everyone there had decided not to leave home. Most of those present had not gone farther than Davao for college. If they weren't pursuing further studies there now, they were putting down roots. Those who were nurses had applied to or were working at nearby hospitals. ( Read more... )

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loki_of_asgard January 1 2010, 01:46:52 UTC

Eloquently put. I really admire your ability to weave, and I'm still wondering why you aren't writing books or novellas or comics. :) If your name was on the cover of something, I'd buy it.

I think I understand how you feel. I'm here because of the S word. "Sayang". Sayang naman green card mo. Sayang naman yoong puwede mo kitahin. And I admit, the opportunity to learn and explore is too good to pass up. But I still feel like I left my life on hold sometimes, like I did the hard thing, the right thing, and took the easy way out all at the same time. There's a whole lot of confusion.

What do we do?

anothernotebook January 1 2010, 09:19:10 UTC

Thanks, Pol. :)

The best reason I can think of for going back to Manila is that Martin is there and Martin likes it there. My biggest fear is that, even though I'm with him, I won't fit into the city like I didn't fit in among my classmates. I'm not taking placelessness very well.

What do we do? I really don't know. :(

loki_of_asgard January 1 2010, 21:30:58 UTC

I know what you mean about places. Though fitting in has always been a theory I didn't quite grasp. I've always sort of believed the saying that everyone's alone. If that's true then fitting in is a state of mind. You either find a place and a situation you can relax, or the fit you want doesn't exist and it's all in your head in which case you should change your mind.

I don't know if it'll help but maybe some perspective is in order. Make a Pros & Cons List? It could be illuminating.

Also I like lists.

Top 5 places I used to love that no longer exist, in no particular order:
1. Los Otros
2. SM Video Arcade
3. K.A.F.E.
4. The SEC Moon Tree (It's where Mateo Ricci is now.)
5. The Hole. (The space between the living room corner and the corner sofa.)