My stress level is increasing exponentially. My back hurts like a bitch from the stress. The back pain isn't helping the stress, the stress worsens the panic attacks, which increase the stress.
Oh well.

Antidepressants scare me, but I'm trying.

I hope she does well on her tests.

I wish I could have a hug.
From you, right now.

I hope she's not too ( Read more... )

if(katiesHeadache >= willToDoHomework) {
    katie.stopHomework();
    distraction=false;
}//if

I have this feeling of impending doom, like there's something that's going to happen that I don't like.
Maybe it's her.
I think something's going to happen...or maybe it already has.

No matter what happens with her, I hope you agree that we can be good friends.
I still can't lost hope, even now.

We still have to talk.

I still wish I could stay with her ( Read more... )

I wonder if you do love me? I wish you'd tell me.

Part of me is inclined to think not, because of this other person. Should I lose hope?
I wish she'd just do something about this person, so I could know.
I never was good at mind-reading.

I'm only obsessing so much because I'm just waiting.
I don't know if she'd want me back anyway, even if this other ( Read more... )

I miss you, you know. More than you could even imagine. I miss talking to you every night, and smiling when I sleep because I heard your voice. I miss seeing you on weekends, and staying at your house until the last minute, because you didn't want to let me go (and neither did your mother). I miss you missing me too. I miss your eyes and your smile ( Read more... )

( Words to her. )

I feel so lazy for not wanting to work. I'm just enjoying not doing *anything* for once. Am I really lazy? It doesn't help that I really don't feel like working at the bakery of all places, because it just...well, it's just the same thing over and over again.

Okay. I give in.
Who wants to do things?
(I'm trying to be more social.)

I'm tired of being lonely.
It's not that I'm always alone, necessarily,
I'm just tired of being lonely.
I almost miss high school in a way.
Is that a terrible thing to say?

I'm nervous, and excited, and scared, and about to start on a whole new shaky path...a new adventure...
and it's far scarier than college.