[FIC] Turn Around; Part 1
Title: Turn Around (Two Shots)
Fandom: Super Junior
Pairing: Sungmin/Hyukjae
Genre: Slash; Angst
Table: Table A
Prompt: 071. Broken
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1012
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters.
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‘Let’s break up.’
‘We cannot do things together from now on.’
‘I need to leave you Hyukjae-ah.’
‘I must leave you now.’
‘I am sorry.’
‘I need to go.’
Am I dreaming? Is this really happening?
Where is he going? Who is that guy just now? Why is he taking him away from me?
I am standing here, in the middle of the sidewalk as I watch my heart being taken away from me. It’s like my world is in slow motion just now. He is slowly walking away from me.
He said we need to separate ways from now on. I didn’t ask why. In fact, I didn’t say a thing. I let him finish his monologue and maybe tell him what I really feel yet I remain quiet. I even think that he is just joking yet after telling me that he needs to go, when he turn his back on me, that is when everything started to sink in my mind.
He is leaving.
He just broke up with me.
My mind is screaming ‘don’t go.’ My mind says to run towards him. My mind tells me to stop him for suddenly leaving me.
No explanations said. Only the words, ‘let’s break up’ keep lingering inside my head.
Why is falling in love needed to be this painful?
He even called me ‘Hyukjae-ah.’ Since when did he call me that? ‘Hyukkie-ah’ is way better than ‘Hyukjae-ah’ especially with his sweet tone. Where did that cold voice come from? What happened to my Sungmin?
I am still standing here, with thoughts of him in my mind.
Can you just turn around and run back towards me? Or it would be great if you just stop right there and let me run towards you.
Are you really leaving me now?
Did you think about this so many times?
Did you really make up your mind?
I am still here, standing in the exact place you left me, and in the exact same place you told me you don’t want me anymore.
Are you really sure about it? You can always take it back. I won’t get mad. I won’t admonish a thing. Just turn around and go back here.
But you are slowly fading away.
Far away from where I am standing.
I cannot see your retreating figure anymore. Does this mean you are not really mine now? Why? What did I do wrong for you to leave me like this?
Yesterday, we were completely fine. We even went out and had fun. We were completely happy with each other’s company. We held onto each other like no one wanted to let go. We didn’t have any problems. Everything was perfect.
Today, he was gradually drifting away from me. He suddenly called me this morning to meet him here. He was not excited to see me. He didn’t hold me like yesterday. We suddenly had problems. Problems, I didn’t even know where those came from. It was almost perfect.
Tomorrow, I will not be fine. We are not together anymore. I will not be happy without him by my side. I will not hold him like I did yesterday. We will not have problems because we won’t be interacting any longer. Everything will never be perfect once again.
I started feeling my cheeks being so warm. My vision gets blurry and my tears start falling in the corner of my eyes.
Why am I crying just now?
Maybe, it is because I can feel my chest tightening. I think I cannot breathe well. It is like I am being suffocated and it feels like I am being strangled to death.
I am really losing him now. No, I already lost him.
I suddenly sink in my knees, crying so helplessly. Who cares if I look like a child who just lost his mom? Who cares if I look pathetic now? I don’t even give a damn anymore because he would not care for me no more.
I love you.
I love you so much that I cannot live without you. Even if you are away for just a second, it feels like my heart is going to explode not seeing you by my side. What more now that I will never see you again?
Please come back to me. I am always willing to have you back in my side. I am more than willing to accept your apologies. Just come back to me.
Please.
Please.
I wish you will come back.
Get me here.
I will just sit here and wait until you return.
It’s stupid.
I know but, I think I can’t stand because my knees feel weak right now. My whole body is feeling weak. I think my whole body is aching but my heart is in pain the most.
I love you.
You will come back and get me here right? Or am I insane for still believing you will still come back? A part of me says you won’t but my heart shouts you will. So please, Sungmin-ah, come back to me.
I cannot live my life without you.
I can’t because I love you.
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It is now evening. The sun bids goodbye yet I am still here in the exact same place where he left me.
It is pathetic, right?
Yes but it doesn’t matter. He never returned. I thought he is going to go back and get me.
I guess I am wrong.
He didn’t even look back awhile ago.
So I this is the part where I give up huh?
I think I should get going. My brother must be waiting for me at home. That childish Donghae must be hungry because I am not yet around. How will I explain to him that he won’t be seeing his Sungmin-hyung anymore?
I sigh as I was about to take a step when I heard something unexpectedly. It is a person behind me with a very low voice.
It’s real, right?
I turn around and he keeps repeating those words.
‘Hyukkie-ah, I am sorry.’
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A/N:
/runs and hides
Fandom: Super Junior
Pairing: Sungmin/Hyukjae
Genre: Slash; Angst
Table: Table A
Prompt: 071. Broken
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1012
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters.
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‘Let’s break up.’
‘We cannot do things together from now on.’
‘I need to leave you Hyukjae-ah.’
‘I must leave you now.’
‘I am sorry.’
‘I need to go.’
Am I dreaming? Is this really happening?
Where is he going? Who is that guy just now? Why is he taking him away from me?
I am standing here, in the middle of the sidewalk as I watch my heart being taken away from me. It’s like my world is in slow motion just now. He is slowly walking away from me.
He said we need to separate ways from now on. I didn’t ask why. In fact, I didn’t say a thing. I let him finish his monologue and maybe tell him what I really feel yet I remain quiet. I even think that he is just joking yet after telling me that he needs to go, when he turn his back on me, that is when everything started to sink in my mind.
He is leaving.
He just broke up with me.
My mind is screaming ‘don’t go.’ My mind says to run towards him. My mind tells me to stop him for suddenly leaving me.
No explanations said. Only the words, ‘let’s break up’ keep lingering inside my head.
Why is falling in love needed to be this painful?
He even called me ‘Hyukjae-ah.’ Since when did he call me that? ‘Hyukkie-ah’ is way better than ‘Hyukjae-ah’ especially with his sweet tone. Where did that cold voice come from? What happened to my Sungmin?
I am still standing here, with thoughts of him in my mind.
Can you just turn around and run back towards me? Or it would be great if you just stop right there and let me run towards you.
Are you really leaving me now?
Did you think about this so many times?
Did you really make up your mind?
I am still here, standing in the exact place you left me, and in the exact same place you told me you don’t want me anymore.
Are you really sure about it? You can always take it back. I won’t get mad. I won’t admonish a thing. Just turn around and go back here.
But you are slowly fading away.
Far away from where I am standing.
I cannot see your retreating figure anymore. Does this mean you are not really mine now? Why? What did I do wrong for you to leave me like this?
Yesterday, we were completely fine. We even went out and had fun. We were completely happy with each other’s company. We held onto each other like no one wanted to let go. We didn’t have any problems. Everything was perfect.
Today, he was gradually drifting away from me. He suddenly called me this morning to meet him here. He was not excited to see me. He didn’t hold me like yesterday. We suddenly had problems. Problems, I didn’t even know where those came from. It was almost perfect.
Tomorrow, I will not be fine. We are not together anymore. I will not be happy without him by my side. I will not hold him like I did yesterday. We will not have problems because we won’t be interacting any longer. Everything will never be perfect once again.
I started feeling my cheeks being so warm. My vision gets blurry and my tears start falling in the corner of my eyes.
Why am I crying just now?
Maybe, it is because I can feel my chest tightening. I think I cannot breathe well. It is like I am being suffocated and it feels like I am being strangled to death.
I am really losing him now. No, I already lost him.
I suddenly sink in my knees, crying so helplessly. Who cares if I look like a child who just lost his mom? Who cares if I look pathetic now? I don’t even give a damn anymore because he would not care for me no more.
I love you.
I love you so much that I cannot live without you. Even if you are away for just a second, it feels like my heart is going to explode not seeing you by my side. What more now that I will never see you again?
Please come back to me. I am always willing to have you back in my side. I am more than willing to accept your apologies. Just come back to me.
Please.
Please.
I wish you will come back.
Get me here.
I will just sit here and wait until you return.
It’s stupid.
I know but, I think I can’t stand because my knees feel weak right now. My whole body is feeling weak. I think my whole body is aching but my heart is in pain the most.
I love you.
You will come back and get me here right? Or am I insane for still believing you will still come back? A part of me says you won’t but my heart shouts you will. So please, Sungmin-ah, come back to me.
I cannot live my life without you.
I can’t because I love you.
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It is now evening. The sun bids goodbye yet I am still here in the exact same place where he left me.
It is pathetic, right?
Yes but it doesn’t matter. He never returned. I thought he is going to go back and get me.
I guess I am wrong.
He didn’t even look back awhile ago.
So I this is the part where I give up huh?
I think I should get going. My brother must be waiting for me at home. That childish Donghae must be hungry because I am not yet around. How will I explain to him that he won’t be seeing his Sungmin-hyung anymore?
I sigh as I was about to take a step when I heard something unexpectedly. It is a person behind me with a very low voice.
It’s real, right?
I turn around and he keeps repeating those words.
‘Hyukkie-ah, I am sorry.’
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A/N:
/runs and hides