I don't know why i thought i would grow up to be anything special. Im nobody, really. I work a dead end job amd have a desd end life. No other way around it. I dont know why i bothered trying. I might as well give up now. Checkmate.

Love waking up in an absolutely shitty mood. Hope nobody tries to bug me today because they are going to get it. I feel like i haven't been talking to my friends at all lately and they dont seem to care. I am supposed to go to my friends drag show this weekend but considering how he has been treating me i think i will just go home to new jersey if ( Read more... )

I will never get anywhere in life. I don't know why I bother trying.

Just cut because i dont care anymore. All i want is to surround myself in darkness amd drown in it.

all i want is to not wake up tomorrow. 

i hate myself.

I'm so tired.
Nothing is going right anymore.
I'm drowning, and I don't think I can stop this time.
I'd rather let the darkness swallow me whole. Like a python waiting to strike.

I am never going to get anywhere in life.
I am never going to get what I want.
I don't even know what I want anymore.
I can't do this anymore.

No one cares.
I've run out of fucks to give.
I will never figure my life out.
I don't think I want to figure my life out.
I'm just so done.
I don't want to be here anymore.

trying not to fall for you
is the hardest thing I've had to do