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Yeah, I'm having fun at the moment. The inner discoveries which I'm living with at the moment are:
- That funny feeling that reminds me of ribs when branches of knowledge go into one another. It first happened when I was learning about photosynthesis in Mr Rees' science class and he told us that plants breathe CO by day and oxygen by night. Aha, my smarmy privileged young mind thought, that's why Mum says that rooms with plants get stuffy at night. And ever since, when one bit of knowledge links or fuses to another bit, I have had the feeling that my world is not an intimidating space but a climbing frame.
- .. Because I am scared of what I don't know. I can still remember the feeling of loneliness that shook my in my bed when I was three; the feelings came from hearing anything accelerate down the motorway. I am still convinced that the Manic St Preachers' Motorcycle Emptiness is about that very feeling. Twilight used to give me the saem heebie jeebies. I was an anxious child and I'm still an old soul and I wish to fuck that someone had told me,
- 'there is nothing to learn. All the grown-ups are winging it'.
- I think that is true whether you believe in God or not. But, in the words of Panic!, It's Better If You Do.
- I learnt that you recover from honesty. You can trust them, because you're no worse than them. 'People are just people, people are just people, people are just people like you'.
- And that the Word, of John 1.1, is Jesus, and the gospel is simple. God made himself human as a sacrifice; he took on all the dirt that separates Him from us; because Jesus died and survived death, we can reach over and touch God. We can, we should.
- ♥ Cat Power for she sings the truth.
- Today I found a deckchair (a much wished-for unbirthday gift from the universe). Tonight I am making bunting. This weekend I am going to Pride. And Thursday week WE are going for cocktails!