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[anaverin]

I really want a child. Sometimes it seems impossibly far away. Alot of my friends have them already. Some may not know how lucky they are. Most may not understand how important it is to me, or why. Patricks new baby, has me thinking alot. I like holding her

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[as_i_fly]

I understand completely..

I feel the same way.

[anaverin]

you would ;-P

[superfrau]

You're not the only one with those osrt of insecurities. I wonder about that sort of thing myself.

I want to have kids, but I know that I'm not ready yet. I need to have more stability in my life. I don't want my kids to know what I knew as a child... hunger, insecurity, rejection, and loneliness.

For now, I'll worry about building up myself and creating a life into which I'd feel comfortable bringing a child into. If I can't have biological children, then at least I know it'd be more likely I'd be able to adopt.