Dear Journal,

Ok I had to have done the stupidest thing today.

It was one of the rare days when Cody and I talked and it didn’t end in a fight.
Well after I ate a pop tart he went into his room to count some change he had in a jar.
I was starting to feel incredibly guilty for eating at such a late hour, even though it was only one of the three things ( Read more... )

A poem I wrote the day I found that comment 
Enjoy.

Soft voice, hope filled lies..
Your sweet words, they blinded my eyes.

You were there you took my hand
but now I’ve broke I don’t understand

Things that once brought comfort only causes pain.
What do I have to give in order to gain..?

I think that I’ve lost it 
My saintly is gone that I’ll admit..

How ( Read more... )

Today..my heart was shattered...

I should have know...it should have been obvious...
Why didn’t I realize he didn’t really love me... and he couldn’t..
There was another..I knew this... but I was happy, just imagining that I might have been the one he liked most..
I always had doubts I’m so imperfect...she must be so much better then me...
It makes me ( Read more... )

I really think I’ve gone off the deep end.. And I hate myself so much for it.

I’m always struggling to be the perfect me or at least the me I want to be:
Good grades, thin/pretty, smart, nice but not a push over, different/ someone that stands away from the crowed a good Christian, plus a whole lot of other thing..
((Of corse it hard to be ‘perfect ( Read more... )

Dearest Journal,

As you may or may not know I am now a proud mother...yup...I’m just not married quite yet... And before you go thinking: "OMG you had sex and aren’t married..?! Plus your only 14!!" I didn’t do anything of the sort. Sick-o journal thinking I’m a whore...! Anyway! Shearis and Cainan...well.. we’ll just say they "adopted" a ( Read more... )

It seams that the more I try to be my own person the more I keep getting categorized with others.

The whole reason I started dressing “Goth” was; not only because I thought the clothes were cool, but I thought that maybe it would set me apart from others. But no! Instead I was only separated into a smaller group. Sometime I think finding ( Read more... )

I got braces AND I started!-

Now not only does my mouth hurt form the constant pulling on my teeth but it’s giving me a headache. And that to the wonderful things we call "periods" is making my stomach hurt from cramps! To matters worse my I’ve been craving certain foods thanks to that damn thing.. And I can’t eat because of these damn braces! I ( Read more... )

My brother Cody is always pissing me off. So I though I might wright a little something to remind me the next time I even think about saying I like him, I’ll know not to.

Reason One - He hates me.. Why would anyone like someone that hates them??

Reason Two- He’s racist. The only race he like is Caucasian and African Americas. He likes Caucasians ( Read more... )

Ok a while back Kagome asked me to make an journal entry that was happy for once. So here it is..I hope..

Um lets see... Well for starters, Kagome will be coming down soon!! Yay! That’s always a reason to be happy. We have a tone of things we plan on doing. Staying up late watching all the best anime shows((a.k.a- Inuyasha!)), watching movies such ( Read more... )

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