on creating things

[anamacha]

The reality of it is that I've got a thousand different things going on in my head at any given moment.

The reality of it is that I never seem to really do a fuck thing with any of those thoughts and feelings.

The reality of it is that I never really feel like I'm doing a fuck thing worthwhile with my life -- just eating & sleeping & playing

Comments

[wardellen]

I guess I got this out of my system early on, with marching band & my academic career. I was told repeatedly that I was a "leader" but when I asked for leadership roles I was told I wasn't quite ready yet. Later I figured out that it was my family's lack of prestige, power, or political clout that kept me from recognized. [shrug] Somehow I made up my mind to be glad that I didn't have all that added responsibility; it wasn't worth the attention in my mind. For me, the only fame that matters is the love of my family and friends. I'm quite happy being a peon in the grand scheme.

[gothcat1969]

Average people are the most special, the most interesting, because when one rises from mediocrity--that is truly special. I know you are special. Never forget that.

Thoughts

[ysabetwordsmith]

If what you create never lives up to what you imagine, then you're not creating the right things yet. With art, with music -- I can putter, but the result rarely pleases me. It's not where I'm at in this life. But with writing, the results almost always please me, and they did that long before I got really good at it.

Re: Thoughts

[anamacha]

interesting thought; maybe so. I am rather pleased with my drawings, on occasion -- what I posed a week or so ago, f'rinstance -- but when my brain/ego/whatever gets in the way, then I get rather unhappy with things.

The problem, I think, is doing things without ego, without Self interfering. Then it's good.

[doiasku]

Yesterday I came across "stiefvater"-s post on thoughts very much complementary to yours. It is a bit of an oldie already. "stiefvater" is about to realize the dream.
Heh.......I have no time even for that ! Work gobbles me up so completely, but yes.........thoughts, thoughts, thoughts, at a million miles, light-miles a second ha, they keep buzzing around up-there, round-and-round the Hippocampus, keeping me in good form for 'when-God-knows-WHEN', such time as, dream on, they may explode into manifestation.