nothing exciting, but in case anyone cares, thought I should post that i haven't dropped off the face off the earth - UNFORTUNATELY! i am still fat, i still hate myself, i'm back to working out 2 hrs a day, but i swear i keep getting fatter and fatter (and no, it's not b/c i'm bulking up w/muscle, it's been mostly cardio and a little toning - it's ( Read more... )

Well, I hate myself. I was so upset and miserable all day Sunday, long story. Basically ended up staying in bed and mostly sleeping for over 24 hrs. Got up to weigh myself - still 131!!!!! AAAAAAHHH. So much for the pact I made with someone to lose 3 lbs by Monday. Ate like crazy on Saturday, won't get into it. Also, couldn't really ride on ( Read more... )

bfast: 1 slice pumpernickel bread
lunch: 1 can tuna, 1/2 salad

snack: miso soup, 3 hard-boiled egg whites

dinner: half pack of mushrooms, other half of salad

About 400 cals for the day.

Just went snowboarding all afternoon, it was so much fun and such a good workout!! I don't feel that I have the right to post in the community until I'm back in the 120s for good, b/c right now even I am appalled at myself. How can I expect others to support me when I look so disgusting??? So... probably expect not to hear from me for about a ( Read more... )

Ok, have to make this quick b/c I need to get back to work - but what's hw w/out a little bit of procrastination, right ( Read more... )

Haven't updated all weekend, so here goes. Saturday: sprained my ankle running in the morning, so I wouldn't eat the rest of the day, I was so mad and upset. Had some celery and wakame soup (15 cals) and night, then some potato my bf really wanted me to eat - was so upset, I threw it up, for the first time since I promised him I'd really try not ( Read more... )

So going to the festival and dinner was ok at first. I had a tiny plate of salad, small plate of fruit, and a little bit of rice and beans. THEN... I had 3 cookies (say 200 cals?) and a couple of bites of cake (say 200 more cals?)!! Oh no. I was with my friend so I couldn't spit. So I said, "whatever, I'll run hard tomorrow." Then, when we ( Read more... )

This morning, I had my two slices of pumpernickel bread (140 cals total). Unfortunately, I suggested to my friends that we go to this festival thing tonight. There's dancing and all kinds of fun stuff, but unfortunately also a big dinner! I shouldn't have suggested we eat there, but now it's too late, so I'll have to waste a lot of money on food ( Read more... )

elne Welcome back!! (We all have our bad moments, don't worry about it.)

ana_blush You look beautiful, but so sad in your pictures :(

greentea77 Hey, just remember fruit isn't really neg cals. That's what some quack doctor came up with in the 60s, but today we know better. Each apple is from 65 to 110 cals, depending on the size, and you definitely don't burn that ( Read more... )

Ok, actually, I'm going to have the other half piece of cucumber as soon as I come home, and then a piece of salmon for protein and an Atkins bar - for more protein and some fiber - after I (hopefully) run around 4pm. Then I have my cooking class from 6 to 10pm! Crazy huh, but I told my bf I'd learn b/c he cooked for me for 3 yrs, so it's only ( Read more... )