13 Years
Title : 13 Years
Author : Angella
Length : Oneshot
Chara : Yabu Kouta - Inoo Kei
Genre : Angst - Romance
A/N : Sorry for bad english, engslish isnt my first language. sorry for typo.
Did you ever think of me?
Not as Friend, Not as sibling.
But as someone special. As a lover
Almost 13 years we know each other. That day, we accidwntally meet each other. I just wonder, if only, that day, i dont meet you. If only, that day, i am not going to that elevator. If only, i am not told you my name. Did we just ended like this?
I must be know, that i can;t lean on you. That you and i have different life. You have your life, so do i. But, why i always found myself being with you? We just accidentally met in the same place. from so many person on there, why must you, why must you that i met?
I have many chance to runaway from you, but 'he' always put us together. I don't get what he want from us. But, what 'He' do always involve us. I want to regret it. But I cant. I just cant regret what we have done.
That time, we stand on same stage. we build our dream together. we cath piece by piece to make our dream come true. until now, until we being an adult. We still doing it.
I close the notebook rounghly. I dont even care of that kind of stuff. The news that i read just now make me more sad. I touch my own chest. The place of my heart. This kind of heartbeat that toward only for you. for 13 years, did you never know it?
The title of the news seems like flying on my head. Even if i must answer my test, i can answer it with the news title. The news that i read, it just about you. News that you already dating with a girl. A GIRL for a God sake.
But, acctually my heart aches more than that. My heart feel like ripping apart. It hurt. But, you dont need to know.
Ting Tong Ting Tong....
I Jump from my seat as respond for the bell ringin. I dont even look on display first, just open my apartment door.. But, i just found you. Standing in front of my apartment, hoding a paper bag.
"Oh, Kei. Can i come in?"
I just nod and let you enter my apartment. After close the door, i join you that acctually bought a chocolate cake.
"Why you come here, Kou?" Finnaly i ask it.
"Can i come to my bestfriend's house?" why you answer my question with question?
"Mou, Daijobu desuyo. Demo,..."
"Ja, Kei, Can i borrow your notebook for a minute, i have an email that i must reply, but my phone battery was drop off. Can i?"
"Eh? You can use my phone. I... I used my notebook for making a peper," i hand my phone to him, but he just walk to my notebook.
"Paper? what kind of paper? the one that have an assigment is me. You already graduated right?"
Before i can answer him, he already open my notebook. Showing him the page that i just read. the page that i forget to closed.
"Kei, what you mean with this?"
I keep my head down and try to not look at him. I dont even dare to tell him what i do.
"Kei, Answer me, what are you doing with this?"
"Just do your bussiness. i wait outside," i said withour looking at him, and i just walking outside my room.
I sit on my couch, i dont know what should i do. I just, i just find, that he get angry over me. But, just because i read that news, he being angry to me. It must be me that angry over him, right?
I heard his step. I dont look at him at all. He sit beside me. but, i still silent.
"Kei, did you read that news?"
"Hai. I read it. Why?"
"Why you read it? you dont need to read that kind of,"
"I Dont need? I dont need you say? I never know that you already have a girlfrind, and now, you get angry to me just because of that? The one who must angry is me. You know, how my feeling when i read that kind of news?"
"Thats why i told you that you dont need to read that news!" He yell at me, He shout to me.
i'm done. My tears come out. My feet get weaker and i just fell in the floor. I try to stop my tears. But that fucking water keep coming. I squish my chest to reduce the pain. But, the pain just never leave.
"kei, I am sorry i just yelled at you,"
"No need for apolyging Kou. I just.....," i can't continue my word.
"Kei,"
"Kou. Can i ask something?"
"What?"
"Kou, do you ever think of me?"
"OF course, you are my bestfriend, you are my otouto. You are special to me. Friend that always with me for this 13 years,"
"Not like that, Kou. Do you ever think of me, not being a bestfriend nor sibling?"
"Eh? What you mean?"
"Kou. Sukidayo,"
I said it. I know, this isn't right time to confess it. But, its already late. Its like now or never for me. I just want him to know what i hide from him for the past 13 years. Just want to release my pain that always hurt me.
"Suki? nandayo? uso janai yo!"
"Yabu-san. I'm not telling a lie. I try to hide it for the past 13 years. But, i think this time to confess it. Anyway, you already have a girlfriend. So, its okay for me to confess it. I, I always think that you have that kind of feeling toward me. I believe, this 13 year, will have impact for you too. But, it going to wrong path. You just think of me as your bestfriend and you brother, ne? this isn;t your fault. this is my fault. Anyway. I'm done,"
"Kei, Gomen,"
"Naniyo? daijobu desu. I'm done. Ja. Mata ashita. we will meet at practice room tomorrow right? Be careful on the way, Dont drive too fast,"
"Kei,"
"Ja! Ja ne,"
I walk to my room and close the door after enter it. I lean my back to the door. Burry my face between my legs and start to cry again.
"Kei. Will you hear me?"
"Kei, i will tell you the truth. Its not like i dont like you. I Like you. No, i love you, Kei. But, i know that it was wrong. I shouldn't fallin in love with you. I try to erased my feeling by dating a girl. But, the one that keep always on my mind are you, kei,"
"Kei. Please, forgive me. Its not like that. And, please. can we fix our feeling tonight? i cant leave you when we have problems like this. Please kei, talk to me,"
I sigh heavily, "Kou."
"Kei,"
"Kou, Why not we try to face the world with our love? why not we try chalange the world?"
"We can't Kei. We just minor. We can't,"
"Are we just need to hold our feeling? Why they can't accept us? Why must we that considere them? why Kou?"
"Kei. You know right. You know the best answer for your own question,"
"Kou, heve you ever dream about us being together?"
"Hm. Of course. I dream, what if we end uo together. We will runaway from this world. Build our own place. The place that only you and i. I had dreamed it, Kei,"
"Kou. I had dreamed that too. But, it just dream right? the truth are never going smoothly like dream. But, Kou, acctually, i dont want to lose my feeling toward you,"
"Boku mo. But, i can try to hide it. Hide it kei. The one that only know our feeling just our self and God. Even Jump member doenst need to know,"
"Hm. I'll hide it. Demo...,"
"Yamete kei. Its enough right. I know that you love me too. and you know that i love you too. isn't that enough?"
"Hai. Wakatta. its enough. We still Kei and Kou, and we never change. Arigatou, Kou. Aishiteruyo,"
"Anata mo, Arigatou,"
I heard the sound of opening my door. I think he just left. This is the best for us. even my feeling grow bigger everytime. Even 13 years of us end up like this. Its enough. Knowing that he has the same feeling with me is enough with me.
Kou, How many time passed, i just can love you. Only one. Only you. My love is only for you.
OWARI
Author : Angella
Length : Oneshot
Chara : Yabu Kouta - Inoo Kei
Genre : Angst - Romance
A/N : Sorry for bad english, engslish isnt my first language. sorry for typo.
Did you ever think of me?
Not as Friend, Not as sibling.
But as someone special. As a lover
Almost 13 years we know each other. That day, we accidwntally meet each other. I just wonder, if only, that day, i dont meet you. If only, that day, i am not going to that elevator. If only, i am not told you my name. Did we just ended like this?
I must be know, that i can;t lean on you. That you and i have different life. You have your life, so do i. But, why i always found myself being with you? We just accidentally met in the same place. from so many person on there, why must you, why must you that i met?
I have many chance to runaway from you, but 'he' always put us together. I don't get what he want from us. But, what 'He' do always involve us. I want to regret it. But I cant. I just cant regret what we have done.
That time, we stand on same stage. we build our dream together. we cath piece by piece to make our dream come true. until now, until we being an adult. We still doing it.
I close the notebook rounghly. I dont even care of that kind of stuff. The news that i read just now make me more sad. I touch my own chest. The place of my heart. This kind of heartbeat that toward only for you. for 13 years, did you never know it?
The title of the news seems like flying on my head. Even if i must answer my test, i can answer it with the news title. The news that i read, it just about you. News that you already dating with a girl. A GIRL for a God sake.
But, acctually my heart aches more than that. My heart feel like ripping apart. It hurt. But, you dont need to know.
Ting Tong Ting Tong....
I Jump from my seat as respond for the bell ringin. I dont even look on display first, just open my apartment door.. But, i just found you. Standing in front of my apartment, hoding a paper bag.
"Oh, Kei. Can i come in?"
I just nod and let you enter my apartment. After close the door, i join you that acctually bought a chocolate cake.
"Why you come here, Kou?" Finnaly i ask it.
"Can i come to my bestfriend's house?" why you answer my question with question?
"Mou, Daijobu desuyo. Demo,..."
"Ja, Kei, Can i borrow your notebook for a minute, i have an email that i must reply, but my phone battery was drop off. Can i?"
"Eh? You can use my phone. I... I used my notebook for making a peper," i hand my phone to him, but he just walk to my notebook.
"Paper? what kind of paper? the one that have an assigment is me. You already graduated right?"
Before i can answer him, he already open my notebook. Showing him the page that i just read. the page that i forget to closed.
"Kei, what you mean with this?"
I keep my head down and try to not look at him. I dont even dare to tell him what i do.
"Kei, Answer me, what are you doing with this?"
"Just do your bussiness. i wait outside," i said withour looking at him, and i just walking outside my room.
I sit on my couch, i dont know what should i do. I just, i just find, that he get angry over me. But, just because i read that news, he being angry to me. It must be me that angry over him, right?
I heard his step. I dont look at him at all. He sit beside me. but, i still silent.
"Kei, did you read that news?"
"Hai. I read it. Why?"
"Why you read it? you dont need to read that kind of,"
"I Dont need? I dont need you say? I never know that you already have a girlfrind, and now, you get angry to me just because of that? The one who must angry is me. You know, how my feeling when i read that kind of news?"
"Thats why i told you that you dont need to read that news!" He yell at me, He shout to me.
i'm done. My tears come out. My feet get weaker and i just fell in the floor. I try to stop my tears. But that fucking water keep coming. I squish my chest to reduce the pain. But, the pain just never leave.
"kei, I am sorry i just yelled at you,"
"No need for apolyging Kou. I just.....," i can't continue my word.
"Kei,"
"Kou. Can i ask something?"
"What?"
"Kou, do you ever think of me?"
"OF course, you are my bestfriend, you are my otouto. You are special to me. Friend that always with me for this 13 years,"
"Not like that, Kou. Do you ever think of me, not being a bestfriend nor sibling?"
"Eh? What you mean?"
"Kou. Sukidayo,"
I said it. I know, this isn't right time to confess it. But, its already late. Its like now or never for me. I just want him to know what i hide from him for the past 13 years. Just want to release my pain that always hurt me.
"Suki? nandayo? uso janai yo!"
"Yabu-san. I'm not telling a lie. I try to hide it for the past 13 years. But, i think this time to confess it. Anyway, you already have a girlfriend. So, its okay for me to confess it. I, I always think that you have that kind of feeling toward me. I believe, this 13 year, will have impact for you too. But, it going to wrong path. You just think of me as your bestfriend and you brother, ne? this isn;t your fault. this is my fault. Anyway. I'm done,"
"Kei, Gomen,"
"Naniyo? daijobu desu. I'm done. Ja. Mata ashita. we will meet at practice room tomorrow right? Be careful on the way, Dont drive too fast,"
"Kei,"
"Ja! Ja ne,"
I walk to my room and close the door after enter it. I lean my back to the door. Burry my face between my legs and start to cry again.
"Kei. Will you hear me?"
"Kei, i will tell you the truth. Its not like i dont like you. I Like you. No, i love you, Kei. But, i know that it was wrong. I shouldn't fallin in love with you. I try to erased my feeling by dating a girl. But, the one that keep always on my mind are you, kei,"
"Kei. Please, forgive me. Its not like that. And, please. can we fix our feeling tonight? i cant leave you when we have problems like this. Please kei, talk to me,"
I sigh heavily, "Kou."
"Kei,"
"Kou, Why not we try to face the world with our love? why not we try chalange the world?"
"We can't Kei. We just minor. We can't,"
"Are we just need to hold our feeling? Why they can't accept us? Why must we that considere them? why Kou?"
"Kei. You know right. You know the best answer for your own question,"
"Kou, heve you ever dream about us being together?"
"Hm. Of course. I dream, what if we end uo together. We will runaway from this world. Build our own place. The place that only you and i. I had dreamed it, Kei,"
"Kou. I had dreamed that too. But, it just dream right? the truth are never going smoothly like dream. But, Kou, acctually, i dont want to lose my feeling toward you,"
"Boku mo. But, i can try to hide it. Hide it kei. The one that only know our feeling just our self and God. Even Jump member doenst need to know,"
"Hm. I'll hide it. Demo...,"
"Yamete kei. Its enough right. I know that you love me too. and you know that i love you too. isn't that enough?"
"Hai. Wakatta. its enough. We still Kei and Kou, and we never change. Arigatou, Kou. Aishiteruyo,"
"Anata mo, Arigatou,"
I heard the sound of opening my door. I think he just left. This is the best for us. even my feeling grow bigger everytime. Even 13 years of us end up like this. Its enough. Knowing that he has the same feeling with me is enough with me.
Kou, How many time passed, i just can love you. Only one. Only you. My love is only for you.
OWARI