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[amythest_dragon]

I'm posting this here because I know you will see it.  Whether I  keep it here or not, I don't know, but at least I know you will have read it.

I have been raped emotionally by you.  You knew I was having marital problems and you did what you could to finish destroying any chance I had at fixing it.  Sure you gave me the advise to seek counselling

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yow

[lynoth]

sounds like a tough situation. I think it is universal to the human condition that we will foul it up LARGE at least once; have faith that you can and will get through it. Sounds like you have all the tools you need, but if you ever need a more objective listener you know how to find me.

Re: yow

[amythest_dragon]

Thank you for responding. It is said that to err is human but to forgive is divine. This has been my attempt to clear the air, seek forgiveness, and also in a way to offer forgiveness to those who needed it, too. When nobody else responded at first, it shown to me that they couldn't give forgiveness nor could they own up to their own mistakes and seek forgiveness themselves. When I do get a response, first it was from you who wasn't involved in the situtation, then it was from someone who did play a small part. With that response, I see that either I am a truly unforgivable wretch of a person or that I am forgivable but the other person is too "good" to give forgiveness. It also blows my mind that nobody can really examine themselves regardless of whether or not they feel they have been played like a fiddle, to admit to being wrong as well. It saddens me to no end that, myself included, people cannot be honest when they go online. It's way too easy to hide behind a computer screen and pretend to be someone they are not. This

Re: yow

[lynoth]

chck your FB mailbox for more thoughts :)

Re: yow

[lynoth]

heh, or not, it appears that either you no longer have FB or I got un-friended :)P email me at lynoth at g m a i l dot c o m and we'll continue this conversation out of the limelight :)

[jo1967]

Bonny, it worries me that you are allowing Dan to dictate so much of what you are doing here. While I know that Brendan and I have only ever known your side of your story, unless you have been completely false with us from the beginning then we all know that most of what is written here is untrue. But that is completey beside the point, it is time for both you and Dan to move on from this and forget that either Brendan or I exists. These pitiful attempts to stir a response (whether they are coming from yourself or from Dan) need to stop. Your emails to me will be treated as spam from now on and I have recommended to Brendan that he do the same. I only hope that you one day get the help you need to either work things out with Dan or make a final break and get the bastard out of your life. Make of that what you may, Dan.

[amythest_dragon]

Here's the deal, I am very sorry that what has happened did indeed happen. I had taken situations and did embellish much of what was going on between Dan and I. Yes, there were things that went on that did upset me, but unfortunately, I am also one who eats sympathy up like mad. I am doing my best to right all the wrongs I have made in my life by coming clean and admitting to them. By my embellishments, I did lie and it was very wrong. I am no better than the bullies who gave me grief and maybe it was in a way to try to gain some sort of power, I honestly don't know but all the same, it was very very wrong for me to do this. I ate up alot of what I was told because it felt good to hear much of what was said. I appologize to Dan for all of it and I do appologize to everybody else as well. But, all the same, just because a person vents like I did, one should take it all with a grain of salt. I only wish that I remained honest so that I didn't put anybody in the position I put them in and I only wish that I didn't play up to the

[jo1967]

I was always aware that I was only getting one side of your story, but I am only now understanding how much I was being taken for a sucker. You have suggested to me previously that these are not truly your words and you are being forced to write in this hurtful way to help save your marriage. All I can say is that you are being very eloquent on someone else’s behalf

[dweomeroflight]

I too have told Brendan the same Jo. This type of post can only ever create more anger and hurt. It is a relief to see he has not responded to this post

[amythest_dragon]

This is to everybody who has posted: If you cannot see that I have tried to appologize to everybody who has been wronged by me whether it be my husband or anyone else who had befriended me, then I must be one who is unforgivable. I was only trying to correct all the wrongs that I had made and set things right. By that, I was also trying to open up the eyes of everybody who participated in this to see how wrong they were and to see if they were willing to step up and admit to being wrong, too. I really don't have much more to say about this, so take it however you will.

[dweomeroflight]

I would willingly forgive you if it were not for the fact that you are demanding apologies from people who do not owe you one and are acting in a cruel and hurtful way.

If you lied to us, that is your own fault and any effects that follow from those lies are your own fault and no one elses. If you can't see that you havn't learnt anything from any of what has occured.

But it doesn't matter. Obviously you never cared all that much about us online friends anyway or you wouldn't have posted such a hateful post.

No one is wrong in this situation but you. Take that how you will.