Reap What You Sow (Sam/Dean AU, NC-17)

[amypond45]

Summary: Sam and Dean went their separate ways after the hunt in the Pilot. Now it’s the middle of the night five years later, and the phone rings. Turns out the Woman in White was right.

AO3

When Sam’s phone buzzes at 1:30 a.m. he grabs it off the bedside table.

Comments

[ereynolds74]

Truly sad and painful for Dean- I was hoping the reason he was getting worse- was because he made a cross road deal to keep Sam safe( get to keep his normal life) and his time was finally coming to and end. it the sense i got when Sam got in and realize he forgot to tell Dean he was going to be an uncle, I felt oh no Sam is not aware- that Dean wont be there, but as i read the comments - i guess that was not the case....

Question: What happened to Sam's visions or the Demon blood in him? (this is what led me to believe there was a deal made by Dean)

Great job on the brothers deep bond between them and what would happen if they were ever apart- this would happen

[amypond45]

Wow, I love your idea! Maybe I’ll rewrite this (and credit you, of course!) Dean’s definitely sacrificed his happiness, if not his very life-force, so that Sam can have his normal life.

This story pretends that none of the Azazel/Lucifer storyline happened, so Sam doesn’t have the demon blood in him. I think I was trying to suggest that the “evil” in Sam may in fact be the thing that ensures that he and Dean stay together, as they do in canon. Paradoxically, Sam’s “impurity” (and to a lesser extent Dean’s “poison”) is what makes them a couple (whether sexually or not). It’s the good that comes out of the bad. Something like that! :)

Oh no- no need to re-write

[ereynolds74]

Oh no no need to re-write- its perfect just the way it is- after all you did say AU and that is what an AU is (the theme/trope still the same Dean and Sam limitless love for each other gen or Wincest ;) )

But yeah I didn't want to say that Sam..uh... gosh darn it "vibe "came off as a little dark as in purposely ignoring Dean's physical/emotional/ spiritual health- in order for him to have his cake too.

So this a great sad, dark, beautiful haunting angst-like it really guts you and you cant help but cry for Dean. I don't ever like ever read bottom Dean fics when its wincest, but this was too beautiful to pass up.

Thank you so much for answering my question!
Liz

[runedgirl]

And now I'm taking some time to read some of your beautiful fic. Wow, this one....it was so full of emotion, and so hot, and yet I felt such overwhelming dread. Dean is so not okay, and I'm terrified for him - and for Sam too. I feel like you should write a sequel so I won't have to be so worried, just sayin... :)

[amypond45]

Thank you for reading this and commenting so beautifully! I wrote this so fast it’s hard to remember exactly what I was thinking, but I know the idea was about how things might be really different if Sam went home that night in Palo Alto and Jessica DIDN’T die horribly. Maybe Sam’s life would go on? Without Dean? And that made me really sad, so I wrote this because it seemed like Sam would figure out how much he needed Dean, and Dean (being Dean) would insist that Sam live a normal life and he couldn’t very well do that if he was in love with his brother, could he? So more sacrificing Dean being a martyr for his little brother. It just never stops, does it?

Thanks again for taking time to read and comment!

[marciaelena]

This was so sad. I felt like Sam was being selfish in a way, unfair to Jessica and Dean both, even if Dean was the one to tell him to keep his apple pie life. And Dean is obviously wasting away being all alone now that John is dead, and especially not having Sam as a constant, loving, supportive presence in his life. My heart just wants to fix them. But I loved this, because how can you not love Sam&Dean?

[amypond45]

I was feeling really sad when I wrote this, so that probably came through a little too much. Sam doesn’t mean to hurt either Jessica or Dean, but that’s the nature of infidelity, even at its best. In a way, Sam never grows up in this story, never faces his responsibility to his brother. Maybe, if the Azazel story-line never happened, it would’ve been worse for Sam&Dean (I love how you write them as one word - so right!)

Anyway, thanks for reading and leaving such a wonderful comment!