Take the Long Way Home - Chapter 7

[amypond45]

Three days before the end we return to the bunker. Cas pops in to check on us, leaves again. He's trying to find signs of angel activity, looking for God again. All the angels went home but he's stuck here, and it's lonely for him. I assure him he's welcome to hang out with us as much as he likes, and that seems to please him

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[marciaelena]

I'm in tears. The tragedy and the beauty of this is so gut-wrenching and soul-lifting no words could ever come close to expressing what I'm feeling right now. It's just like what Sam&Dean feel for each other, so much love, all that never-named emotion because it's something just theirs, this entire universe of horror and pain and loss and they're at the center of it, darkness all around them but they're light, blinding pure light that shines brighter and brighter the more their love deepens. It's their souls forever bound together, it's who they are, the most profound truth in the multiverse. And yeah, I'm babbling like a crazy person, I know. I'm just so overwhelmed with feeling right now.

This was devastating and intimate and so, so gorgeous. And somehow, impossibly and yet inevitably too, it made me love them even more. Sam having to kill Dean over and over for ten years just to keep him when Dean couldn't even remember them, that's just- yeah, no words.

[amypond45]

I have the same problem finding words to express the love between these two. It’s like something beyond them, yet because of them. They create it and bring it into our world like a living thing that wouldn’t exist any other way, but it makes our world a better place just because it exists. Even if it’s only fiction (ha - ONLY fiction! Like something this powerful could be limited or diminished just because it isn’t part of the “real” world!)

I tend to agree with a comment you made earlier about J2, whose love feels to me just a little less profound precisely because it isn’t mythological like Sam&Dean’s.

But now I’m reeling off into the crazy!

[marciaelena]

I don't think you're crazy at all! Or if you are then I'm right there with you, and I totally get what you mean and how you feel.

What's "real"? Reality is so subjective, we all see the world in different ways, we each live inside our own bubbles. And I do believe in the multiverse, parallel realities/dimensions or whatever name one might give those other times and places. The love that Sam&Dean share exists because we feel it, so who's to say that they don't exist somewhere too? In an infinite multiverse there are infinite possibilities.