MASTERPOST - If I Leave Here (Sam/Dean, R)

[amypond45]

Title: If I Leave Here
Author: amypond45
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 5,100
Characters: Sam, Dean
Summary: Dean's been hit in the head on a hunt (again) and finds he's suffering from memory loss that's a little, uh, selective.
Warning: Wincest, sibling incest
A/N: Written for smpc

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Comments

[fireheart13]

I really enjoyed this. I enjoyed watching Dean try to figure it all out - how it started, what they did. Sam trying not to be upset. I loved how dean realized what it really meant between them after all. Nice humorous touches too! And I'm actually glad he didn't just magically get his memories back, but that they knew they were just going to have to figure it out as they go along, As they do. Lovely read.

[amypond45]

Thank you! I worked so hard to keep Dean from seeming like a total push-over! I was trying to convey his maturity, that now he's 36 (or at least, that's what I was imagining) and looking back on all that past history, with a few significant memory gaps, just assuming his past self had figured out how to make sense of this thing between them. But of course Dean never trusts himself, so I needed to convey that uncertainty too...

Anyway, thank you for this!

[peepingdru]

wonderful..<3

[amypond45]

Thank you so much! :)

[tipsy_kitty]

This was lovely! So sad that Dean can't remember, but imagines so clearly how things must have been.

[amypond45]

Thank you so much! I like to think Sam started filling him in on what he missed, bit by bit, over time :)

[kelios]

This is so bittersweet. I love how easily Dean falls back into this, how much he finds he wants it even without the memories. I hope Sam is able to find the joy in creating new memories with Dean eventually.

[amypond45]

Memory loss is a fascinating trope; I seem to need to revisit the idea over and over! And yes, I totally believe Sam finds his way with this "new" Dean. Thank you so much for your comment!

[wings128]

What a wonderful read, beautifully written, and HOT! :D

[amypond45]

Thank you so much!