[Stargate: Drabble] "Over and Over" [John/Rodney, G]
Title: Over and Over
Author: Ami Ven
Prompt: writerverse phase 23, challenge 01, prompt 12 “A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person.” (Mignon McLaughlin)
Word Count: 554
Fandom: Stargate Atlantis
Pairing(s): John Sheppard/Rodney McKay
Setting: part of my How About Forever verse
Summary: “That’s how all of this started. You kissed me.”
Over and Over
“You kissed me,” said Rodney.
John smiled at him, only a few inches away. “Good to know your observational skills are still up to par.”
“No, I mean, that’s how all of this started. You kissed me.”
“Oh,” said John. “Yeah, I did.”
“Why?”
“Because…” John said. “Because we’d just come back from that mission to P1X-9134, and nobody was hurt. Because we were all happy. Because you were ranting about whatever experiment you’d been working on. Because you looked like you should be kissed and I really wanted to be the person to do it.”
“Sheppard,” said Rodney. “Why didn’t you say anything?”
“Because…” said John again. “Because I knew you wanted kids and I knew I did, too. And I knew - I thought I knew - we couldn’t do that together, but I wanted…”
“What?” Rodney asked, gently.
“You,” said John, more a breath than a word. “I thought if I didn’t say anything, if we never ever talked about it, then when you finally found some hot blonde to have your genius babies, it would be easier to let you go.”
“John…”
“But you were already my best friend and I just kept falling in love with you, over and over, knowing I couldn’t give you what you wanted from a partner. Until… until I could.”
“The Ancient genderswap machine,” said Rodney, then scowled. “You told me you were thinking about Teyla! About her being pregnant and you having babies and-”
“I did!” John caught Rodney’s flailing hands in both of his own, holding them over his heart. “I didn’t know what the machine would do until after it did it, remember? I had been thinking about Teyla being pregnant, about me having babies - I mean, not having babies, not like that - but I didn’t even think about… not until Carson told me it was all working.”
“Is that…?” Rodney began. “Is that why you were freaking out? Not because you were suddenly a woman, but because…?”
“I didn’t know how to ask you,” John admitted. “I thought maybe it was just a casual thing for you, us…”
“Having sex?”
“Yes, that. But you… you got me to tell you anyway.” He managed a smile. “You always get me to talk, somehow.”
But Rodney was still frowning. “John, it’s been twenty years. Why didn’t you tell me then? Or after? Or ever!?”
“Because it didn’t matter,” said John. “Because it all worked out.”
“Yes, but…” Rodney gently pulled his hands free, to cup them around John’s face, thumbs stroking lightly at his jaw. “Listen to me,” he said, his voice low and serious. “You were enough, John. I love Zoe and Isaac, more than I ever knew I could, but if we’d never had them, if we’d never found that machine, you would have been enough. You would have been more than enough.”
John seemed to have run out of words - he pulled Rodney in for a long, deep kiss.
“So,” said Rodney, when they broke for air, settling his hands more comfortably on John’s hips. “Over and over, huh? When was the last time you fell in love with me?”
John smiled again, deepening the crows’ feet at the corners of his eyes. “This morning, at breakfast. You have a way with oatmeal, McKay.”
Rodney laughed, and kissed him again.
THE END
Current Mood:
awesome
Author: Ami Ven
Prompt: writerverse phase 23, challenge 01, prompt 12 “A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person.” (Mignon McLaughlin)
Word Count: 554
Fandom: Stargate Atlantis
Pairing(s): John Sheppard/Rodney McKay
Setting: part of my How About Forever verse
Summary: “That’s how all of this started. You kissed me.”
Over and Over
“You kissed me,” said Rodney.
John smiled at him, only a few inches away. “Good to know your observational skills are still up to par.”
“No, I mean, that’s how all of this started. You kissed me.”
“Oh,” said John. “Yeah, I did.”
“Why?”
“Because…” John said. “Because we’d just come back from that mission to P1X-9134, and nobody was hurt. Because we were all happy. Because you were ranting about whatever experiment you’d been working on. Because you looked like you should be kissed and I really wanted to be the person to do it.”
“Sheppard,” said Rodney. “Why didn’t you say anything?”
“Because…” said John again. “Because I knew you wanted kids and I knew I did, too. And I knew - I thought I knew - we couldn’t do that together, but I wanted…”
“What?” Rodney asked, gently.
“You,” said John, more a breath than a word. “I thought if I didn’t say anything, if we never ever talked about it, then when you finally found some hot blonde to have your genius babies, it would be easier to let you go.”
“John…”
“But you were already my best friend and I just kept falling in love with you, over and over, knowing I couldn’t give you what you wanted from a partner. Until… until I could.”
“The Ancient genderswap machine,” said Rodney, then scowled. “You told me you were thinking about Teyla! About her being pregnant and you having babies and-”
“I did!” John caught Rodney’s flailing hands in both of his own, holding them over his heart. “I didn’t know what the machine would do until after it did it, remember? I had been thinking about Teyla being pregnant, about me having babies - I mean, not having babies, not like that - but I didn’t even think about… not until Carson told me it was all working.”
“Is that…?” Rodney began. “Is that why you were freaking out? Not because you were suddenly a woman, but because…?”
“I didn’t know how to ask you,” John admitted. “I thought maybe it was just a casual thing for you, us…”
“Having sex?”
“Yes, that. But you… you got me to tell you anyway.” He managed a smile. “You always get me to talk, somehow.”
But Rodney was still frowning. “John, it’s been twenty years. Why didn’t you tell me then? Or after? Or ever!?”
“Because it didn’t matter,” said John. “Because it all worked out.”
“Yes, but…” Rodney gently pulled his hands free, to cup them around John’s face, thumbs stroking lightly at his jaw. “Listen to me,” he said, his voice low and serious. “You were enough, John. I love Zoe and Isaac, more than I ever knew I could, but if we’d never had them, if we’d never found that machine, you would have been enough. You would have been more than enough.”
John seemed to have run out of words - he pulled Rodney in for a long, deep kiss.
“So,” said Rodney, when they broke for air, settling his hands more comfortably on John’s hips. “Over and over, huh? When was the last time you fell in love with me?”
John smiled again, deepening the crows’ feet at the corners of his eyes. “This morning, at breakfast. You have a way with oatmeal, McKay.”
Rodney laughed, and kissed him again.
THE END
Current Mood:
awesome