I hate credit. There is nothing more filled with morose banality in the world. To think that, to better our situation and in fact our entitlement to a better life we must first pass the dreaded "credit score." And really, even if you can pass that, you still need some sort of mafiaistic wiseguy (the cosigner) of credit to vouich for you as a made ( Read more... )

I dug last night ( Read more... )

... I was a little skeptical when they said Heath Ledger would be playing the joker. The Joker has to be my favorite supervillian, and he's had some pretty powerful names to back him up in the past. Jack Nickleson and Mark Hammel have both done phenominal jobs at it, even to the point where I think no one could ever portray the role, or voice ( Read more... )

I'm nto sure what it is, but I'm feeling a bit like a rock today. Just don;t really want to do anything, and don't really want to interact with anyone either.

Maybe I'll erode out of it. Until them, perhaps some writing will do the trick.

-tony

3) It's not you it's me

2) I'm sleeping with your best friend

1) I need some time alone to figure out who I am.

Just received #1. Seemed alright to me at the time, but it keeps wearing on me by the moment. Maybe it's just the stage of grief I'm in.

-tony

This is the part I hate. The self-doubt. The feeling that I will be overwealmed, that I will nto succeed and that I have made th wrong decision ( Read more... )

A few days ago I found out my musical mentor and former bandmate Clint had an aneurism and passed away. I’ve been wrestling with his death for a few nights now. Particularly the disappointment of not being able to attend his funeral. You never know how important they are until you can’t go to one. There is an element of resolution in a service that ( Read more... )

... messing up more. Well atleast that is how I feel. This semester has been pretty rough, and in my final for my directing class I was pretty critical of myself. This is sort of something that I usually experience, but normally I do not have to stand up in front of the class after it's shown to elaborate ( Read more... )

It takes patience to remind yourself that you are not made of elastic, and that in fact you often tear when you are streched beyond a threshhold.

I've lost something. Something not terribly tragic. Not my soul, or my heart, or my integrity or anything, but something non the less. It's my software. Man that sounds really dorky, and why is this important you might ask? Well here it is ( Read more... )