Fic: One Armed Bandit Strikes Again (18/20)
After seeing Katy to the door and giving her a chaste kiss on the cheek, Kris went back to the mansion to wait for Adam’s call. Adam called him around midnight, “Sorry, I am calling so late but lawyers are always slow. They said you need to make sure you don’t admit to knowing your ex had these pictures and was planning to blackmail you. Since she has never called you, she can’t prove you knew. Make sure your brother and your friends keep their mouth shut about telling you. There is a clause in your contract that you are required to disclose any information or events that could make the show look bad. I got away with my pictures because I immediately admitted where they were from.”
Kris became angry and frustrated, “So why did you advise me not to tell them? You told me to keep quiet!”
“I thought I was helping. At the time, you weren’t popular. They would have thrown you off. You were in a catch 22. Look, if they try and prove she asked for money. I’ll tell them I intervened and made sure you never knew about it. They can’t hurt me that bad.”
“Aren’t you still under their management?”
“Worse comes to worse I’ll get a slap on wrist. I am more worried you aren’t going to be able to pull this off. You have to pretend to be shocked when they come out. Can you do that?”
“I don’t want them to come out.”
“I know but trust me, you have nothing to be embarrassed about. They were gorgeous. I am just worried you are going to get to many admirers and never give me a second chance.”
Kris laughed, “Second chance? I think you are on number 25.”
“Does that mean you want to try again?”
Kris felt sad at the hopefulness in Adam’s tone, “Adam, I love you but I can’t do this right now. I need some space emotionally and I don’t trust myself with you physically.”
“OK…do you like her better than me?”
“Who Katy?”
“Yeah?”
“Yes. She is a lot more likeable person.” Kris heard Adam’s breath hitch, “However, I don’t think I love her more and she doesn’t drive me as crazy as you do.”
“So does that mean I am hotter?”
“Apples and oranges. Look unlike you, I can live without sex. I think I just want to be celibate for a while. I really need to just focus on American Idol.
Adam was quiet for a few seconds, “OK, part of me is glad you are going to focus your energy on your career. Other parts of me…will miss you. I am going to go to London to work on my next album. If you need anything, lawyers, tweets, a friend…just call me. No strings attached. Don’t worry about the pictures. Trust me they are much less humiliating then some of my drag photos.”
Kris smiled, “Thanks. Take care, Adam Lambert.”
“You too, cute guy.”
Kris hung up feeling a little sad and wondering how soon Adam would go to Europe. He was also apprehensive as he waited for the shit to hit the fan. The next day the photos hit the street an hour before results night began filming. Kris was called into Simon Fuller’s office and tried to give the performance of a lifetime. He tried to act shocked at the photos and was actually surprised they had turned out so well. He still wasn’t happy about it but it could have been a lot worse.
Simon Fuller looked him up and down, “You are not as good an actor as your boyfriend. However, you are getting very popular and are great for ratings. For that reason I am going to pretend I buy your bullshit that ‘you didn’t know’. I am only going to ask this once, is there anything else out there?”
Kris thought hard, “Not that I know. There could be cell phone photos of me an Adam together since we used to spend a lot of time in public places when I was on his tour.”
“Photos of you having sex?”
“No, of course not.”
“OK, I want you to stay out of the media. You are going to be sick this week during the press conference because frankly you seem to always screw up in interviews.”
“Relax, I may not make it through tonight.”
“Obviously, we wouldn’t be having this conversation if you were leaving. Now, get out of my office.”
Kris walked out and felt a lightness in his step. He wasn’t sure what would happened with the photos but so far it wasn’t too bad…Of course he didn’t count on his fellow contestants reactions. Kris noticed them all looking at him funny which made Kris feel naked. It was humiliating to think they probably had all seen him in all his glory. Danny spoke up, “What happened were you worried the competition was starting to be about talent? I hope parents and good Christian folk complain enough that you get disqualified. You are bringing us all down with your sexual antics.”
Allison came over, “Well, I thought they were hot. I had no idea you had such-”
Kris was blushing, “Allison! I don’t want to know you looked at them. Please, don’t say anymore.”
Allison laughed, “You better get used to hit because you have been trending on twitter all afternoon and those photos have gotten like ten million hits.”
The show began. Kris looked in the audience and saw Katy, Isaac, Monte and Adam! Why was Adam here and why was he sitting next to Katy! They looked like they were chatting like old friends. However Kris became alarmed when he noticed Katy looking at Adam strangely. Kris barely listened to Ryan since he already knew he was safe. Instead, he kept watching Adam and Katy. Allison punched him and Kris noticed Ryan looking at him. He quickly stood up, “Er…sorry I was distracted?”
“By the brunette or the blonde?”
Kris was about to freak out when Ryan just continued, “After the nationwide vote…you are safe. And hey, you got those votes before your pictures came out.”
Kris totally blushed as the audience went wild. Ryan laughed and Kris held back his urge to punch him. Kris looked out in the audience and saw Katy sitting with some other people. Kris wondered why Adam and his band mates left. Katy was smiling at him and clapping. Kris sat down.
Ryan then announced that America’s most popular idol was going to perform. Adam came on stage with Monte and Isaac to play an acoustic song. Adam went up to the microphone, “I know I have a few hits out there but I’d like to do an older song. This is dedicated to someone very special to me that seems to be constantly dealing with obstacles that a lesser man would find crushing.” Adam looked straight at Kris as he spoke and then winked at him before launching into his opening lyrics…
Have you lost your way?
Livin' in the shadow of the message that you made
And so it goes
Everything inside your circle starts to overflow
Take a step before you leap
Into the colours that you seek
You give back what you give away
So don't look back on yesterday
Wanna scream out
No more hiding
Don't be afraid of what's inside
Gonna tell ya you'll be alright
In the Aftermath
Anytime anybody pulls you down
Anytime anybody says you're not allowed
Just remember you are not alone
In the Aftermath
You feel the weight
Of lies and contradictions that you live with every day
It's not too late
Think of what could be if you rewrite the role you play
Take a step before you leap
Into the colours that you seek
You give back what you give away
So don't look back on yesterday…
Kris felt always forgot just how damn talented Adam really was. Nobody, including himself could match Adam’s range or vocal technique. This performance was proved why he won a few years back. It really was not fair how sexy and truly talented he was despite the divaness. Kris could tell even Danny was blown away. After the performance Adam came over to greet the other contestants. He was shaking their hands. Allison hugged him. Kris put out his hand, “Nice to meet you, Adam.”
Adam shook his hand, “Likewise,” but instead of letting go he pulled Kris in and kissed him on deeply on the lips. Kris heard the audience howl and the contestants gasp. Kris had no idea if they were on air or not. Kris was mortified and furious that Adam would do that to him. He pulled back and snarled, “Why did you do that?”
Adam shrugged and whispered, “Don’t make a scene we may be on the air.”
Make a scene! A little late. Kris was seething but before he could react, Ryan interrupted, “I guess it’s the brunette.”
Adam smiled innocently which pissed Kris off more, “Actually, Ryan, I am taking a break from dating completely. Adam is just being his usual overly friendly self.”
Adam’s smile remained intact although his eyes told a different story, “What can I say, Ryan? Kris Allen is hot and last I checked there were at least ten million people that know what I am talking about.”
Ryan laughed, “I think its 15 million now. Anyway, Ladies and Gentlemen, Adam Lambert. We will be back after the break to find out who leaves us tonight…”
Kris heard the director say cut. He turned and pushed Adam, “What the fuck was that? Not only did you molest me on TV but you brought up the pictures! What is wrong with you?”
Adam looked down, “I’m sorry. You are right that was a bit out of line.”
Kris was shocked Adam was apologizing, “A bit? You made me look cheap and you made Katy uncomfortable.”
Kris saw that he had chosen the wrong words. Adam looked over by Katy, “Made her uncomfortable? Why would she care if you were just friends? I knew it! You are totally fucking her! You were the one that wanted to be monogamous and…and then you get a girlfriend?”
Kris was torn between being humiliated by Adam making a scene and being pissed off by Adam’s words, “You are right. I don’t do that casual stuff. I like to be with one person and only one person. Unfortunately, you wouldn’t forgo fucking everything that moved so I have moved on. For the record, Katy and I are just friends but if I was a betting man I’d put my chips behind her because you WILL NEVER GROW UP AND STOP BEING A DIVA!”
Adam glared at Kris and then just walked off the set furious. Kris looked around and saw a sea of shocked faces on the audience, the contestants, the judges and crew. Kris shrugged, “Er…sorry about that. I guess Adam and I had a little unfinished business. I’ll just sit back down on the couch.”
Kris sat down feeling mortified and extremely humiliated. So along with the world seeing him completely naked, now they were privy to the failures in his personal life. Kris would have loved to climb in a hole. The director recovered first and signaled that they were back on the air. The show finished and Megan was sent home. They finished filming and Kris went over by Katy, “I am so sorry about tonight.”
“No, I am sorry. When Adam was sitting next to me he started out really sweet and then started to act like a jealous boyfriend. He was basically trying to intimidate me and I may have retaliated by hinting we still had feelings for each other. I didn’t think he would publicly humiliate you like that.”
“Adam is like a spoiled two year old and throws tantrums. I would never expect someone to anticipate that kind of behavior in an adult. I am just sorry he insulted you and made you uncomfortable. I would hate to lose you again.”
Katy smiled, “It would take more than that to scare me away. Besides, I think you can use a friend now.” Katy squeezed his hand and Kris smiled.
Kris was grateful to have someone so understanding in his life and hugged her for a long time before departing back to the mansion. He could not hang out with her after the show because the next day they had to fly to Las Vegas for Elvis week. Kris was glad he was on a plane and unable to view the internet.
Danny came over and Kris stiffened, “Hey man, I don’t really approve of your choices and I thought you were taking advantage of situations but it really sucks to be you. I am not sure I’d be able to deal with all the crap that you have going on but for what it’s worth, I think you are moving in the right direction. Katy seems like a wonderful woman. Maybe your mother was right and you were possessed.”
Kris just looked at Danny, “Er…thanks. I think I just need a nap.” The last thing Kris needed was to listen to advice from a self-righteous, holy roller. Kris just slept the rest of the flight. They had a meet and greet and Kris was shocked by all the fans. Many of which were older women screaming I love you and some things that made Kris blush. Kris also had some hot women telling him dumping Adam was the best thing he ever did and they were willing to recruit him back to their team.
Kris was taken a little aback when a few fans presented his nude photo to be signed. Kris blushed at first but then figured what was the point. He signed anything and everything and could not believe how many more fans he seemed to have the other contestants. Kris also noticed the show bigwigs were taking note. Perhaps the old cliché, any publicity is good publicity was true.
Adam called him that evening and Kris reluctantly answered and listened as Adam insincerely apologized, “I am sorry I freaked out yesterday. I guess I just got really jealous. You know how that goes.”
“Fuck you, Adam. I don’t remember ever embarrassing you on national TV because I decided to be jealous. Plus, you are the one that is always wanting our relationship to be causal and include other people.”
“Casual, exactly. She is not casual. She is more like a baby maker and white picket fence trick. You can’t compare me getting a blow job from some twink to you carrying on a relationship with an ex-girlfriend. Sorry, I am not buying it.”
“Good because I am not selling anything. Adam, we are done! I don’t want to…whatever it was we were doing anymore. Go enjoy your one nightstands and nonstop blowjobfests and leave me alone!”
Kris hung up furious. After a few minutes he simmered down and called Adam back, “Adam, I just can’t do this anymore. We are starting to hurt each other.”
“I know. Look, I get it. You don’t need to put up with my bullshit anymore so you aren’t going to. What if I said I would change? What if I said I’d give up other men?”
“Would you mean it?”
“Maybe but I would probably cheat. I guess we are at impasse. Look, I am happy for you that you are getting your dreams. You are more talented than I thought you were. I mean I knew you could sing but I never thought of you as a real artist. I still think you aren’t gonna like being famous or enjoy the attention. I hope someday you forgive me and we can be friends. If you need something, you can still call me. Good luck and by the way, I think I was wrong and you are going to be as big a star as me. Enjoy it. You deserve all the fortune and fame coming your way.”
What about love? It hurt say goodbye to Adam but he needed some sanity back in his life. Kris also owed Adam a lot, “Since I am going to be a big star, you have to tell me how much I owe you. I know it is probably a lot of money.”
“You don’t owe me anything, Kris. I did those things because I love you. Just because you moved on, it doesn’t mean that changes. Pay me back by kicking Gokey’s ass in the competition. That is worth millions.”
Kris laughed, “I’ll do my best. Well, good luck recording your next album…I really-”
Adam laughed, “No lame goodbyes. Later, cute guy.” Adam hung up and Kris felt really sad. It was going to be hard not being able to call Adam. Granted having moved in the mansion and Adam in Canada he had gotten a chance to gain some autonomy. But this seemed so final.
Elvis week went really well. Kris chose to sing suspicious minds. The week flew by between the trip to Las Vegas and the usual American Idol business. Kris’ pictures had made him extremely popular with the women. His older fans seemed to think it was even sexier that he had been with Adam Lambert. Most of his fans seemed to think he was straight but extremely open to new experiences. Also, there had been some reporters in the audience that made it very clear that Kris dumped a very jealous Adam.
A few days later, Adam gave an interview to a London based show and said he thought Kris was a really good musician and deserved to win American Idol. The host asked him about his romance and whether or not he thinks Kris used him. Adam paused, “I think we both benefitted from our relationship and I’d like to think we are still friends. Being on a show like American Idol changes you and some people have a hard time balancing the craziness and personal relationships. So, I think Kris is smart to just focus on his career now since I can be very distracting.” Adam smiled at the cute host. Prick!
Kris was pretty sure after the interview, Adam was probably getting laid. Focus! Once the story broke that Kris was definitely not with Adam Lambert his parents called. His mother was crying and thanking God he wasn’t possessed anymore. His father told him he was proud of Kris for turning down the devil’s temptation and moving towards the light. His parents also forgave him for embarrassing the whole family since it was not completely his fault the devil possessed him. Kris now knew his parents were insane and only capable of conditional love. Kris was pissed that they did not accept him for who he was and had abandoned him but then thought about week three. He could not afford to have a crazy home parade. He decided to just let sleeping dogs lie and disown them later.
Kris sailed through the next couple weeks. Now with Adam out of town and Brad still busy with his boyfriend, Kris spent all his non-idol time with Katy. The show agreed to fly his family out for the top five and top four shows. Kris looked out in the audience when he made it into the top three and saw his parents hugging Katy and cheering him on. Although, it seemed picture perfect with the loving family and cute little women, Kris could not help remembering the first few results nights when he had looked out and saw Adam and his crazy friends or the celebrities Adam coaxed to go on.
Yeah, Kris’ life seemed to be going smoothly and perfectly. Without Adam, his stress level had decreased and the drama had come to a screeching halt. However, he felt like something was missing and would find himself reminiscing with Allison about life on the road with Glambert. At night just before falling asleep, Kris would feel a few moments of loneliness and sadness that Adam wasn’t beside him in the bed.
Of course, all he needed to do to feel better was to read the tabloids and see pictures of Adam partying in London surrounded by twinks. Kris was sure Adam was far too busy fucking to feel lonely. Kris needed to move on. It would be so easy to rekindle his relationship with Katy. She was his best friends and beautiful. His family loved her, the publicists thought she was great and she was a good person. Kris could tell Katy was still attracted to him and wondered how she would react if he decided to take the next step. Kris decided he would cross that bridge after the season finale.
Kris became angry and frustrated, “So why did you advise me not to tell them? You told me to keep quiet!”
“I thought I was helping. At the time, you weren’t popular. They would have thrown you off. You were in a catch 22. Look, if they try and prove she asked for money. I’ll tell them I intervened and made sure you never knew about it. They can’t hurt me that bad.”
“Aren’t you still under their management?”
“Worse comes to worse I’ll get a slap on wrist. I am more worried you aren’t going to be able to pull this off. You have to pretend to be shocked when they come out. Can you do that?”
“I don’t want them to come out.”
“I know but trust me, you have nothing to be embarrassed about. They were gorgeous. I am just worried you are going to get to many admirers and never give me a second chance.”
Kris laughed, “Second chance? I think you are on number 25.”
“Does that mean you want to try again?”
Kris felt sad at the hopefulness in Adam’s tone, “Adam, I love you but I can’t do this right now. I need some space emotionally and I don’t trust myself with you physically.”
“OK…do you like her better than me?”
“Who Katy?”
“Yeah?”
“Yes. She is a lot more likeable person.” Kris heard Adam’s breath hitch, “However, I don’t think I love her more and she doesn’t drive me as crazy as you do.”
“So does that mean I am hotter?”
“Apples and oranges. Look unlike you, I can live without sex. I think I just want to be celibate for a while. I really need to just focus on American Idol.
Adam was quiet for a few seconds, “OK, part of me is glad you are going to focus your energy on your career. Other parts of me…will miss you. I am going to go to London to work on my next album. If you need anything, lawyers, tweets, a friend…just call me. No strings attached. Don’t worry about the pictures. Trust me they are much less humiliating then some of my drag photos.”
Kris smiled, “Thanks. Take care, Adam Lambert.”
“You too, cute guy.”
Kris hung up feeling a little sad and wondering how soon Adam would go to Europe. He was also apprehensive as he waited for the shit to hit the fan. The next day the photos hit the street an hour before results night began filming. Kris was called into Simon Fuller’s office and tried to give the performance of a lifetime. He tried to act shocked at the photos and was actually surprised they had turned out so well. He still wasn’t happy about it but it could have been a lot worse.
Simon Fuller looked him up and down, “You are not as good an actor as your boyfriend. However, you are getting very popular and are great for ratings. For that reason I am going to pretend I buy your bullshit that ‘you didn’t know’. I am only going to ask this once, is there anything else out there?”
Kris thought hard, “Not that I know. There could be cell phone photos of me an Adam together since we used to spend a lot of time in public places when I was on his tour.”
“Photos of you having sex?”
“No, of course not.”
“OK, I want you to stay out of the media. You are going to be sick this week during the press conference because frankly you seem to always screw up in interviews.”
“Relax, I may not make it through tonight.”
“Obviously, we wouldn’t be having this conversation if you were leaving. Now, get out of my office.”
Kris walked out and felt a lightness in his step. He wasn’t sure what would happened with the photos but so far it wasn’t too bad…Of course he didn’t count on his fellow contestants reactions. Kris noticed them all looking at him funny which made Kris feel naked. It was humiliating to think they probably had all seen him in all his glory. Danny spoke up, “What happened were you worried the competition was starting to be about talent? I hope parents and good Christian folk complain enough that you get disqualified. You are bringing us all down with your sexual antics.”
Allison came over, “Well, I thought they were hot. I had no idea you had such-”
Kris was blushing, “Allison! I don’t want to know you looked at them. Please, don’t say anymore.”
Allison laughed, “You better get used to hit because you have been trending on twitter all afternoon and those photos have gotten like ten million hits.”
The show began. Kris looked in the audience and saw Katy, Isaac, Monte and Adam! Why was Adam here and why was he sitting next to Katy! They looked like they were chatting like old friends. However Kris became alarmed when he noticed Katy looking at Adam strangely. Kris barely listened to Ryan since he already knew he was safe. Instead, he kept watching Adam and Katy. Allison punched him and Kris noticed Ryan looking at him. He quickly stood up, “Er…sorry I was distracted?”
“By the brunette or the blonde?”
Kris was about to freak out when Ryan just continued, “After the nationwide vote…you are safe. And hey, you got those votes before your pictures came out.”
Kris totally blushed as the audience went wild. Ryan laughed and Kris held back his urge to punch him. Kris looked out in the audience and saw Katy sitting with some other people. Kris wondered why Adam and his band mates left. Katy was smiling at him and clapping. Kris sat down.
Ryan then announced that America’s most popular idol was going to perform. Adam came on stage with Monte and Isaac to play an acoustic song. Adam went up to the microphone, “I know I have a few hits out there but I’d like to do an older song. This is dedicated to someone very special to me that seems to be constantly dealing with obstacles that a lesser man would find crushing.” Adam looked straight at Kris as he spoke and then winked at him before launching into his opening lyrics…
Have you lost your way?
Livin' in the shadow of the message that you made
And so it goes
Everything inside your circle starts to overflow
Take a step before you leap
Into the colours that you seek
You give back what you give away
So don't look back on yesterday
Wanna scream out
No more hiding
Don't be afraid of what's inside
Gonna tell ya you'll be alright
In the Aftermath
Anytime anybody pulls you down
Anytime anybody says you're not allowed
Just remember you are not alone
In the Aftermath
You feel the weight
Of lies and contradictions that you live with every day
It's not too late
Think of what could be if you rewrite the role you play
Take a step before you leap
Into the colours that you seek
You give back what you give away
So don't look back on yesterday…
Kris felt always forgot just how damn talented Adam really was. Nobody, including himself could match Adam’s range or vocal technique. This performance was proved why he won a few years back. It really was not fair how sexy and truly talented he was despite the divaness. Kris could tell even Danny was blown away. After the performance Adam came over to greet the other contestants. He was shaking their hands. Allison hugged him. Kris put out his hand, “Nice to meet you, Adam.”
Adam shook his hand, “Likewise,” but instead of letting go he pulled Kris in and kissed him on deeply on the lips. Kris heard the audience howl and the contestants gasp. Kris had no idea if they were on air or not. Kris was mortified and furious that Adam would do that to him. He pulled back and snarled, “Why did you do that?”
Adam shrugged and whispered, “Don’t make a scene we may be on the air.”
Make a scene! A little late. Kris was seething but before he could react, Ryan interrupted, “I guess it’s the brunette.”
Adam smiled innocently which pissed Kris off more, “Actually, Ryan, I am taking a break from dating completely. Adam is just being his usual overly friendly self.”
Adam’s smile remained intact although his eyes told a different story, “What can I say, Ryan? Kris Allen is hot and last I checked there were at least ten million people that know what I am talking about.”
Ryan laughed, “I think its 15 million now. Anyway, Ladies and Gentlemen, Adam Lambert. We will be back after the break to find out who leaves us tonight…”
Kris heard the director say cut. He turned and pushed Adam, “What the fuck was that? Not only did you molest me on TV but you brought up the pictures! What is wrong with you?”
Adam looked down, “I’m sorry. You are right that was a bit out of line.”
Kris was shocked Adam was apologizing, “A bit? You made me look cheap and you made Katy uncomfortable.”
Kris saw that he had chosen the wrong words. Adam looked over by Katy, “Made her uncomfortable? Why would she care if you were just friends? I knew it! You are totally fucking her! You were the one that wanted to be monogamous and…and then you get a girlfriend?”
Kris was torn between being humiliated by Adam making a scene and being pissed off by Adam’s words, “You are right. I don’t do that casual stuff. I like to be with one person and only one person. Unfortunately, you wouldn’t forgo fucking everything that moved so I have moved on. For the record, Katy and I are just friends but if I was a betting man I’d put my chips behind her because you WILL NEVER GROW UP AND STOP BEING A DIVA!”
Adam glared at Kris and then just walked off the set furious. Kris looked around and saw a sea of shocked faces on the audience, the contestants, the judges and crew. Kris shrugged, “Er…sorry about that. I guess Adam and I had a little unfinished business. I’ll just sit back down on the couch.”
Kris sat down feeling mortified and extremely humiliated. So along with the world seeing him completely naked, now they were privy to the failures in his personal life. Kris would have loved to climb in a hole. The director recovered first and signaled that they were back on the air. The show finished and Megan was sent home. They finished filming and Kris went over by Katy, “I am so sorry about tonight.”
“No, I am sorry. When Adam was sitting next to me he started out really sweet and then started to act like a jealous boyfriend. He was basically trying to intimidate me and I may have retaliated by hinting we still had feelings for each other. I didn’t think he would publicly humiliate you like that.”
“Adam is like a spoiled two year old and throws tantrums. I would never expect someone to anticipate that kind of behavior in an adult. I am just sorry he insulted you and made you uncomfortable. I would hate to lose you again.”
Katy smiled, “It would take more than that to scare me away. Besides, I think you can use a friend now.” Katy squeezed his hand and Kris smiled.
Kris was grateful to have someone so understanding in his life and hugged her for a long time before departing back to the mansion. He could not hang out with her after the show because the next day they had to fly to Las Vegas for Elvis week. Kris was glad he was on a plane and unable to view the internet.
Danny came over and Kris stiffened, “Hey man, I don’t really approve of your choices and I thought you were taking advantage of situations but it really sucks to be you. I am not sure I’d be able to deal with all the crap that you have going on but for what it’s worth, I think you are moving in the right direction. Katy seems like a wonderful woman. Maybe your mother was right and you were possessed.”
Kris just looked at Danny, “Er…thanks. I think I just need a nap.” The last thing Kris needed was to listen to advice from a self-righteous, holy roller. Kris just slept the rest of the flight. They had a meet and greet and Kris was shocked by all the fans. Many of which were older women screaming I love you and some things that made Kris blush. Kris also had some hot women telling him dumping Adam was the best thing he ever did and they were willing to recruit him back to their team.
Kris was taken a little aback when a few fans presented his nude photo to be signed. Kris blushed at first but then figured what was the point. He signed anything and everything and could not believe how many more fans he seemed to have the other contestants. Kris also noticed the show bigwigs were taking note. Perhaps the old cliché, any publicity is good publicity was true.
Adam called him that evening and Kris reluctantly answered and listened as Adam insincerely apologized, “I am sorry I freaked out yesterday. I guess I just got really jealous. You know how that goes.”
“Fuck you, Adam. I don’t remember ever embarrassing you on national TV because I decided to be jealous. Plus, you are the one that is always wanting our relationship to be causal and include other people.”
“Casual, exactly. She is not casual. She is more like a baby maker and white picket fence trick. You can’t compare me getting a blow job from some twink to you carrying on a relationship with an ex-girlfriend. Sorry, I am not buying it.”
“Good because I am not selling anything. Adam, we are done! I don’t want to…whatever it was we were doing anymore. Go enjoy your one nightstands and nonstop blowjobfests and leave me alone!”
Kris hung up furious. After a few minutes he simmered down and called Adam back, “Adam, I just can’t do this anymore. We are starting to hurt each other.”
“I know. Look, I get it. You don’t need to put up with my bullshit anymore so you aren’t going to. What if I said I would change? What if I said I’d give up other men?”
“Would you mean it?”
“Maybe but I would probably cheat. I guess we are at impasse. Look, I am happy for you that you are getting your dreams. You are more talented than I thought you were. I mean I knew you could sing but I never thought of you as a real artist. I still think you aren’t gonna like being famous or enjoy the attention. I hope someday you forgive me and we can be friends. If you need something, you can still call me. Good luck and by the way, I think I was wrong and you are going to be as big a star as me. Enjoy it. You deserve all the fortune and fame coming your way.”
What about love? It hurt say goodbye to Adam but he needed some sanity back in his life. Kris also owed Adam a lot, “Since I am going to be a big star, you have to tell me how much I owe you. I know it is probably a lot of money.”
“You don’t owe me anything, Kris. I did those things because I love you. Just because you moved on, it doesn’t mean that changes. Pay me back by kicking Gokey’s ass in the competition. That is worth millions.”
Kris laughed, “I’ll do my best. Well, good luck recording your next album…I really-”
Adam laughed, “No lame goodbyes. Later, cute guy.” Adam hung up and Kris felt really sad. It was going to be hard not being able to call Adam. Granted having moved in the mansion and Adam in Canada he had gotten a chance to gain some autonomy. But this seemed so final.
Elvis week went really well. Kris chose to sing suspicious minds. The week flew by between the trip to Las Vegas and the usual American Idol business. Kris’ pictures had made him extremely popular with the women. His older fans seemed to think it was even sexier that he had been with Adam Lambert. Most of his fans seemed to think he was straight but extremely open to new experiences. Also, there had been some reporters in the audience that made it very clear that Kris dumped a very jealous Adam.
A few days later, Adam gave an interview to a London based show and said he thought Kris was a really good musician and deserved to win American Idol. The host asked him about his romance and whether or not he thinks Kris used him. Adam paused, “I think we both benefitted from our relationship and I’d like to think we are still friends. Being on a show like American Idol changes you and some people have a hard time balancing the craziness and personal relationships. So, I think Kris is smart to just focus on his career now since I can be very distracting.” Adam smiled at the cute host. Prick!
Kris was pretty sure after the interview, Adam was probably getting laid. Focus! Once the story broke that Kris was definitely not with Adam Lambert his parents called. His mother was crying and thanking God he wasn’t possessed anymore. His father told him he was proud of Kris for turning down the devil’s temptation and moving towards the light. His parents also forgave him for embarrassing the whole family since it was not completely his fault the devil possessed him. Kris now knew his parents were insane and only capable of conditional love. Kris was pissed that they did not accept him for who he was and had abandoned him but then thought about week three. He could not afford to have a crazy home parade. He decided to just let sleeping dogs lie and disown them later.
Kris sailed through the next couple weeks. Now with Adam out of town and Brad still busy with his boyfriend, Kris spent all his non-idol time with Katy. The show agreed to fly his family out for the top five and top four shows. Kris looked out in the audience when he made it into the top three and saw his parents hugging Katy and cheering him on. Although, it seemed picture perfect with the loving family and cute little women, Kris could not help remembering the first few results nights when he had looked out and saw Adam and his crazy friends or the celebrities Adam coaxed to go on.
Yeah, Kris’ life seemed to be going smoothly and perfectly. Without Adam, his stress level had decreased and the drama had come to a screeching halt. However, he felt like something was missing and would find himself reminiscing with Allison about life on the road with Glambert. At night just before falling asleep, Kris would feel a few moments of loneliness and sadness that Adam wasn’t beside him in the bed.
Of course, all he needed to do to feel better was to read the tabloids and see pictures of Adam partying in London surrounded by twinks. Kris was sure Adam was far too busy fucking to feel lonely. Kris needed to move on. It would be so easy to rekindle his relationship with Katy. She was his best friends and beautiful. His family loved her, the publicists thought she was great and she was a good person. Kris could tell Katy was still attracted to him and wondered how she would react if he decided to take the next step. Kris decided he would cross that bridge after the season finale.