Fic: The Masseur (26/?)
Title: The Masseur (26/?)
Author: Amberwinters
Pairing: Adam/Kris
Rating: R
Summary: AU fic where Kris Allen is a successful pop-star and Adam is an out of work actor that just got his massage license and a good job.
Wordcount: 3325
Notes: Honestly, a little bit of a sleeper…but I am going somewhere.
Warnings: Not too many, some cursing, some sexy times, some angst, some bad jokes.
Patience. Kris got back to his room and just felt sick with jealousy and heartbreak. Adam apparently doesn’t waste time moving from lover to lover. Kris should have expected it after all Adam is still sleeping with Brad. Maybe that is how men are in homosexual relationships. Kris was not a possessive person but he didn’t do open relationships. He liked dating people exclusively not that he had even dated at all but still. Kris’ alarm went off and he realized he would have to face the day with no sleep. Luckily it was radio interviews in the morning and might get a nap before the show.
Kris said a few stupid things during the radio show since he was half dead. Jason tried to coach him but Kris was getting annoyed. The DJ brought up Adam,
“So how is it touring with the wild Glambert? Do you guys party together?”
“No, he stays far too busy screwing his staff.” Kris heard the silence and then awkward laughs and realized he had spoken out loud. Jason was pale. Kris tried to cover it up, “That was a joke. We get along but don’t hang out much.”
“Any truth to the rumor he hired a former gay porn star as his publicist?”
Kris was still angry at Nick, “I am not sure how ‘big’ a star he was and I don’t watch gay porn so I couldn’t say. Maybe you should ask Adam to come on the show he’s very open I am sure he would talk about it.”
Jason gave the signal to wrap it up. Kris had a feeling he was going to be in for a big lecture. They left the studio and Jason pulled Kris aside.
“What the fuck was that? How could you totally disrespect Adam and Nick like that? Did something happen between you and Adam?”
“Leave it alone. I am tired so maybe I just didn’t express myself that well.”
“Well if your intent was to tell the world Adam is fucking his pornstar publicist, I’d say you were very effective.”
Kris just wanted to sleep. Kris went back to the hotel and slept for five hours. Jade woke him up with a cup of coffee,
“You need to go to the arena in an hour. I should warn you Jason is livid. Apparently your statement in the interview has gone viral. Perez wrote an article saying if you want to work for Glambert you have to be willing to sleep with him. A bunch of other articles say Adam is using is stardom to get laid and sexually harassing his staff.”
Jason came in and showed Kris a you tube of Adam being accosted by Paparazzi earlier in the day. They asked him about the allegations of sexually harassing his staff.
Adam laughed, “My staff? First, I only have like two people working for me. Second, there are no allegations. I think Kris Allen was referring to my personal assistant who is actually my ex-boyfriend. Yeah after a few drinks I’ve been know to backslide and sleep with my ex. Who doesn’t?”
“What about your publicist?”
“I think he has better offers.”
“Was he a pornstar?”
“I think he did some stuff when he was younger but I wouldn’t say he was a ‘porn star’. He is a nice guy and a great publicist. So who cares?”
“Do you think maybe Kris Allen is jealous and wants to sleep with you?”
“I think Kris just wasn’t filtering properly and misspoke. He sometimes gets flustered in interviews. Thanks guys I have to do a sound check.”
The video ended and Jason turned to Kris,
“That is why Adam is going to be a mega star and his publicist can take the afternoon off while I struggle to make you not look like a chump. I am sorry I am being an asshole but you can’t take your personal issues to the media and expect not to get ridiculed. You are making my job hard.”
Kris felt like shit and just went to the arena avoiding all cameras. He did his sound check and tried to keep to himself. He saw Nick and went over to him hoping he didn’t get punched out.
“Sorry, Nick. I didn’t mean to be such a dick on the radio.”
Nick smiled, “I thought it was funny actually but it probably didn’t make Jason too happy.”
“You aren’t mad?”
“No, Kris. For the record, I didn’t do anything with Adam. It was just an innocent massage.”
Kris looked down, “How mad is Adam at me?”
“He’s mad alright but he is more hurt than anything else. You rejected him, assumed the worst and accused him of being a slut to the world. That was pretty mean and not the way to win him over.”
“I know I am totally fucking this up. I am so confused and I have no one to talk to.”
“Talk to Adam. Why don’t you just tell him how you really feel? If you want to just be friends tell him that. If you want to be more, then tell him that too. Why is this so hard?”
“It’s hard because I’m scared of the sex and scared of the stigma of being gay.”
“What?”
“I saw you after you went with the Biker guy and…and you looked uncomfortable.”
“OK, that was something totally different. I don’t get the sense that Adam is a rough lover so I wouldn’t worry about the pain. It shouldn’t hurt that bad if he does it right.”
“Well than what did that guy do to you?”
“Look, I like having rough sex every now and then. I enjoy sex and I tend to try anything and everything so I wouldn’t use my experience as a gauge. For the record, I knew that guy before that night. I wouldn’t have gone home with a complete stranger and engaged in that type of sex with someone I just met.”
“How did you know him?”
Nick shrugged, “I’ve spent some time in San Antonio and it’s a pretty small gay scene. So you get to know people and gay men talk. You hear when people are assholes. Anyway, that is neither here nor there since you are not looking to come out and join a scene.”
“No, I am not but I don’t think I will be able to keep Adam a secret.”
“You won’t. The heat between you two is way too obvious and Adam is like an open book with his body language. No, if you guys hook up everyone on tour will know. What do you care? You can replace your band if they don’t like it.”
“I like my band. My family will be disappointed if I decide to forgo a family to be with a guy. I don’t want everyone looking at me like I am a fag that takes it up the ass. It is humiliating.”
Nick smiled, “Try having it on video. You are young Kris, in a few years you won’t give a shit what people think. I am thirty seven and really could care less what people think or say about me. At the end of the day, I live with my choices and I have to accept the consequences. You need to decide and communicate that decision to Adam. He likes you a lot and you are jerking him around. It’s not fair.”
Kris knew Nick was right. Adam came into the room to do his stage makeup. Kris went over by him hoping to make up.
“I am so sorry about what I said on the radio.”
Adam looked up at him with sad eyes, “Why did you say it?”
“I was jealous. I can’t stand the thought of you touching another man and I was mad about Nick. I didn’t sleep before the interview and fucked up. If it is any consolation, I am in trouble for it.”
Adam laughed, “Well, than I won’t add to your punishment. Kris, you have nothing to be jealous about. After everything I have endured to be with you, do you think I would just move on so quick?”
Kris shrugged, “Brad said-“
“Stop right there. Brad is an actor and he lies. Please tell me you didn’t blow me off because of some bullshit Brad said.” Adam ran a hand through his hair like he was frustrated, “Maybe we should step back and become friends before deciding to get intimate.”
“You would be OK with that?”
“I’d rather go slow and consistent than this vacillating shit we have going on. I can’t take the highs and the lows anymore especially when the highs are so high and the lows so low. I don’t think I have ever wanted someone as much as I want you. More than that, I want you in my life even if it is just as a friend.”
Kris hugged Adam and loved feeling Adam return the affection, “So how will we know when to take it further?”
Adam seemed to think for a minute, “I don’t know, I’ll ask Nick it was his advice to slow down and be friends. I would never think of giving sex up on my own.” Kris and Adam both started laughing. Hopefully, things would start going smoother.
+++
Adam woke up the next morning and followed Nick to the gym. Apparently, he and Jake had started working out together. After a half hour of them kicking his ass with weights, Adam opted for the treadmill and promised himself never to submit to their torture again. Taut abs were not worth that much pain. Adam watched as the guys trained more seriously. He overheard Jake talking about his wife’s obsession with placemats. Nick joked his ex wife used to change their living room motif every thirty days and it drove him nuts. Adam liked how Nick seemed to be able to identify with everyone and seemed so comfortable in his skin. Adam had long learned to be comfortable with himself but he still questioned himself occasionally and often overcompensated. Nick just seemed to be content.
Adam let curiosity get to him, “How long were you married, Nick?”
“Four years. Two of which were pretty good but the last two…We were not compatible and wanted different things.”
“Are you still friends?”
“No, we were never friends. I run into her every now and then and we are civil to one another. It was a volatile relationship and a nasty divorce. She remarried last year and her new husband seems like a good guy.”
“Did you love her?”
“Enough to marry her. Actually, that is how I learned being head over heels for someone does not mean you can live with them. We were like oil and water. When it was good it was off the charts when it was bad it became dangerous. I think if we stayed together one of us would have ended up dead. If I marry again, I am going to pick someone with an even temperament.”
“Would you consider a man?”
“I wouldn’t rule it out but I don’t usually get serious with men. I prefer to date women.”
For some reason Adam was perturbed by Nick’s and questioned icily, “So you date women and fuck men?”
Nick looked at Adam, “Well technically I don’t usually ‘fuck’ men but that is neither here nor there. Why are you getting snippy with me? If you don’t like my answers, ask rhetorical questions.”
Adam laughed, “Sorry, I’m just cranky. I am going to go shower. What do I have next?”
“Sound check at three, a couple interviews at five and then you go on at eight. Be ready to go by two thirty.”
Adam went back to their room and just showered and relaxed. He checked his email and tuned into Kris’ interview. He heard Kris’ voice chatting away about the album. Although Adam was still annoyed, he loved listening to Kris’ voice. Adam heard the interviewer mention his name,
“So how is it touring with the wild Glambert? Do you guys party together?”
“No, he stays far too busy screwing his staff.” Oh no he didn’t. Did he just say that on a nationwide broadcast! What the fuck! After an awkward silence Kris continued unconvincingly, “That was a joke. We get along but don’t hang out.” What a dick.
“Any truth to the rumor he hired a former gay porn star as his publicist?”
Mother-fucker, Adam heard Kris reply smugly, “I am not sure how big a star he was and I don’t watch gay porn so I couldn’t say. Maybe you should ask Adam to come on the show he’s very open I am sure he would talk about it.” Adam could not believe Kris was calling him and Nick out like that. In a way it was kind of funny because it showed Kris was jealous. People only get jealous about people they like.
Nick came back into the room. Adam sat up,
“Kris just told the nation I am fucking my staff, you weren’t that big of a gay porn star and suggested I go on the radio show because I have a big mouth.”
Nick laughed, “Jason must be ripping him a new one. That is really funny. You better prepare a response.”
“I’ll just admit to fucking my ex no big scandal there. Maybe you should show me your porns so I know how to field those questions.”
“You can just say the truth that you never saw them.”
“But I want to see them.”
“Sooner or later they will surface. It is not like I keep copies of my porns on me. That would be weird and ridiculously narcissistic. We are leaving in an hour.”
Adam headed to the arena an hour later and was stopped by Paparazzi. He answered the questions honestly and with panache. He ran through sound check with his band and then dealt with interviewers for a couple hours. A half hour before the show, he went to the makeup area and was approached by a remorseful Kris.
“I am so sorry about what I said on the radio.”
Adam could hear the guilt in his voice but needed to hear him explain, “Why did you say it?”
“I was jealous. I can’t stand the thought of you touching another man and I was mad about Nick. I didn’t sleep before the interview and fucked up. If it is any consolation, I am in trouble for it.”
Adam was happy Kris admitted to being jealous and loved hearing him be possessive. Adam decided to cut him some slack explaining he had no reason to be jealous. He was not surprised to hear Brad had messed with Kris’ head. Adam decided to follow Nick’s advice and suggested they become friends before getting involved sexually. Even though, Adam wanted nothing more than to have sex with Kris all the time. Kris agreed and gave Adam the best hug of his life.
Adam performed his set and was greeted by Jason as he came off.
“Great set, Adam. Listen, I am not sure if you heard but Kris fucked up on an interview today and sort of dragged you through the mud. It is not in your interest to retaliate. I think Kris would be willing to publicly apologize.”
“Relax, Jason. I heard the interview and it’s not like I never fucked my staff before. It’s fine really. I already said I hired an ex as my PA. No one will care. I don’t intend to hurt Kris publicly or privately for that matter.”
“I am glad you are not upset but the label is furious. Rick is flying down for tomorrow’s show and I expect he will meet with us all. For a low key guy, Kris is becoming a bit of a wild card.”
Adam felt a surge of protection for Kris, “I think I just pushed his buttons and stressed him out. I think it was a one time screw up. It will blow over and like they say any publicity is good publicity. I am living proof of that.”
“And a nice guy to boot. Have fun tonight.” Adam shook Jason’s hand and went by his band. Monte and Tommy were joking and asked Adam when they had to fuck him to stay in the band. Adam hated his friends sometimes.
Kris finished his set and they were all taken straight back to the hotel. The next day Adam woke up late and Nick was already gone. There was a note explaining Adam was having lunch with Rick. Adam got done and went to the hotel restaurant. He saw Rick and Nick laughing at a table.
Adam joined them. Rick told Adam his album was about to go double platinum and once he finished these shows they would ramp up his exposure and release the next single. Rick also said he heard rumors Saturday Night Live was going to approach him either be a musical guest or possible a host. Adam was floored and hoped it was the latter.
“How are you doing with the tour? I spoke with Kris Allen earlier and warned him to watch his trash talk. In case you are worried, the label is very unhappy with Kris right now so at the moment you have more leverage and a lot more sales. If we need to step up and reign Kris in, we will.”
“No, Kris has been great. He was just tired and screwed up one interview. We are getting along fine.”
Rick narrowed his gaze, “I am not stupid. You better make sure you keep your lovers spats out of the media. Your boy needs to learn that. Adam you can have any man you want, why are you even wasting your time with Kris Allen. Shit, Nick here is bi and according to the internet he’s a hell of a lay.” Rick turned to Nick , “Oh yeah, your pornos are available online for ten bucks a piece.”
“I know. I signed an agreement for their re-release. I figured I may as well get a small cut if they were going to surface anyway,” Nick smiled.
Adam really admired Nick’s business sense and was looking forward to seeing the porns. Focus, Adam, focus.
“Kris and I have decided to keep our relationship platonic for a while so this kind of thing won’t happen again.”
“Good because Perez is chomping at the bit to out Kris. Now, do you need anything Adam? More staff, more clothes, anything? I am going to be working with Nick to line up some appearances and endorsements. We need to translate your fame into income.”
That sounded good to Adam. Nick laughed, “Did the label just realize they fucked up giving Adam only a two year contract?”
“Pretty much. So the message I was given was to keep Mr. Lambert happy and safe so the label is also going to spring for a bodyguard and a real PA.”
“Wow at this rate you might even get your own hotel room,” joked Nick.
Rick laughed, “If Adam wants his own floor I can make that happen too. You are this month’s golden boy, Adam”
Adam knew enough about the industry’s fickleness not to get over excited, “Well, I want to stay in their good graces for more than a month so I’ll keep my diva requests to a minimum. I’d just like to have a say in any new staff. I think Jake, Kris’ bodyguard, knows someone good and I don’t really need a PA with Nick around.”
Nick looked at Adam, “I offered to wipe your ass to avert drama but if the label is willing to give you a pro, take it. I need to get busy working with Rick on your media campaign and you are about to get a lot busier, cupcake.”
Adam smirked, “Are we really at the point you can call me cupcake?”
~~~End Part 26~~~