secrets?

[amberdowny]

I do this once in awhile, and I haven't done it in forever. Sometimes people just need an open forum to vent. So, got a secret you want to tell, a rant you want to go on? Silly, serious, whatever, anon is on and I don't judge. Have at it.

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[anonymous]

I fear getting into a new relationship because I'm waiting for the old person I was in love with to come after me. I'm scared that he will, but I'll be taken and cannot be with him -again-. Furthermore, I shouldn't enter into a relationship if part of my heart belongs with someone else.
But I can't hold on forever. Can I? Shouldn't I just move on?

[anonymous]

So I discovered I'm not a virgin as I thought. Turns out I had sex when I was a fair bit younger. Non-consensual sex. It happened ages, years, ago, and I had forgotten about it (read: repressed?) until I found an old journal of mine, where I talk about it. I'm not quite sure how to feel, but it's messing with my head, and explains a lot.

How the heck am I meant to feel about something ike this?!

[anonymous]

Everyone tells me that "when you have kids" that they'll do this, or this will happen. They tell me I'll be a great mom, that I'll have a bunch of kids and they will love them and all sorts of things.

And I know they will do all sorts of crazy awesome things, and I know I will be a great mother.

But what if I'm not? What if I'm not even a mother? What if I keep trying and trying and I'm not? I'd adopt, I'd take foster kids, I might try in vitro... but it's not quite the same. None of that is guaranteed. I may not be a mother, no matter how much I want to

[anonymous]

I tell everyone I'm getting better, but all I'm really doing is looking for a way to hurt myself without them finding out.

Once I figure out how to do that, I know it's just a downward slide until the end.