Yeah, it's funny how I look back and say, "how did I let that bother me back then? How could I have freaked out so much?" Now when shit like that happens, like conflicts online, I just realise I don't much care and shrug and move on. Back then OMG I NEEDED TO BE RIGHT ZOMG I WAS RIGHT.
Now I just shrug and have a hearty chuckle.
Cause I could be dead tomorrow or something. Also because I like pie.
It'll be 3 years in June. I don't know. I mean, overall pretty well I guess. I really turned a corner last year around March or April with the all-consuming sadness. I'm still working through some anger.
There were things about our relationship that were really awful that I couldn't talk to anyone about while they were happening, so all that stuff is sort of coming home to roost. Slowly.
I wish that I had gotten into therapy or something after his stroke. Being the person who does everything for a disabled person is exhausting and you have no one to vent about it to--the few friends I had left either thought the sun rose and set out of his backside and didn't want to hear anything to the contrary or were already positive he was super unhealthy for me and I felt guilty about adding to that. And I couldn't talk to him, because any time I said "Hey, I need you to do this or not do that" he'd throw an extravagant tantrum and/or threaten to kill himself.
Meh. On one hand, it was my fault for reading it, you know? I could have not read it, but I saw the link and just, clicked it. My lesson applies to me, too.
My posts are boring anyway, except for the Greta pictures.
The hermit crabs my mom's daycare had when I was a kid *really* liked dried flies. You could get them in a jar and they were like coated in vitamins. IHNI if they still are available, but they were awesome.
I was wary of the painted shells. I mean, they are awesome and all, but who knows what the paint does to the shells? I could just being overzealous. We got three, and a bunch of extra shells, and they've already migrated around to different ones.
Missed seeing your posts and hoped all was well in your little corner of the world. Miss you in 5-o your stories are fun =)
I truly hope you don't leave lj...dw scares me...nothing about it appeals to me *G*
guess I'll stalk you over at AO3
I also love reading posts about Viola...so much of what she says/does reminds me of my own adventures in raising kids, never a dull moment and lots of fun material that I can use as blackmail later *WEG*
The show is giving me fits this year but it has had it's moments. I stay out of the arguements and have done very good at not atarting any...tho I have been tempted...
and hell have you seen the latest pic of Scott and Alex with another actor? Scott is holding his phone in the pic and low and behold the wallpaper is a pic of him and Alex that must have been just taken...rps'rs are falling all over it....
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Now I just shrug and have a hearty chuckle.
Cause I could be dead tomorrow or something. Also because I like pie.
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There were things about our relationship that were really awful that I couldn't talk to anyone about while they were happening, so all that stuff is sort of coming home to roost. Slowly.
I wish that I had gotten into therapy or something after his stroke. Being the person who does everything for a disabled person is exhausting and you have no one to vent about it to--the few friends I had left either thought the sun rose and set out of his backside and didn't want to hear anything to the contrary or were already positive he was super unhealthy for me and I felt guilty about adding to that. And I couldn't talk to him, because any time I said "Hey, I need you to do this or not do that" he'd throw an extravagant tantrum and/or threaten to kill himself.
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HUGS.
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The hermit crabs my mom's daycare had when I was a kid *really* liked dried flies. You could get them in a jar and they were like coated in vitamins. IHNI if they still are available, but they were awesome.
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Did you get awesome painted shells for their next trade up?
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I truly hope you don't leave lj...dw scares me...nothing about it appeals to me *G*
guess I'll stalk you over at AO3
I also love reading posts about Viola...so much of what she says/does reminds me of my own adventures in raising kids, never a dull moment and lots of fun material that I can use as blackmail later *WEG*
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You're in 5-0? Haaahahaaahaha.
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The show is giving me fits this year but it has had it's moments. I stay out of the arguements and have done very good at not atarting any...tho I have been tempted...
and hell have you seen the latest pic of Scott and Alex with another actor? Scott is holding his phone in the pic and low and behold the wallpaper is a pic of him and Alex that must have been just taken...rps'rs are falling all over it....
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