fic: four steps backward, one step forward.

[alwaysenduphere]

title: four steps backward, one step forward
rating: pg-13
characters: dean, sam
summary: No matter what happens, Sam knows his brother.
notes: 1850 words. Written for geckoholic over at spn_rambleon, who requested "Dean-centric S4 PTSD fic. Because there can NEVER be enough. I'd prefer the non-spectacular kind, though, quiet observations by Sam, maybe?" I hope this

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[tifaching]

"So Sam will push that luck, will try to look Dean in the eye and say something like, “There’s no going back, you know? To that person you were. Before.” So perfect. And so true. And now it's true for both of them. Sam is now where Dean was then. Only more so. It'll be interesting to see what two people come out the other side of this.

This was, as the prompt requested, quiet and it was also gorgeous and sad and what I wish the show would have given us a little more of.

Thanks so much for sharing!

[alwaysenduphere]

It's so crazy how their lives keep crossing and flipping perspectives despite everything they try to do otherwise, isn't it? I wish the show would show us more of the simple things, too.

I'm glad you enjoyed, thank you!

four steps backward, one step forward

[catsintheattic]

This fic made me think about how much the boys have aged since season one. They've been through so much, and all of it has left its mark on both of them. And this story shows us how much exactly, in such a quiet acknowledgment of their misery that was season four, that it almost broke my heart.

And that's a good thing.

Re: four steps backward, one step forward

[alwaysenduphere]

Gosh, yes, they have changed so much. But they are still them at the same time, you know? Brothers, after everything.

Thank you for reading. <3

[roque_clasique]

So lovely and so spot-on to both Sam and Dean. I love it.

[alwaysenduphere]

Thank you!

[geckoholic]

Sam listening to Dean's nightmares and angsting up a storm about it will never, ever get old. *sniffles* And the drinking... :(

There are lots of things that worry Sam - when he's going to sleep, where he's getting money for his next meal, if he'll live through the night - but none worry him more than the strangled sounds Dean makes when he's scared. “Dean?”
That sound you just heard? Never mind, only my heart breaking for both of them.

I love the thought of Sams presence being Dean's anchor during that time, despite everything that's askew between them.

And the last section is so amazing. I love that you wrote it in a way that reads as if it might've happened that way or not and Sam just imagined it, and oh man, my heart. Again. BOYS!!

THANK YOU SO, SO MUCH FOR WRITING THIS. IT'S PERFECT AND GORGEOUS AND EXACTLY WHAT I HAD IN MIND. ♥

[alwaysenduphere]

YAAAAAAAY YOU'RE WELCOME I'M SO EXCITED THAT YOU LIKE IT! :D

I love the thought of Sams presence being Dean's anchor during that time, despite everything that's askew between them.
I could probably write a whole separate story on how I believe that, honestly. Even as e v e r y t h i n g in their lives is changing irreparably they are forever each others' anchors.

Sam is forever an optimistic person. It's what I love about him.

❤

[ficwriter1966]

That's absolutely gorgeous. Kudos!

[alwaysenduphere]

Thank youuu!