If you want something you've never had, you have to do something you've never done...

Dec 31, 2011 16:57

So, this week has been kind of a bust. Or not, depending on how you look at it. I can look back and name off the meals I cooked and the things I cleaned and the time I spent with Aaron or reading to the little kids, or the hours and hours and hours sleeping in and laying around with my illnesses. I read a book and two epic length fanfiction stories ( Read more... )

college, iud, 2011, weight loss, birth control, new years, writing, grant and i

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mommydama January 1 2012, 03:05:12 UTC
One of my biggest issues with losing weight is the horrible sinking feeling I get when I think about giving up one of the last physical pleasures in my life. Yeah, I need counseling for this one too I'm sure.

I've been so impressed with your taking the bull by the horns so to speak with your marriage and school and writing. It is really wonderful and inspiring.

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altarflame January 1 2012, 03:39:00 UTC
I totally use food and drinks as a substitute for sex and affection in general. Even though Grant and I are doing better, he still works long hours, and we still have a lot of kids, and there are really tons of times I'm doing that. When we were having problems, I remember an instance of standing in the grocery store arguing because he didn't think I should get some rich desert-y thing since I was trying to lose weight, and I was getting all loud like, "I have to put SOMETHING inside my body, one way or the other!" I really believe it would be easy to lose weight if I could get it on as often as I wanted to. Times in my life when I was having a whole lot of sex are really the only times I can remember that weren't especially food-oriented times.

Thank you :) It means a lot to me. I consider it "grabbing life by the balls", but yours works too :p

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eternamariposa January 1 2012, 20:09:24 UTC
Blast it all, I hope that Mom talked about our conversation in an ok way. It was not a " I know and have you SEEN her lately?!" kind of deal at all. We were talking about your hernia/diastasis because she wanted to know how things were going and were you any closer to surgery ( ... )

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itsyspy70 January 2 2012, 05:55:19 UTC
You have done a helluva lot!

Weight is hard. I am finally seeing the scale go slowly, steadily, SLOWLY down from 265 (two years ago) to 205 (saturday!). The WW app (and the new barcode scanner one!) have helped a lot for me, but it's hard to eat less than I want and drink all the water I should even when I know it works when I do it. One of my coworkers is also doing WW so we talk about troubleshooting problems we are having a lot and have water-chug-competitions. Its silly but it's helped.

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ecosopher January 2 2012, 14:07:12 UTC
This has been such a full on year for you, but in so many good ways, it seems. I'm really so happy for you that you and Grant found your groove again :) And also that you were able to go to uni, that is fantastic, and deserves a huge congratulations in doing so well, because it's NOT EASY to be studying while looking after children, let alone the fact that you are homeschooling 4 of them!

When I see pictures of your children, wow, you are doing such an awesome job with them.

I keep hearing such good things about IUDs and yet... well, it's good to have yet another person tell me how great they are. I'm glad it's working for you - definitely the hit-and-miss method of contraception is NOT a good idea (it's how I'm dicing with pregnancy now and I just don't know what I'm going to do about it.../whole other story)

This: the guy called me and told me I have a serious eating disorder that's beyond their ability to treat so he couldn't see me anymore. They gave me a name and number to some place I never called and I freaked out and ( ... )

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anonymous January 3 2012, 19:03:41 UTC
I totally have the same issue with respect to eating/sex being related, the only times I've lost weight easily and kept it off effortlessly was during periods in which really good sex was happening at least once a day...otherwise I consume to fill the void. You've done so well at the issues in your life you've focused on, I'll be interested to read of your journey on this one.

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