Harsh realizations.

[alphafem67]

WARNING: this post is boring personal stuff, and I am too upset to even do a cut.

I am sitting here in a really pissy mood. I opened up an email from my sister saying how bad she feels for my Mom right now, and it made me break down in tears.

My Mom  has been really sick with bronchitis lately and has practically needed around the clock care from

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[anonymous]

The sandwich generation, that about says it all. I understand your being upset about Alex's team and him feeling like a failure, it kills us as parents to see our kids hurt.

Sorry about my catalytic email. I think both you and I are feeling things that are brand new i.e., our own mortality. Every time I help mom with her canes and wheelchair, I can't help but think "is this what Erica will be doing some day?" Just being so up close with mom yesterday, doing all those things for her that dad normally does (and it is a lot) was emotionally exhausting. I couldn't get her wheelchair through the restaurant door and it was so frustrating, (people seemed annoyed that they had to wait behind us), helping her undress, getting her to the bathroom, getting her wheelchair in and out of the trunk etc... I was in a different vantage point--behind the wheelchair--it was a huge eye opener for me.

Love you sis, don't know how I could handle any of this without you.

[alphafem67]

I think you hit the nail on the head--I am feeling MY mortality. I thought the same exact thing. Are my kids gonna have to do this for me someday??? Poor Mom and Dad, dealing with that wheelchair is such a pain and people shouldn't be upset when they have to wait 2 extra seconds to get through the door. Buttheads.

I know I couldn't do this without you to vent to. Love you too.

[call_me_ps]

I can't imagine how hard it is to see your parents like that. :-( I'm sad for Alex, too, but losing does build character (says the Chicago Cubs fan). It's okay to have a down day. When the hubby gets home, leave the kids with him and take some time for yourself. *hugs*

[alphafem67]

Thank you Beth. Maybe I'll use the Cubs as an example for Alex. :D I realize how it will make him stronger someday, that's so true, but damn it hurts me to the bone to see him so discouraged. I can't dwell on it with him, so I'll vent here, I guess.

[anonymous]

Bleh. I'm sorry you're dealing with all this Chris. This grandma and grandpa stuff is so hard to watch, and I've been taking the wimpy way out and not being too involved. I can't even imagine what you and my mom are going through. They're lucky to have such sweet daughters.

That's breaking my heart about Alex!! It will make him stronger, agreed. But that doesn't make watching him fail any easier!

caca

[alphafem67]

You haven't taken the wimpy way out, Caca. You are busy with your own life and luckily me and your Mom can help out. Really I've been okay with it, as much one can be, until I read your Mom's letter and then it hit me for some reason. I think I've climbed down off the ledge now, though. C:

This will be just one of many things Alex (and his mother) will have to endure. Sigh. Hopefully it'll turn around for him and his team.

[callie_828]

I'm sorry, Chris. :( *huggles* You and your parents will be in my thoughts and prayers.

I know what it's like to feel stressed and helpless and it's just one of those things that you have to let drift out of your mind while you read a good book or drink a glass of red wine. Or four glasses. :P

Don't worry about Alex. Just keep supporting him, keep letting him know that ALL great sports players lost plenty of games (because it's true) and that if he keeps at it, he's bound to get better. I played softball for five years, and in that time I was part of a team that went undefeated for two years and part of TWO teams that won fewer than 4 games in a season. Combined. lol It never made me feel like I wasn't worthy of playing the game and it never destroyed my love for it. Besides, it's not supposed to be about winning, right? (So why do they keep score then, eh? lol)

I hope you're able to take some time for yourself and relax. If you need to talk, you know where you can find me. *hug*

[alphafem67]

Thank you Callie. Thank you thank you. You always know just what to say AND you used a Clive icon!!!!

I know things will be fine with Alex and his team, win or lose.

*hugs*