Help Unwanted Chapter Six
Title: Help Unwanted
Author: alltimelow09876
Pairing: Merrikat
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: I don't own these lovely boys.
this is all fake blah blah blah you know the drill.A
A/N So, I'm not sure if you guys are actually
reading this but if you are thank you I really
apretiate it! So yeah i hope you guys like it!
Lyrics belong to My Only One by All Time Low
http://alltimelow09876.livejournal.com/2593.html
All the letters are pretty much the same, Alex apologizes for things he's done wrong and tell us he's leaving. This obviously wasn't a spur of the moment thing. It was planned out. He made sure someone was watching Peyton and Sebastian, his dogs. He wrote the letters, closed up this house and found a way to get where he was going without taking his car. He's a smart boy, if he doesn't want to be found, he won't be. Rian and Matt are here and we are all sitting at the kitchen table. I notice Matt keeps stairing at me, while everyone is talking and it's really starting to piss me off.
"Aren't you going to say anything Jack? I mean c'mon the kid was your best friend. He runs off and it's like he never mattered to you." Matt says. At this point I'm ready to send my fist through a wall. I stand up so fast I send my chair clattering to the floor. I slam my hands down on the table and get right in Matt's face, and I just let him have it.
"First off how fucking dare you say I don't care about Alex! He is my best friend and second what the hell do you want me to say? Do you want me to tell you that he's been in love with me and I've been to fucking stupid to realise it?! or that I hurt my best friend without even knowing it! or better yet do you want me to tell you that he's gone because of me? Cause he is!" I scream
"I knew it was your fault. I fucking knew it! I can't believe that he could ever love a selfesh bastard like you!"
" Yeah Matt, cause he should fucking love you right? cause you are some kind of god damn saint right?!"
"I'm sure as hell a lot better than you!"
"Get the fuck out of my house!"
"Glady." Matt says stormign out of the kitchen. Rian just looks at me and shakes his head, than follows Matt out the door. I hear Matt's car peal out of the driveway and speed down the road.... It's been a month since the night Matt and I had it out and I have yet to see or talk to him. and honestly I don't see anything getting better between us anytime soon. It's not that I don't want to fix things cause I do. I'm just not willing to cave first. I was always one to cave and apologize, even when it wasn't my fault. But ever since Zack and I have been together I have found a new sence of confidence. Alex's leaving has also helped with that in a way. It's made me fend for myself. Ever since I was little I alwasy had Alex to protect me and stand up for me, so I never learned to do it for myself. It's funny how you grow to rely on someone assuming that they will never leave and when they do you end up lost and for the first time you have to start doing things on your own and you become stronger for it.
" Jacky get dressed, I have a suprize for you."
"I don't want to ."
"C'mon1 or I'll dress you myself."
"You can dress me that's cool."
" Just get dressed stupid!" I roll our of bed and jump a little as my bare feet hit the cold floor. I walk over to my closet and pull out my black and red Boner shirt and a pair of dark skinny jeans. I pull a pair of boxers out of the drawer and throw everything on. I slip on a pair of Hawks, put my wallet and phone in my pocket then walk down stairs, Zack and I get in the car and pull out of the driveway. He won't tell me where we are going, but we've been driving for a while and al I've seen is trees. After 45 more minutes we pull off the road and get out of the car. Zack pops the trunk and pulls out a picnic basket, a blanket and his accustic guitar. He pulls his guitar over his head and grabs my hand. We walk through a patch of trees and into a clearing by a sparkling pond. He spreads out the blue and red blanket on the ground, and sets down his guitar and the basket. We sit down and Zack starts pulling things out. He pulls out red wine, sandwiches, crackers, cheese, brownies and red solo cups. He lays everything out on the blanket and smiles at me.
"You did all this for me?"
"Yeah, I know things have been hard for you lately and I just wantd to see my baby smile again."
"Well you sure got me to do that!"
"Oh and I have another suprize for you!" he says pulling his guitar our and starting to strum. He looks up at me and starts to sing.
Paint yourself a picture, something perfectly obscure
To hide away the messes behind your manicure
And all of my obsessing to find the perfect words
Sick of second guessing, I didn't mean to make you hurt
Didn't mean to make you hurt, hurt hurt
What do you say when your heart's not in it, your heart's not in it?
What do you do when you just don't get it, you just don't get it?
Where do you go when you reach your limit, you reach your limit?
'Cause all I know, all I know is
You are my only one, you are my only one
You are my only one, that's all I know, you're all I know
Break another mirror to keep away the stares
Of another guilty reflex, a reflection left in tears
And all of my obsessing, tell me what was it worth?
Guess I should have learned my lesson, I didn't mean to make you hurt
Didn't mean to make you hurt, hurt, hurt
What do you say when your heart's not in it, your heart's not in it?
What do you do when you just don't get it, you just don't get it?
Where do you go when you reach your limit, you reach your limit?
'Cause all I know, all I know is
You are my only one, you are my only one
You are my only one, that's all I know, you're all I know
Wake me, early I've been dreaming
Dreaming that I'm only, only good enough for me and no one else
So wake me, early I've been dreaming
Dreaming that I'm only, only good enough for me and no one else
What do you say when your heart's not in it, your heart's not in it?
What do you do when you just don't get it, you just don't get it?
Where do you go when you reach your limit, you reach your limit?
'Cause all I know, all I know is
You are my only one, you are my only one
You are my only one, that's all I know, it's all I know
You are my only one, you are my only one
You are my only one, that's all I know, you're all I know
When he finishes there are tears in my eyes and the biggest smile on my face.
"N'aw baby! don't cry, was it that bad?"
" NO! I love it!"
"I wrote it just for you."
"Baby! what did I ever do to desever such a perfect boyfriend?"
"I guess the same thing I did to desever you." He leans in and kissed me. It's not rough or fast. it's sweet and slow, even a little needy, but it's perfect. just like every other kiss we've ever shared. We pull apart and lay together, me with my head on his brod chest,
"I love you Jackamo"
" I love you too Zee"
Author: alltimelow09876
Pairing: Merrikat
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: I don't own these lovely boys.
this is all fake blah blah blah you know the drill.A
A/N So, I'm not sure if you guys are actually
reading this but if you are thank you I really
apretiate it! So yeah i hope you guys like it!
Lyrics belong to My Only One by All Time Low
http://alltimelow09876.livejournal.com/2593.html
All the letters are pretty much the same, Alex apologizes for things he's done wrong and tell us he's leaving. This obviously wasn't a spur of the moment thing. It was planned out. He made sure someone was watching Peyton and Sebastian, his dogs. He wrote the letters, closed up this house and found a way to get where he was going without taking his car. He's a smart boy, if he doesn't want to be found, he won't be. Rian and Matt are here and we are all sitting at the kitchen table. I notice Matt keeps stairing at me, while everyone is talking and it's really starting to piss me off.
"Aren't you going to say anything Jack? I mean c'mon the kid was your best friend. He runs off and it's like he never mattered to you." Matt says. At this point I'm ready to send my fist through a wall. I stand up so fast I send my chair clattering to the floor. I slam my hands down on the table and get right in Matt's face, and I just let him have it.
"First off how fucking dare you say I don't care about Alex! He is my best friend and second what the hell do you want me to say? Do you want me to tell you that he's been in love with me and I've been to fucking stupid to realise it?! or that I hurt my best friend without even knowing it! or better yet do you want me to tell you that he's gone because of me? Cause he is!" I scream
"I knew it was your fault. I fucking knew it! I can't believe that he could ever love a selfesh bastard like you!"
" Yeah Matt, cause he should fucking love you right? cause you are some kind of god damn saint right?!"
"I'm sure as hell a lot better than you!"
"Get the fuck out of my house!"
"Glady." Matt says stormign out of the kitchen. Rian just looks at me and shakes his head, than follows Matt out the door. I hear Matt's car peal out of the driveway and speed down the road.... It's been a month since the night Matt and I had it out and I have yet to see or talk to him. and honestly I don't see anything getting better between us anytime soon. It's not that I don't want to fix things cause I do. I'm just not willing to cave first. I was always one to cave and apologize, even when it wasn't my fault. But ever since Zack and I have been together I have found a new sence of confidence. Alex's leaving has also helped with that in a way. It's made me fend for myself. Ever since I was little I alwasy had Alex to protect me and stand up for me, so I never learned to do it for myself. It's funny how you grow to rely on someone assuming that they will never leave and when they do you end up lost and for the first time you have to start doing things on your own and you become stronger for it.
" Jacky get dressed, I have a suprize for you."
"I don't want to ."
"C'mon1 or I'll dress you myself."
"You can dress me that's cool."
" Just get dressed stupid!" I roll our of bed and jump a little as my bare feet hit the cold floor. I walk over to my closet and pull out my black and red Boner shirt and a pair of dark skinny jeans. I pull a pair of boxers out of the drawer and throw everything on. I slip on a pair of Hawks, put my wallet and phone in my pocket then walk down stairs, Zack and I get in the car and pull out of the driveway. He won't tell me where we are going, but we've been driving for a while and al I've seen is trees. After 45 more minutes we pull off the road and get out of the car. Zack pops the trunk and pulls out a picnic basket, a blanket and his accustic guitar. He pulls his guitar over his head and grabs my hand. We walk through a patch of trees and into a clearing by a sparkling pond. He spreads out the blue and red blanket on the ground, and sets down his guitar and the basket. We sit down and Zack starts pulling things out. He pulls out red wine, sandwiches, crackers, cheese, brownies and red solo cups. He lays everything out on the blanket and smiles at me.
"You did all this for me?"
"Yeah, I know things have been hard for you lately and I just wantd to see my baby smile again."
"Well you sure got me to do that!"
"Oh and I have another suprize for you!" he says pulling his guitar our and starting to strum. He looks up at me and starts to sing.
Paint yourself a picture, something perfectly obscure
To hide away the messes behind your manicure
And all of my obsessing to find the perfect words
Sick of second guessing, I didn't mean to make you hurt
Didn't mean to make you hurt, hurt hurt
What do you say when your heart's not in it, your heart's not in it?
What do you do when you just don't get it, you just don't get it?
Where do you go when you reach your limit, you reach your limit?
'Cause all I know, all I know is
You are my only one, you are my only one
You are my only one, that's all I know, you're all I know
Break another mirror to keep away the stares
Of another guilty reflex, a reflection left in tears
And all of my obsessing, tell me what was it worth?
Guess I should have learned my lesson, I didn't mean to make you hurt
Didn't mean to make you hurt, hurt, hurt
What do you say when your heart's not in it, your heart's not in it?
What do you do when you just don't get it, you just don't get it?
Where do you go when you reach your limit, you reach your limit?
'Cause all I know, all I know is
You are my only one, you are my only one
You are my only one, that's all I know, you're all I know
Wake me, early I've been dreaming
Dreaming that I'm only, only good enough for me and no one else
So wake me, early I've been dreaming
Dreaming that I'm only, only good enough for me and no one else
What do you say when your heart's not in it, your heart's not in it?
What do you do when you just don't get it, you just don't get it?
Where do you go when you reach your limit, you reach your limit?
'Cause all I know, all I know is
You are my only one, you are my only one
You are my only one, that's all I know, it's all I know
You are my only one, you are my only one
You are my only one, that's all I know, you're all I know
When he finishes there are tears in my eyes and the biggest smile on my face.
"N'aw baby! don't cry, was it that bad?"
" NO! I love it!"
"I wrote it just for you."
"Baby! what did I ever do to desever such a perfect boyfriend?"
"I guess the same thing I did to desever you." He leans in and kissed me. It's not rough or fast. it's sweet and slow, even a little needy, but it's perfect. just like every other kiss we've ever shared. We pull apart and lay together, me with my head on his brod chest,
"I love you Jackamo"
" I love you too Zee"