Help Unwanted Chapter Five
Title: Help Unwanted
Author:alltimelow09876
Piring: Merrikat
POV: Jack
Raiting: PG-13
Disclaimer: I Don't own these lovely boys
blah blah blah you know the drill
A/N sorry i didnt update last week, I
had a bit of writers block and a very
stessful weekend. I'm sorry if this is
a shitty chapter, i got some pretty
bad new on saturday and i tried to
finish the chapter anyway so i hope
it's okay. I'll go back to posting every
monday again. thanks for reading guys!
http://alltimelow09876.livejournal.com/2593.html
8 am could not have come any faster. I am so excited to go home. I love touring and I love the fans don't get me wrong, but I can't deal with the fighting. We all just need some space before Warped Tour, and Zack and I need some time to do couple stuff and have lazt days where all we do is watch movues and cuddle. I get pulled out of my thoughs when I feel Zack playing with my hair. I roll over and nuzzle my head into Zacks shoulder.
"Good morning beautiful" Zack says
"mmm, Good morning baby" I say into his shoulder
"It's 7:45 we should probably get ready to go." I nod my head in agreement and get up to get dressed. I'm honestly not paying attention to what I'm putting on cause Zack is getting undressed right in front of me and all I can do is look at him and think how beautiful he is. Zack looks up and sees me stairing at him.
"What?" He says blushing
"N-nothing you are just so beautiful."
"I'm nothing compaired to you" he says pulling on pants
"You are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen, I mean it."
"Come here." he says holding out his arms. I walk across the room into his imbrace. It's the best feeling in the world. His big arms around me, his smell filling my noes. It's these moments when the whole world fades away and it's just Zack and I, it's like nothing can hurt us. I bury my face into the curve of his neck and wrao my arms around him. We stay like this for a long time, not saying anytthing, but it's a comfortable scilence. I'm so reluctent to let him go but I know it's time to go to the airport. We gather our bags and head down to the lobby, fingers interlocked. We get down to the lobby. and everyone's there. Matt is handing out boarding passes and pass ports. Once we all have our things we start saying our goodbyes. I've said goodbye to everyone exvept Alex when he walks over to me and looks at me. I see something in his eyes but I can't pinpoint exactly what it is.
"We're going to be okay right Jack?"
"I don't know Alex, I want to be okay, but you have to work things out with Zack first. Then we can work on us."
"Okay, I get it... can I have a hug goodbye?"
"Yeah." I said pulling him into a hug
"Goodbye Jack."
"Goodbye Alex." I pull away from Alex and walk over to Zack. We wave to everyone and walk out the lobby doors to get a cab. I don't know exactly why but I feel like this is the last time we're all going to be together as one band, but I keep the though to myself. The plane ride home is boring and long, Zack spends most of the flight sleeping, but I can't. I just keep thinking about the possibility that maybe we won't ever play as one band again. I feel like Alex is going to be the one to put us on a hiatus or even break us up.
Zack and I have been home for almost a week and it's been really nice waking up next to him everymorning, and cuddling in bed. you know doing all the things couples do. Zack is in the shower and I decided to go check the mail. It's mostly the usual, bills, junk mail, but then I see two letters. One adressed to me and the other adressed to Zack. I leave the rest of the mail on the counter in the kitchen and walk upstairs. I put Zack's letter on his pillow and I go to sit in the living room so I can read my letter.
Dear Jack,
Out of the four letters I had to write yours was the hardest. I have so much to tell you and so much to apologize for. I guess I should start by telling you why I'm writing this letter. I'm leaving, I need to get out of here. I don't know when or if I'll be back, but I'll find a way to let you guys know if I'll be back in time for Warped Tour or not. I'll give enough notice so they can find anohter headliner if need be. Anyway, please don't try to find me. I'll be long gone before you get this letter. So I guess it's time to get to the confessing and explaining. So, that night I was drunk and went after Zack, well remember when I said I loved you? Well I didn't say it because I was drunk. Well I guess did but only because I was too afriad to say it sober. I do love you Jack. But not brother love or best friend love. I'm in love with you, just like you and Zack are in love, and like how Rian and Cass are in love. that kind of love. That's also why I freaked out on Zack. I'm not trying to make excuses for what happened because there is no excuse. It was horrible what I did and I'm so sorry. I just love you so much and seeing you with him makes me crazy. I'm only telling you know because you desirve an explination, I owe you that much. I'm not in any way trying to get in the way of what you and Zack have. that's the last thing I want to do. But I do want to be best friends, brothers again, just like it used to be before I went and messed everything up. I really don't what what else to say so I'm just going to go. Just remeber this isn't goodbye, it's be right back.
Be RIght Back Jack..
~Alexander William Gaskarth.
I slump back in my chair in shock. Alex is in love with me? I mean I do love him, I'm just not in love with him. Zack walks in holding his letter. He walks over to the chair and hugs me.
" You got a letter from Alex too didn't you?" I just nod as the tears start rolling down my checks. "I'm sorry baby, It'll be okay I promise." he says hugging me tighter. "I'm going to call Matt and Rian okay?" I just nod letting the letter it the floor as Zack walks out of the room. and the only thing I can think is.. HE'S GONE BECAUSE OF ME.